Hello, I'm 19. Plz forgive me before for posting this Berlin's wall of text..
So..
I've been googling these time looking for the culprit why my penis and testicles have never been as big as they were when I was 14. It used to be 6/6.5 inch, now it's only 5/5.5 inch when erects, also is a lot thinner and less muscular, like a 13 y/o's dick who'd just entered puberty. It also has loose skin when erects, so it looks like a 40-60 y/o man's u see in amateurs.
When I was 15, I suffered from eating disorder which made me severely underweight (100 lbs, 5'8 tall), and I stayed that weight for a while. I'm sure my testosterone level was messed/washed up cuz my body felt n looked like shit that time. I also developed a bad body circulatory health/lacked blood flow by sitting too much playing online pc games at the game center and rarely did exercise. Sometimes I didn't sleep or drink water at all which had made things worse.
There's this one time, when I was still on that verge-of-death weight 100 lbs, where I played the game for 3 days, and didn't sleep/drink/eat at all. I was collapsed walking on the way home. The thing was, during those consecutive 3 days playing games and a few resting days after, my flaccid penis shrank to less than a cm, like there's only the foreskin left. It was and felt lifeless, the glans became SUPER small, my balls also disappeared. It got better a little after a while, but still..
Those 3 days were only the climaxes. I still played games '24/7' like crazy autism fck after that, but not as severe as before. Maybe, 1-2 days of starving and not sleeping max once for a while. This habit occured for 4 years till I'm 19 now. There were ups in my life as opposed to downs throughout these years though.. But, not as much as the downs..
So, the point is my penis lacks blood flow and testosterone these years, so it rarely has spontanious erections and if it HAS one, it rarely EXPANDS to its max and lasts very fast. I do masturbate regularly like 1/2 times a day, but it could only achieve 60-70% erection quality. I also cum in 1-2 minutes just to get the 'release' sensation. So, it still lacks blood flow here.
Will some of the penis tissue atrophy from lack of EXPANDING? Have u ever heard stories from sum1 who's been impotent/not having erections for a long time and reported that their penis shrinks? Penis atrophy? I could provide links if u wanna see. Like these ones:
http://www.prostate-cancer.org/educa...deEffects.html
http://sci.rutgers.edu/forum/showthread.php?t=7330
http://www.phoenix5.org/sexaids/basi.../comments.html
They r not scams, r they? No..
Moreover, I have suspicion, during those 'deadly 3 days' and a few days after, my penis got 'zero' blood flow. So, it was 'dead' for a week. Will there be any tissue lost during those days? Cuz penises r supposed to be filled by blood, like EVERYDAY.
I've been asking this q on yahoo answers, and some people says 'It's not true. It won't atrophy. It's not a muscle bla bla bla'.
Ofc, even if all of u lack EXPANDING the penis by rarely do masturbation/sex, u still get (good) random/nocturnal erections to make sure it's still in a good state (that's what nature has made function of those auto-erections), so u r all safe.
It's freakin frightenin. When googling I've seen people reporting penis atrophy cuz of hormonal and blood flow problem and claiming the size never comes back.
Please help me, I'm just 19, not some 50 y/os. I'm a man, u r a man, we both know that a problem in this area is freakin depressing.
Then again, don't comment about the size already, if u know u COULD HAVE been bigger, it's a problem, right? And I've measured correctly, I'm sure.
Also, I'm thinking about the possibility of stunted growth here due to the lack of EXPANDING and blood flow (growth hormones r in the blood). Man, I entered puberty at 13, in a year it grew to 6 inchers already. I shouldve been having a 7 inch (knowing that I'm 19 and never was an early bloomer), not a shrinking penis.
One more, the possibility of my penis tissue burnt to be converted to calories due to my starvation and severe underweight of 100 lbs..
Finally, about making appointments with doctors/professionals.. I'm having a problem with cash atm, like monthly expenses, rents, other fees and stuff. So, internet is my only solution atm.. Hoping that some people (who might be ex-sufferers of my problem) would share stories, exps, advices, and hopes..
