[HotRod]

I love threads like this.

It's a complex issue and I'm probably a text book case.

Check out my stats below. It's not as if I don't have a decent penis.

Usually, women I've been with have been really happy to have me as a lover. One girlfriend who was quite sexually experienced once said, "I think you've got a pretty amazing cock," after a hot session. Size didn't seem to be the key though. I seemed to be able to reach her from some angles and with vigor that she found exciting. I'm currently single and frustrated as hell, by the way. Goddamit!

Anyway...

1975
It all began at about age 8 when I was urinating outdoors with some neighborhood friends. They all began laughing and pointing at my flaccid penis and how small it was. It hurt my feelings and made me self-conscious. Most of my self-consciousness was around boys though. Girls have never laughed. So in a way, I'm doing this as a competitive thing with other men. I want to step into more of an alpha male status - not just in penis size mind you. I'm making other changes in my life too.

1985
When I was 17 years old I had a sex education teacher tell the class that penis enlargement was bogus. He told us we were just born with what we were born with. I know he was just trying to assuage any budding complexes may have been in that room, but it was a lie. Lies are never good things.

I think I had seen ads about penis enlargement in Hustler magazines and other porn I managed to get my hands on. Penis pumps and probably some other techniques were advertized.

1997
I once divulged my self-consciousness to another male friend. I had been celebate for about 6 or 7 years and told him that I didn't know if I was sexually adequate. He proceeded to tell me that when he was growing up he earned a nickname in the locker room. They called him Fatboy. His penis was unusually thick. He said he even had girls tell him that he was too big. So he said, "Forget about the dick thing. Women are more interested in the WAY you touch them."

2000
I found a penis enlargement pay site in about 2000. I think it was called Penile Health something or other. I ended up finding a way into the site for free and read about jelqing. It just seemed like too much daily physical punishment, and then I found things that warned against trying to enlarge your penis again, saying it was bogus. It may be good that I only tried jelqing a couple of times then because I was almost certainly on injury lane. I was a much more obsessive lad then than I am now, and the advise I found recommended much more intense workouts than I have found recently here and on other sites.

Present Day
Sometimes I've noticed that my erections vary in intensity. I'm 40 now and I sometimes wonder if my body isn't just starting to change. I want to have the healthiest fullest erection possible for any future lovers that come along. I get a thrill out of turning a woman on. (It would be nice to finally find one who gets as much of a thrill from turning a man on. Please tell me they exist.)

I also like to look at pornography, and so I'm always seeing these incredibly beautiful girls get penetrated with big cocks. Now some of these cocks are of proportions I would never want to acheive. But some of them are just aesthetically proportionate to their bodies and female anatomy.

Probably more striking to me is the standard size of dildos and vibrators...hmmm, why do you suppose they market dildos at a certain size? I started thinking that it is because that is about the size that most women would have fun playing with. Seems like my cock isn't quite as big as many dildos are, especially girth. This isn't always the case. Some dildos and vibrators are smaller than my cock and I watch girls in porn have a lot of fun with them. However, it seems like a lot of them are just a little big bigger. Hmm.

For the last couple of years I've sometimes looked myself in the mirror and just thought: "Wow! If my penis were just a little bit bigger. Just a little. About an inch longer and about an inch greater girth. That would look really nice on me."

So I'm doing PE as sort of an experiment. If it helps my erections, I will keep doing it. If it turns out that I grow a little bit, I will seriously look at what I need to do to make my goal.

If I reach my target goal of 1 inch length and about 1 inch in girth, I will wear t-shirts, slap bumper stickers on my car, tell my friends and family, start a blog, tell all my ex-girlfriends what they are missing, and bounce that bad boy off my current girlfriend's forehead to the beat of Todd Rundgren's "I Don't Want to Work (I Just Want to Bang on My Drum All Day)" - well maybe I won't do that, but you get the idea that I think I will be overjoyed and heartily amused!