Despite the previous excitement of possibly having quality EQ quickly after beginning to AP90 I have been knocked back into reality. A lousy EQ session with the wife of all things made me realize how far I really have to go.

Afterwards we actually talked about it, she assumed it was her fault. I actually talked her out of that line of thought. We discussed how I have ED, which I believe was brought on by porn and poor masturbation habits. I told her about the AP90 and how it looks like it may kill my EQ even more in the short run, but hopefully get it back in the long run. She was supportive, but just wanted to make sure foreplay was still in the picture.

So, we decided we're not going to do any quickies for now, and that will limit our sex a little bit. The sex we do have we will allow a longer period of time for and make sure to do plenty of foreplay. When we do plenty of foreplay, almost either way, I have adequate EQ and I last almost an appropriate amount of time.

As far as personal practice goes, I am going to continue the JP90, AP90 and I will balloon, edge or whatever when the feeling hits. I will not force that. I do hope it hits at least once every 3 or 4 days so I can empty.

These are my short term goals:
1. Get that feeling down there again, this can be done with flirting with the wife
2. Continue JP90 and AP90
3. Get enough personal EQ to utilize FL for masturbation, I think I can use this by using physical indicators or whatever