Well.. To start out.. I first experienced my first signs of anxiety symptoms after smoking synthetic weed after about 2-3 months of smoking it. At first.. It was just trouble catching my breathe.
I noticed I would only feel this way when I smoked it. But I persisted.. Because the stuff was cheep/legal/scentless so I could practically smoke it anywhere without getting caught.. I was pretty bad that I would smoke in the bathrooms at my job.. 3-4 times every hour. Being high to me made time fly by..
At the time Ive just came out of the military after doing 3 years. I was working 2 jobs. (Toys R Us 10pm-6am) and then home depot either 8am-5pm or 9-6 or 10-7. I was getting about 32-40 hours from each job)
While I was high, I would fear that my managers could tell I was high.. Which I think brought in the paranoia which contributed..
Maybe because I wasnt getting enough sleep? Or it was the green.
Well the symptoms progressed to chest pain, heart palputations. They were EXTREMLY painfull and its something you cant ignore. It was hard to breathe aswell so I really thought I was having a heart attack.. Because I had most symtoms of it.
I stopped smoking the synthetic shit and I never smoked anything again. Which probably increased my anxiety... It was something I loved.
Even to this day... I cant smoke regular weed without getting extremly anxious or a panic attack.
To make it short, I had my first panic attack at toys r us. I relaxed in the bathroom. The attacked lasted for about 6 hours.. It was horrible.
After having another attack. I went to the hospital.. Only to be cleared and perfectly healthy.
They did EKG,s / Blood testing / Pics of heart / brain. All good
For the 6 hours I was their.. I could barely talk or feel my body. It felt like sand.. They gave me a xanax and EVERYTHING went away in 3 minutes.. It was amazing.
My doc had me on celexa 20 then to 40mg which worked for a couple months. Then most recently.. Shit hit the fan.
The chest pains are worse/ cant breathe.. Keeping myself busy No longer helps anymore. Before If I kept myself busy, I would NEVER get anxious.
Honest to god I dont know why this happening to me, I dont have a stressfull life anymore. Everything is good except this!
I cant do simple things anymore.. Exercise without feeling im gona have a heart attack, go to any store and getting numb everywhere/hard to breathe.
I miss my old life.. I remember a time when I had NONE of this shit. And I know the military didnt cause this.
Ever since taking the celexa, I couldnt keep an erection for more than 25 seconds. Which makes it impossible to jelq.
My sex life is crap I cant keep an erection, I now have viagra.. But im 20 years old! I never needed it before
I think im depressed about because I feel this way now 24/7. I used to live a normal life but it all stopped one day..
Ive changed up meds but it takes awhile to kick in. And my doc isnt allowed to prescribe fast acting anxiety pills.. Nor do I want to try it.
I think exercise/diet will help me. I havent exercised since I started having these symptoms. Ill tell you ive tried many times to do simple exercises.. But I get so fkin anxious I cant do anything and I end up quitting.
I am eatingpretty good, but the only supplements I take is a multivitamin.
If anyone went through what im goin through. I would so appreciate the advice, its bean about a good 7 months of hell, and im desperate for help.