Hey everyone,
I'd like to start by thanking you for this awesome community. I've taken my time and researched a lot of topics on this forum as I'm about to begin my PE journey. While the technical information has been great, it is indeed the psychological support and the overall encouraging attitude of the members here that has made the biggest impact.
To tell you a little about myself, I've lived my entire young adult life in fear of being ridiculed for my penis. I have avoided going to any place that requires me to undress such as the gym, swimming hall etc. This fear began when I was as young as a 10 year old kid being laughed at and teasted by my friends in the changing room after a physical education class. From then on, physical education became my worst nightmare. On top of being a fat kid (imagine the fat pad) and having a small flaccid, my penis size is low average at BEST. Honestly, I can't even begin to articulate the impact that this has had on my life growing up. I avoided girls completely because I thought I was a failure. I thought that it didn't matter if I charmed any girl I talked to because eventually we would get to the sex part and she would also ridicule me as well as tell the entire school about my size.
Fast forward to today, I am in my early 20s and a virgin. However, my life is nowhere near as depressing. I moved to another city where I am now living by myself and I'm studying at the university. On top of that, I have made a big shift in my attitude. Ever since I moved, I have rebranded myself as a person: I'm much more out-going, I dress well and to my suprise, I'm actually quite attractive (I notice that I get checked out a lot by girls, which is something I've previously never experienced or probably prevented myself from acknowledging as it clashed with my perception of myself and reality). I interact with girls at the university on a daily basis, and I honestly just have a fun time talking to them without expecting anything in return. However, the fear of my penis size is always looming somewhere in the back of my mind. I know that if I find a girl that I care for and who also cared for me, then it wouldn't really matter. But the idea that the girl would have to "settle" with my size is not something I'm comfortable with. I don't want a girl I'm in love with to think "oh well, he doesn't have the biggest penis but at least he's a great person and a good lover". NO, I want to be the best version of myself in all areas of life. I want to rock her world with my large penis, I don't want her to think of my penis size as something that she has had to compromise on. I want her to be satisfied in ALL areas.
I measured my penis when edging yesterday, with probably the biggest EQ I have ever had and it measured to 6.1 inches BPEL (maximum BPEL, ruler was pretty much jammed in and couldn't go farther). My MSEG was measured to 4.65 inches. I'm not at all comfortable with my size, especially not the girth as it is sadly below average. Although the length is supposedly "average", it doesn't feel that way at all.
The reason I'm here is because I want to do something about it. I'm tired that my fear of being inadequate is constantly looming in the back of my mind. Whenever I sit down to study or do any other type of activity where I'm alone, I begin to border on these depressive thoughts about my penis size. I understand that I can not change my genetics, I can not change what god has given me. BUT what I can do is put in the required amount of effort and dedication into PE. While I'm not entirely confident PE works (although I doubt that this site is a big conspiracy, lol), the least I can do is to give it a FAIR shot and recognize that I'm actually DOING SOMETHING about my problem instead of just being gloomy and depressed.
Therefore I have decided to begin the JP 90 day routine. I want my expectations to be as realistic as possible, and as I mentioned earlier my EQ was through the roof when I took the provided measurements above. Therefore I don't think my results will be anywhere near JP's (as I read he had some problems with ED so I contribute some of his gains from the routine to EQ). However, I just want to get your feedback on how I should move forward if after the 90 days I don't notice any substantial gains. What If I don't gain any results whatsoever? Or what if the results are absolutely minimal? I understand that PE takes time and as someone with a scarce amount, I don't want to be discouaged if at the end of these 90 days I haven't made any substantial gains (or any gains whatsoever).
I apologize for this overly long thread, but I just felt like I had to share something with this welcoming community. If you took the time to read all the way through, I want you to know that it means the world to me. This is perhaps the only time I've had the chance to get this off my chest. I look forwards to spending a lot of time on here, although I'll have to find the time inbetween studying and other activities.
