Journey to Recovery

[BTBrian]

^^^ Agreed

[dexter68569]

Point Considered. I am very much interested in the real thing. Alas! it hasn't happened yet, but it will happen soon.

Day-12

I slipped. I masturbated in a closed room .all by myself...without watching porn.

Day-13

I watched porn for half an hour. Shouldn't have .. but i did ..

I am not going to beat myself too much with it .
I have also taken L-arganinie tablet after that.
The good news is , i feel good now and the erections r even better.

The only Q, i have is this L-arganine... going to effect me? I am apprehensive abt it.

[BTBrian]

It's a good supplement, I take it myself. Crap man no porn!!!!

[dexter68569]

Day- 14

NO Porn.

[dexter68569]

Day- 15

No porn..
body ..wants it.

[dexter68569]

Day-18

Enjoying .. hard on.
Getting normal erections ..all through days.

Getting gr8 hard on in close places --bathroom.. with my fantasies.

I am trying not to pop out. Enjoying dry orgasms.

Fear: If i ejaculate.. then i might lose my sensitivity and.. rod response. I want to maintain this ..state.

[dexter68569]

Guys need some input.

I have been abstaining from ejaculation.
I have been taking l-arginine 500 mg tablet .. daily.
I ma getting good hard on.. and i feel good .
I just wana continue this .. phase where i ma getting strong hard on. Can anybody guide me as to what should i do in my stage II of recovery.

[Dance Sucka]

Do you have a job, hobbies, daily routines?

[dexter68569]

Yes.. I have a job offer. The role will start from April 2012.

So, right now.. i am free and this sucks.
In the continuation of my log.

Day-19.
I popped out, but not before milking it for 15-20 min. I guess this was really good. I enjoyed it. I am now able to get erections on my own without porn. I guess thats a good progress. My fantasies are also getting more vivid and i am enjoying it.

Abstaining from porn but still at times feel the need. Once had seen it for 5 min but the guilty conscious got the better of me and i stopped.

When i was 17, i use to go to my close place and use to do it. Now, I ma doing the same.. but i am controlling my ejaculation.

Well... for some reader this may sound that i am a DICK. Sorry to paint such a picture but, i am trying to get better and want to remove this ED from my system.

[dexter68569]

Ok.. i am coming back after one week.

After my last post-- i had a very sexy chat with a lady and.. somehow she got into my mind.(her hot sexy figure was to be to blamed). Well, i did my stuff thrice. I have since hen not popped out. I have also started doing PE from couple of days. I wake up with a hard rod and i goto my bathroom and.. start my PE. I am doing Jelqing and V-jelq for 20 mins.
Since , i have abstained from ejaculation in the last week, i am again getting to the stage where i get hard ...very easily and with limited fuss. I am also in good mood. SO.. definitely the T-levels are good.
My goal is to stretch this good run .. as long as possible. I really enjoy this phase when i my body literally say...i am fit and good to go.
Only troubleis ..i have lost all this because i have ejaculated in the past too soon in the phase.
I want to extend this to the couple of weeks nad then pop out, with the hope that my body will then be able to sustain this phase.
It like my wounds get healed for first stage and i ripped them out too soon.