tldr: Ended a 9 year completely sexless relationship about 2 years ago, recently got myself a FWB. PIV is a big deal for her, but my junk ain't cooperating; it's a purely mental/worrying issue, not a medical one.
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Any and all advice welcomed. Particularly anything I can do to control those thoughts.
Thanks
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- I get very hard very easily with any stimulation of my penis, but maintaining it while concentrating on foreplay for her (i.e. with little to no stimulation for me) seems impossible. So I don't think it's a medical issue.
- If she's playing with my penis to keep me hard and then we move to go for PIV, either I go completely flaccid or suddenly rocket towards orgasm (depending how aroused I was)
- Immediately prior to PIV I've gone flaccid in seconds on two separate occasions now.
- The other day I just managed to get the tip in, but came immediately. She sounded understanding but looked a bit disappointed.
- Used to use porn a lot but stopped as soon as I started seeing her - a few weeks off seemed to make the PE worse if anything (although it increased my libido, ironically)
- I've talked to her about it and she's very understanding. She seems to be being a bit more careful about asking for PIV now.
- I'm giving her some pretty giant orgasms with my fingers and mouth, so for now she's happy but not sure how long that will last
- I'm in marginally-above-average physical shape. It's been a quiet winter at work so that probably didn't help, but recently I've been doing more physical work and it's starting to show. Also started protein shakes and bodyweight workouts at home recently (mainly to get me in shape for work's summer hell)...I'm hoping the shakes don't have anything that might cause a negative effect in them?
- I'm aware that my penis seems to be pretty sensitive. I've never been able to masturbate as hard/enthusiastically as other people appear to be able to unless I've already had at least one orgasm. I am uncircumcised, which may be part of the issue so I'm currently trying to spend more time with my foreskin retracted in an attempt to try and reduce sensitivity a little.
- Tried out a supplement called 'Golden Bull' (bought off Amazon) last week. It did seem to improve EQ a bit (not that it needed improving), but at the expense of a slightly fuzzy head. Also noticed that my legs ached a lot when in bed for a day or two after, not sure if that was related or not. Was hoping to use this is a short-term stop gap to get over this and wean off, but don't want to risk the leg thing again if I'm working the next day, so haven't tried it while having sex with her yet. Don't particularly want to go down the blue pill route as I've read that it can screw your blood pressure etc.
- Initially I thought the ED might be as a result of bad condom sizing, so recently measured myself and ordered some MySize condoms instead. They're definitely way easier to put on so that's probably helped a little, but my point here is that condom size is now not the issue.
- This is not a generalised anxiety/depression issue - I'm pretty cool with myself in terms of self-confidence and all that, and don't suffer from any other mental health issues. However obviously now I'm overly concerned with staying hard and/or lasting longer. I'm aware that this is the problem and that I need to figure out how to STOP thinking about it; I'm normally pretty good at changing my thought processes, but this one seems to be stubborn to shift.
Any and all advice welcomed. Particularly anything I can do to control those thoughts.
Thanks
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