I have expressed my pessimism in previous posts, but negative emotions have resurfaced again. I feel bad about my life in general and my thoughts drift towards my penis size and how small it is. While according to the studies I'm "average", it doesn't give me much reassurance because I've always felt small and been ridiculed for it. Moreover, I feel that other factors such as EQ, nationality, and how hard you press towards the pubic bone plays a role when you compare yourself to the studies. I know that much of my frustration is unfounded, because at around 5.75 BPEL my size isn't terrible, however, I'm afraid to put myself out there. Another thought that bothers me is if it's fair for me to start a family and have children. Would it be fair to provide children with my small penis genetics? Although we can enhance our size through PE, a lot of doubt still surrounds my mind about the whole method. Just look at the countless dead threads from people who put in great effort with little to show for it. Hell, just yesterday a long time veteran Kickinthemebs returned only to tell us that most of his gains have vanished. To someone who is just starting out, it is extremely discouraging to me and I sometimes wonder if what we're doing here is just pseudo science.
To be frank, I think much of my frustration comes from life circumstances and dating more so than my penis size (although it does factor in). More specifically, I met a girl in my college class about a year ago whom I really hit it off with. Although she had a boyfriend at the time, I left a very good impression on her and there was something between us. Our last conversation took place a year ago, she had reached out to me on facebook asking how I had been. I informed her that I had quit college in order to pursue a degree in another field, she left a reply and our conversation ended there. A year has gone by and she has since left her relationship. If I were to reach out to her again and ask her out, I believe there's a good chance she'll say yes. However, I'm extremely depressed about my life circumstances and I don't want her to have a clue about just how badly my life has been since we last spoke. Not only have I not pursued an education in another field, I have also been unemployed, depressed, gotten fat and generally been very unproductive. It's only now that I'm beginning to muster back some of my energy to move myself in a positive direction in life. Aside from not even having sufficient financial resources to date her properly, I'm also afraid of having sex with her and disappointing her with my size.
To be frank, I think much of my frustration comes from life circumstances and dating more so than my penis size (although it does factor in). More specifically, I met a girl in my college class about a year ago whom I really hit it off with. Although she had a boyfriend at the time, I left a very good impression on her and there was something between us. Our last conversation took place a year ago, she had reached out to me on facebook asking how I had been. I informed her that I had quit college in order to pursue a degree in another field, she left a reply and our conversation ended there. A year has gone by and she has since left her relationship. If I were to reach out to her again and ask her out, I believe there's a good chance she'll say yes. However, I'm extremely depressed about my life circumstances and I don't want her to have a clue about just how badly my life has been since we last spoke. Not only have I not pursued an education in another field, I have also been unemployed, depressed, gotten fat and generally been very unproductive. It's only now that I'm beginning to muster back some of my energy to move myself in a positive direction in life. Aside from not even having sufficient financial resources to date her properly, I'm also afraid of having sex with her and disappointing her with my size.
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