Well, the last 2 years i've been very depressed in my life ..
I don't have to complain I have good friends, i'm attractive, i have an average dick and my schoolresults are good ..
I can't remember how long i'm already having it so please don't ask .. I do know this, when i hit puberty and discovered masturbation .. I was an animal back than .. 7-8 times a day .. without lube, i didn't know people did it with lube .. But now I already have 2 years a blue/black skin on the place I placed my thumb when i jerked off.. THIS IS NO JOKE .. or anything ..
It doesn't hurt, i can get him up easily, no problems when i take a piss or anything .. It's just not my skincolor ..
It drives me nuts that it doesn't disappear .. There was a time i was really putting on lotion on my dick, to hydrate it, so i hoped it would disappear but no .. I'm serious you guys it's killing me, i've really thought about killing myself last year .. 2 months ago my pants was down, a girl wanted to give me head in an alley not far from the club i come weekly .. She wanted to pull my boxershort down but i refused .. just because my dick doesn't look normal like all the dicks you see in porn .. (and it's not a size thing) .. That REALLY SUCKS .. the girl was like: wtf? you sure? you know .. And that's just an example, i have plenty others ..
I thought this would be the best place to ask this question .. Does anyone had it too? what did you do? Is it possible to make it disappear? ..
My hormones drive me crazy sometimes .. Since i discovered masturbation I've only had 2 times already where i could last one month without cumming .. Once i managed to do it 2 months .. and i could see there was new skin coming on my dick ..
I'm only 20 years old, still a virgin, opportunities to have sex ENOUGH but never dare to take the step .. also out of respect for the girl, perhaps it's a dicease .. i don't know .. The doctor, i thought about it but it's sooo humiliating .. really ..
You all know on this forum how precious your dick too you is, well here I am with a huge black spot right on the spot where i would put my fingers while masturbating .. I hate it .. All my friends keep asking me why I don't hit that girl, or that girl .. I always say i have standards (in a bit cocky way) just to cover up the truth .. I even quit my favorite sport because everybody stands naked in the shower, i didn't want anyone to see it ..
I don't feel like a man sometimes .. when i see a hot girl and she looks at me you can tell i'm not confident from a 100 miles away .. the possibility to have sex with her is zero, cause it's so humiliating to tell and see, if she tells her girlfriends .. Man, i'm dead than .. My sex appeal a big fat ZERO for the rest of my life .. it would haunt me forever .. Here I have the advantage of being anonymous ..
A sweet girl ooh god sooo sweet you can't imagine, is now in love with me for one full year already .. And lately i'm beginning to get feelings for her too, we always make out when we see each other, i'd love to have my first time with this girl .. but hey, there's mr spot again .. I thought about a mother spot or how do you say that in english .. but i don't believe it's that .. It's really half a circle on the top of my shaft .. Really the place where i put my thumb while masturbating ..
I always wear my cock forward, i don't wear him right or left in my underpants .. Sometimes I think that's the reason cause my skin always grinds against my underpants ..
Ooh, i'm cut .. I don't know if that has something to do with it ..
Anyways, someone out there .. Release me from this demon
Thanks in advance for every reaction too this thread ..
BTW: i started PE 2 weeks ago and also have a log in here .. i'm giving it a shot as a solution to my problem .. If my dick grows my skin gets stretched out or grows too, perhaps the black color dissapears very slowly .. hey it's worth the shot in my opinion..