Long story here.
30 years old, broke up with my gf because she still refuse to have sex after 10 years. (no need for comments here please) ...Obviously I've been addicted to porn my whole life... but the last few years I realized I was having a problem.. It started when I quit getting hard while getting lap dances at the strip club. The last 3 or so years I have been in the worst kind of depression. Little exercise, eating poorly regularly, stressed out.
I broke up with her this summer and have been working to get myself together. Running 3+ times a week 3 miles at a time, eating healthy, thinking positive.. But I didn't know how I was going to have the confidence to be with another girl after what I've been through.. And I have been worrying for the past couple years if my EQ was even going to be adequate for sex.
I saw a doctor a couple years ago and discussed it. I had blood tests done to check testosterone levels, and he said everything was pretty normal... So this year after breaking up with my gf I became heavily concerned again. I went to a urologist and discussed everything with him, but I feel like he didn't address my concerns as I would expect a urologist to do. He just took a look at me for 5 seconds and said everything looks normal. After that I talked to a different GP while in for a checkup and he didn't offer any help.
But anyway, at this time I was already seeing a new girl. Every night she came over, we would be cuddling and I was constantly hot in my pants the all the time. When I would use the bathroom my dick was fat and my boxers wet with pre cum... I was still incredibly nervous but gaining confidence. After a couple nights I knew she was ready.. Ultimately I knew I had to tell her what happened with my ex, so I did.. Nights after that she let me touch and suck on her naked but I was still too nervous.
Then a couple weeks ago we were sleeping in bed during the day and I woke up with the fullest erection I've ever seen.. it was just swollen.. After using the bathroom I decided I couldn't waste my chance.. We had sex like 3 days in a row, then 1 day she needed a break, then again the day after like 2 times.... So at this point I'm feeling like all my problems are solved and I have nothing to worry about.
It was a few days before I would see her again.. And the next time my worst fear came true and I lost my erection while trying to enter... the next time the same thing happened and It's been a losing battle since..
I feel like those 2 times I just wasn't hard enough before sex... She doesn't give oral and that's very intimidating for me. Now I'm stressing every day thinking about this.. I'm not getting random erections thinking about sex at work like I was when we were going at it.... My blood flow seems terrible down there.. My flaccid size went to hell. Morning wood is basically gone.
I just don't understand how my body changed like this.... I had been taking supplements. Mens one a day, L-arginine, fish oil, zinc, vitamin E, B12... I was feeling like I was taking too many things, but I always took the one a day and L-arginine every day. I had given up porn and masterbation before I met her as well. So I was charged up for a good 2-3 weeks.. Now I just don't know what to do... I feel like I should try to get on some Cialis because it's been weeks since we had sex now, and I know she's frustrated about it... I just tell her I'm nervous because I am... The other night I tried talking to her about it to say I've been stressing really bad because I want what we had... She said I shouldn't have brought it up because she's been trying to put it in the back of her mind.
30 years old, broke up with my gf because she still refuse to have sex after 10 years. (no need for comments here please) ...Obviously I've been addicted to porn my whole life... but the last few years I realized I was having a problem.. It started when I quit getting hard while getting lap dances at the strip club. The last 3 or so years I have been in the worst kind of depression. Little exercise, eating poorly regularly, stressed out.
I broke up with her this summer and have been working to get myself together. Running 3+ times a week 3 miles at a time, eating healthy, thinking positive.. But I didn't know how I was going to have the confidence to be with another girl after what I've been through.. And I have been worrying for the past couple years if my EQ was even going to be adequate for sex.
I saw a doctor a couple years ago and discussed it. I had blood tests done to check testosterone levels, and he said everything was pretty normal... So this year after breaking up with my gf I became heavily concerned again. I went to a urologist and discussed everything with him, but I feel like he didn't address my concerns as I would expect a urologist to do. He just took a look at me for 5 seconds and said everything looks normal. After that I talked to a different GP while in for a checkup and he didn't offer any help.
But anyway, at this time I was already seeing a new girl. Every night she came over, we would be cuddling and I was constantly hot in my pants the all the time. When I would use the bathroom my dick was fat and my boxers wet with pre cum... I was still incredibly nervous but gaining confidence. After a couple nights I knew she was ready.. Ultimately I knew I had to tell her what happened with my ex, so I did.. Nights after that she let me touch and suck on her naked but I was still too nervous.
Then a couple weeks ago we were sleeping in bed during the day and I woke up with the fullest erection I've ever seen.. it was just swollen.. After using the bathroom I decided I couldn't waste my chance.. We had sex like 3 days in a row, then 1 day she needed a break, then again the day after like 2 times.... So at this point I'm feeling like all my problems are solved and I have nothing to worry about.
It was a few days before I would see her again.. And the next time my worst fear came true and I lost my erection while trying to enter... the next time the same thing happened and It's been a losing battle since..
I feel like those 2 times I just wasn't hard enough before sex... She doesn't give oral and that's very intimidating for me. Now I'm stressing every day thinking about this.. I'm not getting random erections thinking about sex at work like I was when we were going at it.... My blood flow seems terrible down there.. My flaccid size went to hell. Morning wood is basically gone.
I just don't understand how my body changed like this.... I had been taking supplements. Mens one a day, L-arginine, fish oil, zinc, vitamin E, B12... I was feeling like I was taking too many things, but I always took the one a day and L-arginine every day. I had given up porn and masterbation before I met her as well. So I was charged up for a good 2-3 weeks.. Now I just don't know what to do... I feel like I should try to get on some Cialis because it's been weeks since we had sex now, and I know she's frustrated about it... I just tell her I'm nervous because I am... The other night I tried talking to her about it to say I've been stressing really bad because I want what we had... She said I shouldn't have brought it up because she's been trying to put it in the back of her mind.
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