Maybe it shouldnít matter but it does. My wife cheated 1 time 6 months ago and one thing still bothers me. I still wonder was he bigger? Did she feel anything I never made her feel or couldnít if I wanted to because Iím not big enough? She swears she never payed attention and has no idea if he was bigger or smaller and thatís just kind of hard to believe because she can describe 2 penises from 16yrs ago before we met in detail. Anyway she says no she didnít feel anything with him that she has never felt with me. And she says well if I had to guess Iíd say the 2 of you are the exact same size because it felt identical I really didnít notice any difference at all. My problem here is she has had mine exclusively for 16 yrs I find it hard to believe a new one could feel identical? Again Iím not a woman so I havenít a clue if they can really tell to the inch if there is a difference or not? I constantly worry for some damn reason that she could be lying to me to prevent hurting my feelings and if thatís the case Iíd rather know the truth even if it hurts my feelings. This is the one and final thing I canít let go of. Although I do want a bigger penis for myself part of me wants to get big enough so that she can say without a doubt that I am bigger than him.
I still get sad after all this time thinking that I possibly canít provide a feeling she experienced with someone else (only because it was after we married) I donít think Id believe her if she came out and said he was bigger or smaller at this point anyway so why the hell cant I get over this one thing???? I canít keep bothering her so I just donít say anything anymore. I guess Iíll never have the answer. It makes it hard for me to show confidence because I feel like in the back of her mind she is thinking ď if it just reached another ĹĒ or if it were just a thick as hisĒ While she is saying god I love you and you feel so good out loud. I really feel f**ked up over this one issue. I donít dwell on it 24 hrs a day but when it hits me it hits hard and I get depressed for a while.