I'm posting because it's a special date 3/21/13... I'll get to that in a minute, it's a thing about numerology.

I've been "okay" February was a TOUGH month for me. well 2013 has been a tough year so far... First my New Years Eve exploits... holy shnickeys! LMAO! never gonna do THAT again, ROFL! ever instantly regret something? yea...

Well to be clear me and the "dream girl" broke up in Mid January. I go back to my "Full Bars"... At some level ...

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I didn't worry about not being the best with my previous partner... I scored... I placed on the board, and the more we were together the better I got. The better I got and the more we were together, the more places I took... I eventually would have taken over 1st 2nd and 3rd spots... as well as 4th 5th 6th and 7th (she didn't have that many partners, but my name would have been in those slots too, LMFAO!

Made me laugh because the essence of it is true. Regardless ...

and by that I mean esteem!!!

So some of you may have seen my post about the girl in the woman's section... Turns out this girl that chatted me up is an active athlete... I figured she was well proportioned very nice body, but the fact that she chatted me up like she did... HAAAAAHAHAHAHAHA


Not gonna say that's the first time it's happened, but it is the first time in a long time a hot girl with a good head on her shoulders has taken me seriously .

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Super ecstatic, again! Stepped on the scale and it's been, lately consistently not hitting the 220 line!

jumped on it today and while it's not the lowest I've seen, I'm also not "dry" (excuse the information, but I've not "checked my baggage" yet) so I know i'm still a little heavier than I should be....

216lbs consistently over the last couple of days. Now, I have an analog scale so you can see the progress through the "sections" and Seeing ...

Had a massive panic attack about 3 hours ago. I've never had one before. It started in my sleep over something stupid, and it just spiraled. My chest hurts. no cold sweat, just really anxious. I'm fidgety. Couldn't really go back to sleep. I'm thinking I might should go to the Gym.

I think I'll go. This place motivates me... when ever I post my blog, I feel convicted for not going to the Gym. I'm going now.


Okay, back now...

This is crazy, I feel a little ...