I feel like shit. Yesterday I went out with some friends. I drank A LOT! + I smoked one cigarette (= great to puke). My lungs feel like cigarettes, I've quited for 9 months. I had to vomit so badly on my way home, I stood there next the road puking on the grass.
I still feel the smoke in my nose, it sucks so bad goddamnit I never smoke again!
+ on top of that, I got angry at some dude who is a friend of my best friend but he doesn't respect me. And I was so tired of it. I started jelling at my best friend etc. How I would kick his ass etc.. Now I'm like: "ugh". you know I apoligazed to my friend and luckily he found it fair of me, to get that mad. I had the right to be mad he said.
+ on top on top of that, all my friends went home. I didn't want to go home so I decided fuck it I'm gonna go back to the pub. I walked in, ordered another beer. and just stood there. This girl came talking to me, we sat down, and she started to ask me if I wanted to kiss etc.. I took her to a darker place where my bike was and we made out. One of the ugliest chicks ever. Really, omg, if I think about her face now I need to puke again (sorry ladies, I know this sounds superficial but looks do count).
I pulled my pants of and she started sucking it, she came on top of me.. I lay there in the grass, all of a sudden some dude walked in and just looked at us. I was there naked in the grass with that girl on top of me .. He just calmly walked away.
I still smell her shitty parfum. God..
She started talking about "we should go there, it's a great sex place, I've fucked a couple of times there" .. (I knew this chick for like 10 minutes) .. WTF. I just stood up and walked to my bike (I was sooo wasted). She was still looking for her bra in the grass. I just left.
I feel like shit today because:
- I have a girlfriend.
- I smoked a cigarette again.
- I had to vomit so much.
- I'm worried about an STD now because of the "I've fucked there a lot" .. Who knows what she's got.
- I feel pethatic. I just "used" her actually.
- I left her alone there. That's not a right thing to do but I think she never let me go.
- Next week when I go out again, I HOPE she isn't there.
- Next week when I go out again, I HOPE I won't see the guy again who walked by when she was on top of me.
- I'm worried my friends will hear about all of this.
I feel so bad right now. This is not a bragpost. I just want to cheer myself up by reading what others have done while being drunk (stupid/embarassing) stuff.
Thanks for the replies and sorry if I offended anyone with the way I behaved last night. When I'm drunk I'm like a totally different person.