The AP90 (Anti-Porn)

[bautista19]

Please tell me this gets better. Last week I did like 45 minutes of edging on a Tuesday night with porn. Then the following night I had sex and I had quality EQ and lasted an appropriate amount of time.

I haven't done porn in 5 days now and my most recent amorous encounter today and my EQ was dreadful.

How long is this dreadful EQ going to last? Can anyone with some experience please chime in and tell me it will return.

[bautista19]

Day 6 now for me.

I can see how relapse is so easy to suffer. I had cleaned all my porn from my PC and yesterday we were actually watching old family videos on my computer. I moused over windows media player and you know how a drop down menu to the right shows you the last 10 or so videos you watched. Well, they were all porn naturally. As I was removing the shortcuts so may titles I were thinking "god that scene was hot" and if I was alone I would have had an easy time watching it and feeling comfortable again.

I think staying away from all temptation will be critical because that could have been difficult if I was close.

I have been giving my wife my computer to browse the internet at night recently because the battery in hers sucks. I need to keep doing this.

[Drummer19]

Please tell me this gets better. Last week I did like 45 minutes of edging on a Tuesday night with porn. Then the following night I had sex and I had quality EQ and lasted an appropriate amount of time.

I haven't done porn in 5 days now and my most recent amorous encounter today and my EQ was dreadful.

How long is this dreadful EQ going to last? Can anyone with some experience please chime in and tell me it will return.

My EQ took 4 months to get back to normal. But you know what? Now I am loving it! This is a long term benefit, not short term

[flhans]

ive been having thoughts that i needed to cut porn for a good 9 months now. the thoughts started cuz i stumbled onto some fuckin wierd as interracial comic and wanked to it like 6 times in a few hours. After each time i jerked off i was immediately disgusted with myself and felt guilty but i kept coming back for more... so after that ive tried a few times to quit porn, but each time probably only lasted a week or two before ive told myself that ill just have a dirty little wank and go back to not watching it but it never works like that.... i get feelings of inadequacy and jealousy after porn, and sometimes even during.....

i really like that there is a group to join for something like this, and feel that porn can be a cancer on the soul. i have joined the group and will post as regularly as i can to let people know that im still goin (but mostly for myself), and will probably use it as a tool to strengthen my resolve when i feel like watching porn!!!

Day 1!!! 3/8/12

[bautista19]

Day 7 for me. Last night was by far the most difficult day. I found myself home, alone, with nothing to do for 2 hours. The wife had the kids out, and I was bored out of my mind. I don't watch TV so I couldn't get lost in that. I ended up doing laundry, dishes, and cleaning for 2 hours. I didn't have the urge for porn that bad, but I had the urge to fantasize and get off so bad. I could just feel down there that it would feel so good.

I expect today to be the ultimate challenge. I got all my work for the week done, and today I am just baby-sitting the phone at work. I will be alone for the next 7 hours with literally nothing to do. I brought it some homework to focus on, but doing that for 7 hours might be difficult.

As far as progress goes:
1. I am sleeping better now. Before I could never fall asleep without getting off. It took me until two days ago to be able to fall asleep easily.
2. I am 100% more respectful to my wife. I don't feel any guilt around her. I'm not sneaking around or feeling anxious. Also, since we talked about my ED issues I don't feel the stress to be some kind of man I am not.
3. My head is clearer. I am in the worst friggin class now called applied math for engineers. I can actually stay alert for 3 hours to math proofs. I dare anyone to try that.
4. I am not checking my email to see the latest scenes anymore.

The prognosis of 3-4 months to get my EQ back seems bleak, but the other benefits I'll just have to enjoy for now.

[bautista19]

After talking such a good game, I am out. I just hope I don't binge.

[Koh]

Easy way to entertain yourself. Read more books bautista. They can suck you in. I'm not quitting masturbation all the way, I'm just limiting it to edging/ballooning without orgasm.

5 days straight of not intentionally looking at porn. I need to lay off tumblr, so many people have porn and other tempting pics/gifs on their blogs.

[epicskip]

well messed up about a week ago, but good thing I can start over. There is another beginning at the end.

[Aussie84]

Day 1.
Been considering this for some time but haven't done so because i don't like my chances of success. But things need to change and I have to start somewhere right? Been struggling with porn for at least 12 years. Time to start repairing my mind and body. Wish me luck!!!

[Aussie84]

By the way my addiction is viewing cam girls. If anyone else has the same problem speak up. I don't regularly view porn but i do like to watch cams its become such a big time consumer for me. I'm sure there is guys that know what I'm talking about.