HotRod's Big Log - Page 6

HotRod · 04-07-2008, 08:41 AM

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Originally Posted by Andyroo

Awesome log Hotrod! And congrats on your gains! Though, Im quite a bit younger than you (20) I think I may adopt a similar routine as yours, especially in terms of days off... I don't think my member can do 2 days on, 1 day off, as I seem to lose my morning wood after the second day of jelqing. So... one day on one day off it is!

Yeah. I've done pretty well with the 1 day on 1 day off routine.

Actually, what has ended up happening is that I take both Saturday and Sunday off usually. So I do PE on M, W, F.

I'm trying to lapse into a strict 1 day on 1 day off routine, but usually my Friday workout ends up being the most intense of my three PE days and I just feel like I might be pushing it by adding another day.

I've still been gradually adding intensity, working up to a 20 minute jelq workout with some variations in technique and some other advanced exercises (flaccid bends and light squeezes for girth). Another factor is that I typically hit the masturbation harder on weekends which is sort of a work out in itself.

So I'm continuing to play it very safe. My body responds well to running and weight training with three days of work outs (Sun, Tues, Thurs), so I'm thinking PE will too.....at least until I reach a new level of conditioning. Eventually I'll probably be adding another day to see how it goes, but for now I'm content with what I'm doing.

HotRod · 04-10-2008, 12:41 PM

Well, I'm coming off one of the worst few days of anxiety I've had in a long time.

Complicated, but mostly mental habit.

My erections have been unenthusiastic and infrequent. I have little interest in sex. EL during PE requires more effort than usual.

I'm attributing most of this erectile malaise to anxiety and a sense of frustration/futility with women and financial matters. Even so, I've decided to take it a little easy on the PE sessions this week.

HotRod · 04-13-2008, 10:42 AM

taking a break

My erections have started to feel "tired" - this is a lot like the "tight" feeling I've described here in the past, but the tightness does not subside once I'm fully engorged.

I think I overtrained the week before last when I started experimenting with light squeezes and flaccid bends.

I'm taking this week off and I'm going to do my best to refrain from masturbating so I can get back to normal soon.

If I'm right about overtraining, it means that I discovered my limit. It really is a fine line.

HotRod · 04-25-2008, 06:42 PM

Well, I'm back at it...two days of PE so far this week. Taking it kind of light.

Low sex drive continues.

Low arousal levels continue. Blah.

Probably all a result of sexual frustrations and crush that I'm having a hard time approaching. Craziness.

HotRod · 05-02-2008, 06:41 PM

More blah. Just can't get excited about sex. Erections reflect this. I've been tired a lot lately too and can't explain that.

Skipped PE today because I was running late. PE apparently not improving EQ or erection frequency. No morning wood.

I don't know what's going on. Not very enthusiastic. Kind of discouraged. Thinking about hanging it up and settling with what I was born with.

I'm probably just slightly depressed. A few months ago I got on this self-improvement kick and have not made much progress in other areas. I'm thinking of backing away from everything and just getting my immediate domestic matters extremely organized, reworking my budget, making some sort of plan for the future.

So that's where things have been at. I'll probably continue PE. I'm not an easy gainer, apparently. Darn.

HotRod · 05-06-2008, 09:46 PM

Well, i'm glad I started this log. It is helping me to keep track of what's going on with my sexual function and for how long.

It's been about a month since my sex drive and erection level started to taper.

I really can't explain it except for the things I've speculated on in my last three or four posts in this log.

I just can't get aroused. I can't even get interested in sex. It's normal for me to get an erection just walking downtown and thinking about women or happening to walk behind some nice tail. Lately I've just been completely limp. Partial erections are extremely partial.

I have ceased PE completely on the exception of kegels.

I've started running 4 miles again and hitting lots of hills. This is a normal spring transition for me, but it does leave me a little tired some nights...like tonight. No erection and I could honestly care less. I don't need it for anything I want to do tonight anyway. But it better be there if I end up on a date.

Weird.

Diet? Could probably improve.

Mood? Mostly just frustrated and blocked. This could improve, but there's no easy answer here. Job, relationship, home, finances - all these things need to get balanced and I've made a little progress, but it is painfully slow. There's no quick easy fix.

My sex drive just immediately dropped off too and it coincided with a dramatic shift in my enthusiasm for all the dating advice/pick-up literature I was immersed in for several months. I've also parted ways with a group of guys who are also into that sort of thing. One in particular seemed to have a vested interest in getting people to behave in very specific ways. He was extremely dominant and basically had various bullshit con games he was playing to "attract" women. I'm way too valuable to have to play games, learn hypnotism, or manipulate in order to see nature take it's course between a woman and myself. So I'm working through some disillusionment in this area and coming into my own with all this relationship stuff.

I gotta go with mood as the cause. I've been stuck in my personal life and it's fucking with everything right now. The good news is that I do believe I'm much closer to finally balancing some of these areas out than I have been since I first appeared on this forum.

Iguana · 05-07-2008, 09:35 AM

I agree with JonPop, you should definitely get your hormone levels tested. Sounds like there could be some definite issues there.

JonPop · 05-07-2008, 10:23 AM

HotRod, been mulling this over for awhile. You might want to check into this.
Seasonal affective disorder: Treatment with light therapy - MayoClinic.com

HotRod · 05-08-2008, 08:47 AM

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Originally Posted by Iguana

I agree with JonPop, you should definitely get your hormone levels tested. Sounds like there could be some definite issues there.

Alright, you guys. I'm going to schedule an appointment with my doctor and look into this.

He's a busy guy and I might have to wait for a while to see him, but I will definitely get back to you and let you know how this goes.

HotRod · 05-08-2008, 08:53 AM

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Originally Posted by JonPop

HotRod, been mulling this over for awhile. You might want to check into this.
Seasonal affective disorder: Treatment with light therapy - MayoClinic.com

Yep. I definitely notice a dramatic shift in my mood and energy level every spring. Once daytime highs stay near 70 I completely change.

I've started fake tanning and that helps a little, but I only allow myself to go once a week at the most.

I'm going to talk to my doctor about options for anxiety and depression too, but I tried most of those meds in the mid-1990s and they didn't help.

JonPop, you know what I really need is to find a way to take charge of my life and redirect it. I'm just sort of stuck in this pattern and its hard to find a way out. I've been making some progress socially and that feels good. I'm just more outgoing generally. Occupationally speaking, I'm sort of emasculated sitting in this place most days and it wears me down. I need some autonomy where I can shine a little brighter.

I'll let you know what the doctor says.