At a total loss

[RoachPiana Member Find all posts View Profile Close RoachPiana]

just to give some background info:

30 years old.
Straight.
Gym regular. In good shape.
Never taken steroids.
Had blood tests and I have normal test count.
Haven't had morning wood for months.
I take multivitamins daily.

First girlfriend years ago...great sex life. No problems.
Since then...I've had fleeting encounters...and I've found I cannot get hard or hard enough to enter them.
This is in turn led to me losing my confidence also due to a disability, it has affected my confidence and I turned to porn to get satisfaction elsewhere. I've also found I cannot get hard on my own anymore. I don't seem to get morning wood either.

I decided to stop watching porn (I used to 3 x a week). At the same time this happened, I met a girl who saw past my disability and we began dating.
I stayed at her house, we kissed for hours and I found I could not get hard. I found it bizarre as I really find her attractive and I was very turned on.

Went to the doctors...had a blood test...came back normal. I got prescribed viagra.
Tried it again...took it a hour before I saw this girl...I couldn't get hard either...it was about 4/10 on the erection scale and I could not enter her.
Tried again the next morning...I found it was a 4/10..then I came within 2 seconds of trying to enter her.

I'm at a total loss and I don't know what to do. The same thing happened 5 years ago and the girl I saw at the time left me due to me not being able to satisfy her.

[Pegasus AdministratorPE Gym EditorPEGym Hero ☺ Admin of the Month Mar 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Pegasus]

"Normal" never ever settle for being told normal !

What are the numbers particularly for total test?

[RoachPiana Member Find all posts View Profile Close RoachPiana]

Hi thanks for your reply.

He didn't say. I just got a text saying "Testosterone blood test result received: Levels of Testosterone are normal"

I also had my blood pressure taken and he said it was perfect.

[CUSP82 Administrator Admin of the Month Dec 2014PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close CUSP82]

What's the disability?

[RoachPiana Member Find all posts View Profile Close RoachPiana]

I rather not say for fear of my identity being discovered but I can say that I've had it since birth and it does not affect anything sexually. It's a sensory disability rather than a physical one.

[CUSP82 Administrator Admin of the Month Dec 2014PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close CUSP82]

But it does affect the way you feel you are perceived by others doesn't it?

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

Not sure if I stand correct, because I'm not a doctor, nor a genius, but it sounds to me that you might need some kegels. Have you ever practiced kegels?

Welcome to the jungle bro

[RoachPiana Member Find all posts View Profile Close RoachPiana]

Hi I can't say I've done kegels before.

and yes I do have some anxiety due to the small size of my penis and my disability.
It put me at a disadvantage in terms of finding a partner.
I'm only able to have sex with a long term partner, but the problem is...I stuggle to get a partner and when I keep getting ED in the early stages of the relationship...she eventually leaves me.

So not being able to get a partner has led me to watch porn which I'm ashamed about. I've also noticed I'm not able to get a full erection on its own or when watching porn.


I think I have a mixture of PIED and anxiety.

Is it possible for insomnia to contribute to ED? I take sleeping tablets every now and then.

[CUSP82 Administrator Admin of the Month Dec 2014PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close CUSP82]

Insomnia is just one of many factors that you're dealing with.

[Pegasus AdministratorPE Gym EditorPEGym Hero ☺ Admin of the Month Mar 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Pegasus]

Go get the numbers for total test . Never ever settle for :"normal".

[7by72b Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close 7by72b]

I wonder if you started taking a new prescription or supplements about the time all this started ?

[Pegasus AdministratorPE Gym EditorPEGym Hero ☺ Admin of the Month Mar 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close Pegasus]

The very first thing before any other conjecture would be total test which is unknown as the word "normal " is meaningless is this context.

[RoachPiana Member Find all posts View Profile Close RoachPiana]

The very first thing before any other conjecture would be total test which is unknown as the word "normal " is meaningless is this context.

I have no idea. My doctor will not say. He just said 'normal' and no cause for concern. Plus I am bald so my T can't be low.

Stayed at her house last night. I took 150mg of viagra. 100mg and a 50mg pill.
A hour later, we made out for 20 minutes, some foreplay. I couldn't get fully hard. about 4/10 As soon as I got slightly hard, I put it in...I came instantly. Total Fail.

I wake up with her the next morning. I feel horny. We make out, penis is 6/10..as soon as I put it in the tip...I came instantly again.

She's now upset with me and is questioning our relationship.

I don't know what to do. I feel like a total failure.

[closed224 Senior Member Member of the Month Dec 2014, Feb 2017 Find all posts View Profile Close closed224]

Quit porno
Get the written blood test don't take his word.
Relax
Start edging
Relax

[RoachPiana Member Find all posts View Profile Close RoachPiana]

Quit porno
Get the written blood test don't take his word.
Relax
Start edging
Relax

Ok, I'll try to make an appointment and ask again next time.

I haven't viewed porn for 2 weeks now.

Also been taking multivitamins, fish oil, horny goat weed and L arginine twice a day.