[ajmarket]

I just gave a mild update in. The success form, kind of a funny one haha.

I won't lie, I still care for her. . . I don't care how weak that sounds. I truly loved the girl and I'm not going to put on a tough guy front and pretend I didn't.

This all happened early-mid may, we didn't talk really until this past week.. we just started texting/phone call (very small amount of contact) we haven't touched much on the subject of US just simple hi. . How have u been what's new

The subject came up once, she just said "I want you to know I did NOT cheat on you, there was noone else. I just need some space" . . . She went on to explain that with two jobs and college and noone to help her that our fights weren't making her life any easier. . . (we had been fighting A LOT prior to the breakup)

I said I understand and I'm sorry how things ended. . . She apologized for how she handled the situation, she said she never meant to make me feel like she cared about ne1 or had another man lined up, or to keep secrets, but given the fact that we had been fighting a lot lately, she didn't think saying "oh, by the way. . . This guy from work has been texting me alot" was the right thing to say. . Or the right time. . It woulda just caused more fighting I guess. . .

Long story short, it doesn't matter. I'm extremley happy with life right now.

Work is going awesome, recently got a raise and I'm starting my own business within the next few months

[bo.om]

Just to get it straight, your not with her now are you? It seems as though you were happy without her. And I have been in your situation so i feel for you. Once you feel like you can't trust someone though you simply can't have a healthy relationship no matter how much you cared for them. At least in my experience, it destroyed me, man I'm not doing that again anytime soon.

[ajmarket]

No, we're not together.

We just started speaking again, we hadn't spoke for a good spell.

It's not that I'm happy without her, I just did some soul searching these past few weeks

I've come to the realization that I'm happy with or without her. . . that goes for ANY girl.

I'm doing very well in life for my age, most guys my age are out partying, drinking smoking
and looking for their next lay. . . Not that I don't like getting laid, I just don't like
to hook up with random girls. I'd rather have sex with someone I'm involved with more
than one occasion. I don't have to be in love with her, but I'd at least like to know her
and be able to see her frequently

I will never feel sorry for myself again.
I'm a great guy with a lot to offer a woman. . .

I'm good looking, I stay in shape, I WILL BE EXTREMELY successful. . . (What woman doesn't like money, right? haha)
and a big dick

Whether or not things will work out with her, well . . only time can tell.

The feelings are still there on my part, I'm not sure about hers. Like I said we stay away from that subject.
Right now it's just a "hi, how are you" type thing. . .

[epsilon]

Originally Posted by ajmarket

No, we're not together.

We just started speaking again, we hadn't spoke for a good spell.

It's not that I'm happy without her, I just did some soul searching these past few weeks

I've come to the realization that I'm happy with or without her. . . that goes for ANY girl.

I'm doing very well in life for my age, most guys my age are out partying, drinking smoking
and looking for their next lay. . . Not that I don't like getting laid, I just don't like
to hook up with random girls. I'd rather have sex with someone I'm involved with more
than one occasion. I don't have to be in love with her, but I'd at least like to know her
and be able to see her frequently

I will never feel sorry for myself again.
I'm a great guy with a lot to offer a woman. . .

I'm good looking, I stay in shape, I WILL BE EXTREMELY successful. . . (What woman doesn't like money, right? haha)
and a big dick

Whether or not things will work out with her, well . . only time can tell.

The feelings are still there on my part, I'm not sure about hers. Like I said we stay away from that subject.
Right now it's just a "hi, how are you" type thing. . .

I won't lie, I still care for her. . . I don't care how weak that sounds. I truly loved the girl and I'm not going to put on a tough guy front and pretend I didn't.

Now there's a contradiction in that?

But not the less you seem to move on quite well. Good job, own business, your just being busy and have no time to lurk in a corner, and most importantly a big cock coming in your pants.. hehehe just kidding.

To never feel sorry, just give your every thing in anything ou do? Did you in a relationship? if not it is just right to admit mistake...

Thanks for sharing mate

[ajmarket]

I don't mean to be contradicting, I'm just saying I still care about the girl, but I'm not going to let anything hold me back from being a happy person.

As far as giving my all in the relationship. . . I didn't, no. Not in the begining anyway. .

When we met we were very young and she liked me a lot. . I blew her off for the first 6 months I knew her, wouldn't give her the time of day. . . Then when we did actually get together I was an immature little B OY. . . (Your average teenage guy) I did a lot of bad things to her. . . cheated, slept with other girls, and had no consideration 4 her feelings..

She cried and begged for me to stop, eventually I did but it was too late I already seen that I had really fucked us up. . .

Today I am a man, I've learned from my mistakes and I have become a better person for it. So more recently before we broke up I WAS giving 100%, however it seems that it was too late by then.

I know, I know. . .

I was a POS and karma came right back at me. . .

I learned a good deal from my mistakes and I promise never to let them happen again in my future relationships. .

"Insanity - doing the same exact things and expecting different results"

[JonPop]

Valuable lesson there aj. It's just the price we (and others) pay for learning and maturing. Good luck in your life.

[ajmarket]

Thanks jp

Check out my other post "what an ego booster"

A little bit of motivation for PE in there.

[eompow]

Posted on the wall across from my desk, read daily, copied from a book. "Don't make assumptions, find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama". Daily reading the words "easy", living them daily "hard".

Live life to the fullest,

[ajmarket]

I like that eompow