First off I guess I'd like to explain why I'm here and why I've just now decided to post on here. Growing up, I was never a big porn guy, but after I graduated from high school, I succumbed to my desires and spent the better part of my first 2 years in college into a porn addict, and something along the lines of a masturbation addict. This started about 5 years ago from now, and to be honest I think I have been able to sort of block most of my memories of how I used to treat my penis or try to just forgot about it entirely. But to tell you why the last 5 years of my life have been terrible and I have little self confidence left is because while watching porn, or doing other things online, I would sort of play pocket rub/pull with my penis, while being medicated under amphetamines. I would be highly concentrated on doing nothing but getting myself off while rubbing myself through my clothing, and finishing myself in just seconds with a flaccid penis. I would do this multiple times in a row, and probably on average more than 10 times in a day, probably more I can't honestly remember. I will admit I really can't explain why I did this, and at points in my life i attributed this to having a complete back covered in acne, along with my face, after being acne free for about a year. This is why I have blocked this from my memory,and I have been living in even more self pity for the last 3 years of my life.
So, basically I want to obviously improve my libido and erection strength, naturally, and these last 2 weeks have been great. I am still a virgin, ironically! the only sexual experience I have had was a girl giving me a hand job when i was 16, and all i remember was coming no where close to climax after 10-15 minutes. I used to honestly wish i could time travel back to a younger me for exactly this reason, being as my fear/anxiety of sexual activity is immensely irregular. I don't think I know very much about penile health, but when i get an erection now, i sort of have this loose skin flaps at the base of my penis that grow erect via if i masturbate, or see something arousing. I will say I have seen things like that in porn, but my main goal nowadays is to prepare myself for sex, and save myself the embarrassment of trying to have sex because stamina is no longer in my vocabulary.
Now I have been reading on this site on and off for the last couple months, and have tried on and off things such as jelqing, strecthing, edging, with always warming up beforehand. Most of my attempts never lasted, but about 2 weeks ago i decided most of the people with success stories probably just trial and error-ed their way to knowledge on pe, so I've tried to do the same. I think I've found my niche. I always used to look for excuses to take multiple showers and it dawned upon me to take my warm ups a lot more seriously now. Over these lasts two weeks I have pe'd every single day, no rest days, but I usually warm up 30-45 minutes, about 30 with a electric heating pad on the low settings, on top of 2-3 layers of clothes, for safety i guess, then I use a warm wet towel for about 5 minutes. Then i do the normal stretching, up down, sides, helicopter, 2 or 3 sets for 30 seconds each. Then i move to jelqing, which i really feel I finally found out how to get right. It took a couple tries but when I restarted my efforts I finally could maintain a lower level erection via only thinking of my breathing and I have cut out edging after-wards, because it's honestly just to hard for me. I keep my spirits high though, I have already noticed my soft size grow bigger, but I attribute this to my full commitment to pe, I only drink water and really try to eat healthy as I can. My main issue remains to be my EQ, although I've seen a definite infinite increase in flaccid length, and sort of girth, if i succumb and have to masturbate, I will, and now when I do it it feels even softer and wrong if that makes sense. I will also note, I don't feel any sanctification when I climax, it's almost sort of a reaction to seeing something too attracting and not being able to control my urges, which I could really use advice on keeping myself from being put in these situations. This is all porn related as well - which I have been avoiding but I still have natural occurrences, almost similar to puberty I guess, an erection might occur, always pointing downward, where I sometimes might decide to take care of it. These last couple weeks I have been able to brush these asides, but any input on thought-process, how to completely stop masturbation are eagerly awaited.
So do I just edge anyway, or try to edge? It just seems the damage I did to myself was 99% mental and 1% physical because if i full about masturbate I can still finish myself rather quick, and forget about it if I do it with porn, which I suppose should be never watched again by myself. But other then my new-found talent at jelqing, which after reading the JP's 90 guide a second time really helped me realize my LOT and how i should jelq, I really need advice on what all the ways of improving EQ are, and anyone's suggestions on what else I need to add to my routine, alas whether or not you personally think a day of rest is mandatory, I start at the same time everyday to ensure my penis has at least 24 hours of recovery and my warm down sessions with the towel + heating pad can literally last hours now. I also add the second reason I stopped edging, other than it being to hard is because i always almost would masturbate afterward if i had any success in reaching the PONR and stopping it. Input here greatly appreciated.