So..
I've been googling these time looking for the culprit why my penis and testicles have never been as big as they were when I was 14. It used to be 6/6.5 inch, now it's only 5/5.5 inch when erects, also is a lot thinner and less muscular, like a 13 y/o's dick who'd just entered puberty. It also has loose skin when erects, so it looks like a 40-60 y/o man's u see in amateurs.
When I was 15, I suffered from eating disorder which made me severely underweight (100 lbs, 5'8 tall), and I stayed that weight for a while. I'm sure my testosterone level was messed/washed up cuz my body felt n looked like shit that time. I also developed a bad body circulatory health/lacked blood flow by sitting too much playing online pc games at the game center and rarely did exercise. Sometimes I didn't sleep or drink water at all which had made things worse.
There's this one time, when I was still on that verge-of-death weight 100 lbs, where I played the game for 3 days, and didn't sleep/drink/eat at all. I was collapsed walking on the way home. The thing was, during those consecutive 3 days playing games and a few resting days after, my flaccid penis shrank to less than a cm, like there's only the foreskin left. It was and felt lifeless, the glans became SUPER small, my balls also disappeared. It got better a little after a while, but still..
Those 3 days were only the climaxes. I still played games '24/7' like crazy autism fck after that, but not as severe as before. Maybe, 1-2 days of starving and not sleeping max once for a while. This habit occured for 4 years till I'm 19 now. There were ups in my life as opposed to downs throughout these years though.. But, not as much as the downs..
So, the point is my penis lacks blood flow and testosterone these years, so it rarely has spontanious erections and if it HAS one, it rarely EXPANDS to its max and lasts very fast. I do masturbate regularly like 1/2 times a day, but it could only achieve 60-70% erection quality. I also cum in 1-2 minutes just to get the 'release' sensation. So, it still lacks blood flow here.
Will some of the penis tissue atrophy from lack of EXPANDING? Have u ever heard stories from sum1 who's been impotent/not having erections for a long time and reported that their penis shrinks? Penis atrophy? I could provide links if u wanna see. Like these ones:
http://www.prostate-cancer.org/educa...deEffects.html
http://sci.rutgers.edu/forum/showthread.php?t=7330
http://www.phoenix5.org/sexaids/basi.../comments.html
They r not scams, r they? No..
Moreover, I have suspicion, during those 'deadly 3 days' and a few days after, my penis got 'zero' blood flow. So, it was 'dead' for a week. Will there be any tissue lost during those days? Cuz penises r supposed to be filled by blood, like EVERYDAY.
I've been asking this q on yahoo answers, and some people says 'It's not true. It won't atrophy. It's not a muscle bla bla bla'.
Ofc, even if all of u lack EXPANDING the penis by rarely do masturbation/sex, u still get (good) random/nocturnal erections to make sure it's still in a good state (that's what nature has made function of those auto-erections), so u r all safe.
It's freakin frightenin. When googling I've seen people reporting penis atrophy cuz of hormonal and blood flow problem and claiming the size never comes back.
Please help me, I'm just 19, not some 50 y/os. I'm a man, u r a man, we both know that a problem in this area is freakin depressing.
Then again, don't comment about the size already, if u know u COULD HAVE been bigger, it's a problem, right? And I've measured correctly, I'm sure.
Also, I'm thinking about the possibility of stunted growth here due to the lack of EXPANDING and blood flow (growth hormones r in the blood). Man, I entered puberty at 13, in a year it grew to 6 inchers already. I shouldve been having a 7 inch (knowing that I'm 19 and never was an early bloomer), not a shrinking penis.
One more, the possibility of my penis tissue burnt to be converted to calories due to my starvation and severe underweight of 100 lbs..
Finally, about making appointments with doctors/professionals.. I'm having a problem with cash atm, like monthly expenses, rents, other fees and stuff. So, internet is my only solution atm.. Hoping that some people (who might be ex-sufferers of my problem) would share stories, exps, advices, and hopes..
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