I'd like to start by thanking you for this awesome community. I've taken my time and researched a lot of topics on this forum as I'm about to begin my PE journey. While the technical information has been great, it is indeed the psychological support and the overall encouraging attitude of the members here that has made the biggest impact.
To tell you a little about myself, I've lived my entire young adult life in fear of being ridiculed for my penis. I have avoided going to any place that requires me to undress such as the gym, swimming hall etc. This fear began when I was as young as a 10 year old kid being laughed at and teasted by my friends in the changing room after a physical education class. From then on, physical education became my worst nightmare. On top of being a fat kid (imagine the fat pad) and having a small flaccid, my penis size is low average at BEST. Honestly, I can't even begin to articulate the impact that this has had on my life growing up. I avoided girls completely because I thought I was a failure. I thought that it didn't matter if I charmed any girl I talked to because eventually we would get to the sex part and she would also ridicule me as well as tell the entire school about my size.
Fast forward to today, I am in my early 20s and a virgin. However, my life is nowhere near as depressing. I moved to another city where I am now living by myself and I'm studying at the university. On top of that, I have made a big shift in my attitude. Ever since I moved, I have rebranded myself as a person: I'm much more out-going, I dress well and to my suprise, I'm actually quite attractive (I notice that I get checked out a lot by girls, which is something I've previously never experienced or probably prevented myself from acknowledging as it clashed with my perception of myself and reality). I interact with girls at the university on a daily basis, and I honestly just have a fun time talking to them without expecting anything in return. However, the fear of my penis size is always looming somewhere in the back of my mind. I know that if I find a girl that I care for and who also cared for me, then it wouldn't really matter. But the idea that the girl would have to "settle" with my size is not something I'm comfortable with. I don't want a girl I'm in love with to think "oh well, he doesn't have the biggest penis but at least he's a great person and a good lover". NO, I want to be the best version of myself in all areas of life. I want to rock her world with my large penis, I don't want her to think of my penis size as something that she has had to compromise on. I want her to be satisfied in ALL areas.
I measured my penis when edging yesterday, with probably the biggest EQ I have ever had and it measured to 6.1 inches BPEL (maximum BPEL, ruler was pretty much jammed in and couldn't go farther). My MSEG was measured to 4.65 inches. I'm not at all comfortable with my size, especially not the girth as it is sadly below average. Although the length is supposedly "average", it doesn't feel that way at all.
The reason I'm here is because I want to do something about it. I'm tired that my fear of being inadequate is constantly looming in the back of my mind. Whenever I sit down to study or do any other type of activity where I'm alone, I begin to border on these depressive thoughts about my penis size. I understand that I can not change my genetics, I can not change what god has given me. BUT what I can do is put in the required amount of effort and dedication into PE. While I'm not entirely confident PE works (although I doubt that this site is a big conspiracy, lol), the least I can do is to give it a FAIR shot and recognize that I'm actually DOING SOMETHING about my problem instead of just being gloomy and depressed.
Therefore I have decided to begin the JP 90 day routine. I want my expectations to be as realistic as possible, and as I mentioned earlier my EQ was through the roof when I took the provided measurements above. Therefore I don't think my results will be anywhere near JP's (as I read he had some problems with ED so I contribute some of his gains from the routine to EQ). However, I just want to get your feedback on how I should move forward if after the 90 days I don't notice any substantial gains. What If I don't gain any results whatsoever? Or what if the results are absolutely minimal? I understand that PE takes time and as someone with a scarce amount, I don't want to be discouaged if at the end of these 90 days I haven't made any substantial gains (or any gains whatsoever).
I apologize for this overly long thread, but I just felt like I had to share something with this welcoming community. If you took the time to read all the way through, I want you to know that it means the world to me. This is perhaps the only time I've had the chance to get this off my chest. I look forwards to spending a lot of time on here, although I'll have to find the time inbetween studying and other activities.
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