I also guess you'd be needing to know my personal goals to give me advice, so I can't lie now, I want to be bigger, a lot bigger, but the real priority still is I want to be able to please any and every women alive multiple times, if I choose. I wasn't expecting to grow almost an inch in such a sort time in flaccid length, but it is sort of concerning/weird that I can have some sort of result so quickly, but I haven't really noticed any sort of erection gain or stamina/endurance gain that I could consider notable.
Please answer with any serious feedback/advice you think about my current situation I would appreciate greatly in any of my concern areas - edging, masturbation, warming up/down and for no reason. Also please tell me if you think using the electric heating pad to keep my genitals warm during downtime/watching TV is actually a good idea or not. Thanks in advance!
So, basically I want to obviously improve my libido and erection strength, naturally, and these last 2 weeks have been great. I am still a virgin, ironically! the only sexual experience I have had was a girl giving me a hand job when i was 16, and all i remember was coming no where close to climax after 10-15 minutes. I used to honestly wish i could time travel back to a younger me for exactly this reason, being as my fear/anxiety of sexual activity is immensely irregular. I don't think I know very much about penile health, but when i get an erection now, i sort of have this loose skin flaps at the base of my penis that grow erect via if i masturbate, or see something arousing. I will say I have seen things like that in porn, but my main goal nowadays is to prepare myself for sex, and save myself the embarrassment of trying to have sex because stamina is no longer in my vocabulary.
Now I have been reading on this site on and off for the last couple months, and have tried on and off things such as jelqing, strecthing, edging, with always warming up beforehand. Most of my attempts never lasted, but about 2 weeks ago i decided most of the people with success stories probably just trial and error-ed their way to knowledge on pe, so I've tried to do the same. I think I've found my niche. I always used to look for excuses to take multiple showers and it dawned upon me to take my warm ups a lot more seriously now. Over these lasts two weeks I have pe'd every single day, no rest days, but I usually warm up 30-45 minutes, about 30 with a electric heating pad on the low settings, on top of 2-3 layers of clothes, for safety i guess, then I use a warm wet towel for about 5 minutes. Then i do the normal stretching, up down, sides, helicopter, 2 or 3 sets for 30 seconds each. Then i move to jelqing, which i really feel I finally found out how to get right. It took a couple tries but when I restarted my efforts I finally could maintain a lower level erection via only thinking of my breathing and I have cut out edging after-wards, because it's honestly just to hard for me. I keep my spirits high though, I have already noticed my soft size grow bigger, but I attribute this to my full commitment to pe, I only drink water and really try to eat healthy as I can. My main issue remains to be my EQ, although I've seen a definite infinite increase in flaccid length, and sort of girth, if i succumb and have to masturbate, I will, and now when I do it it feels even softer and wrong if that makes sense. I will also note, I don't feel any sanctification when I climax, it's almost sort of a reaction to seeing something too attracting and not being able to control my urges, which I could really use advice on keeping myself from being put in these situations. This is all porn related as well - which I have been avoiding but I still have natural occurrences, almost similar to puberty I guess, an erection might occur, always pointing downward, where I sometimes might decide to take care of it. These last couple weeks I have been able to brush these asides, but any input on thought-process, how to completely stop masturbation are eagerly awaited.
So do I just edge anyway, or try to edge? It just seems the damage I did to myself was 99% mental and 1% physical because if i full about masturbate I can still finish myself rather quick, and forget about it if I do it with porn, which I suppose should be never watched again by myself. But other then my new-found talent at jelqing, which after reading the JP's 90 guide a second time really helped me realize my LOT and how i should jelq, I really need advice on what all the ways of improving EQ are, and anyone's suggestions on what else I need to add to my routine, alas whether or not you personally think a day of rest is mandatory, I start at the same time everyday to ensure my penis has at least 24 hours of recovery and my warm down sessions with the towel + heating pad can literally last hours now. I also add the second reason I stopped edging, other than it being to hard is because i always almost would masturbate afterward if i had any success in reaching the PONR and stopping it. Input here greatly appreciated.
I also guess you'd be needing to know my personal goals to give me advice, so I can't lie now, I want to be bigger, a lot bigger, but the real priority still is I want to be able to please any and every women alive multiple times, if I choose. I wasn't expecting to grow almost an inch in such a sort time in flaccid length, but it is sort of concerning/weird that I can have some sort of result so quickly, but I haven't really noticed any sort of erection gain or stamina/endurance gain that I could consider notable.
Please answer with any serious feedback/advice you think about my current situation I would appreciate greatly in any of my concern areas - edging, masturbation, warming up/down and for no reason. Also please tell me if you think using the electric heating pad to keep my genitals warm during downtime/watching TV is actually a good idea or not. Thanks in advance!
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