Zao's log, different to others.

[zao911]

Hey guys im 19, read about pe, i will start soon though i have exam at the moment once im done ill start. However i have been addicted to porn since i was young, like 12-13. I have been trying to stop so many times but keep in failing. I know porn isnt good for you and i do think it is affecting me in my thoughts and the way i behave. I am generally shy around girls and i do think porn has had an effect on that.

So i what i plan to do is everyday post whether i fell into temptation or passed. My target will be on going as i want to get rude of this habit completely. Porn maybe be harmless to some but i think long-term it is very dangerous.

I'll set goals in increments of weeks. It takes 3 weeks to form a habit. However 3 weeks seems a fair bit away in mentally, so in my mind ill set short-term goals of one week increments.

Starting from 08/11/09.

After the 12th of November i will start peing and setup my schedule.

Thx

[zao911]

K today wasnt so bad just been mainly studying for exams. The temptation did come when i was home alone, but i pushed through.

[pe_ZEN]

hey zao

--keep on pushing forward! Just the intention to stop is great, and that you recognized this at such a young age, you are lucky. As somebody who has gone through this, YES addiction to porn can mess with your brain. In fact it will affect your sex life too - and your self confidence. DOn't compare your performance to those hung pornstars either, there is tons of video editing (and viagra) involved.

My advice based on experience: As soon as you feel the urge, immediately engage in some other activity, ANY ACTIVITY other than watching porn, preferably one engaging your mind. If you do this for a couple weeks without slipping up you are on your way to the cure! Option #2 solution: as soon as you feel the urge, masturbate via another method, such as using your imagination (ultimately to shake this addiction you will need to rely on your imagination much more!)

the best thing you can do is DELETE ALL YOUR PORN AND NEVER LET YOURSELF GO TO THOSE 'SITES'..it is easy to relapse and more difficult to quit each time you relapse.

[zao911]

Thanks for the support pe zen. Day two now, today wasnt so bad, just still been studying. Not much thoughts or a sexual drive to look at porn. Though this is probably due to not being home alone today.

[Mental]

Good luck. If you put your mind to it, you can do it. Find something else to fill that time with, even a video game like WoW or something.

[zao911]

Day three: Their was temptation today i was home alone practically all day. I did think just screw it and start again but thank god i didn't, i guess thats the thing about porn is secretive no one knows about it and you think no one gets hurt but it hurts you in the long-run mentally some say it does not but I'm sure it does even on a minimal scale ie unconsciously, the way you view women, your wife. For me i guess its like affected the way i act around girls in the sense that it has distorted what i think girls want. I am generally shy around girls and sometimes i just really do not know how to get past the "hi how are you". Part of this feelings of shyness are probably due to the fact that i generally care about what others think of me and that affects the way i behave. Like i do not have any close friends that are girls and that is due the fact i do not know how to really connect with them and that is what bugs me. One flaw i have noticed is that i kind of treat girls by the way they look like I'd a treat pretty girl differently from a average looking girl. Thinking back to high school i am positive i did to that. Anyways ill tlk more later......

Just gotta keep going. The true test will be when i finish exams which is Thursday. But with the obligation of posting here everyday i think it is working .

[pe_ZEN]

I'm gonna keep checking back to hold you accountable

[zao911]

TOday was very close to just wacking off to porn. I found myslef looking at pictures searching names but didnt look at nudity, so im like stuff it i close the browser and wacked off before i lost control and starting wanking off to porn. Cant write much my exam is tomorrow but ill type up more tomorrow sweet. Cya

[zao911]

Thursday: finished exams, people were home no temptation

TOday: Im going out so, so their would be no problems k thx guys