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I have always liked to watch big dick porn. When teen and young man I watched a lot of Julion Rios, Lex Steele and Mandingo scenes. And later this guy Johnny Dark. I dreamed that I would have dick like Julian. What that is over 8" nbpel and 6" eg? And dreamed of women loving that dick and telling stories to each other. Later my wife telling stories to her friends. (One of her friends, hot 20yo girl and I was 25 then, wanted something with me but I refused..maybe because lack of sexual confidence or trying to be a good man.)
And thinking how big ego and good confidence I would have with women. Beeing good looking guy, only big dick was missing from my perfect self-image and great sexual confidence. But I had 6" bpel / 5" nbpel, 5.1" eg. And I did nothing to it in 15 years because I thought PE was hoax until 2016. I thought that almost every woman who have slept around little bit has encountered +7" nbpel penis that I used to see in porn and thinks that my 5" nbp is small. That ruined my confidence quite a lot.
Then my ex-wife said someting like "you promised to train your dick big 5 years ago"..and something like that she would want a little bigger dick to me. And she had told me long before that, that she's dated a guy with huge cock. In my mind it was Julians cock. And I thought that my ex-wife would want that her man would have Julians cock. Manly big dick that fills her good instead of sorry ass white pale average normal penis. It was that time when sex sucked for her as she never orgasmed from penetration. Oral or vibrator/her hands with penis were only ways. Later after PE and better technique she would have strong deep spot orgasm every time 1-2 times per session and she admitted that my gains of only ~1" length AND better EQ had made sex much better. Better EQ has big role too, but it could be that 1" was needed to reach that good spot deep. Should have done PE over 10 years ago with extenders, manuals and pumps. I would have gained much more because back then I had A LOT of time.
Still I think it's very much more manly and sexy VISUALLY, when you have a great lean body and there is good sized hard dick (+7" nbpel/+5.5" eg). I am one inch short of that beeing 6" nbp and visually watching from above, I would want to see ~1" more shaft. But when I take pictures from side or down it looks quite big and good sometimes. I should have done that a long ago. But I think without big dick porn and ever seeing videos and pictures of MUCH larger penises than I have, I would not have had this feeling of beeing lesser man and insufficient. But would I still think that great lean body with 7" visible dick is visually much sexier than same body with 5" visible dick?
Has big dick porn caused you to feel lesser man?
And thinking how big ego and good confidence I would have with women. Beeing good looking guy, only big dick was missing from my perfect self-image and great sexual confidence. But I had 6" bpel / 5" nbpel, 5.1" eg. And I did nothing to it in 15 years because I thought PE was hoax until 2016. I thought that almost every woman who have slept around little bit has encountered +7" nbpel penis that I used to see in porn and thinks that my 5" nbp is small. That ruined my confidence quite a lot.
Then my ex-wife said someting like "you promised to train your dick big 5 years ago"..and something like that she would want a little bigger dick to me. And she had told me long before that, that she's dated a guy with huge cock. In my mind it was Julians cock. And I thought that my ex-wife would want that her man would have Julians cock. Manly big dick that fills her good instead of sorry ass white pale average normal penis. It was that time when sex sucked for her as she never orgasmed from penetration. Oral or vibrator/her hands with penis were only ways. Later after PE and better technique she would have strong deep spot orgasm every time 1-2 times per session and she admitted that my gains of only ~1" length AND better EQ had made sex much better. Better EQ has big role too, but it could be that 1" was needed to reach that good spot deep. Should have done PE over 10 years ago with extenders, manuals and pumps. I would have gained much more because back then I had A LOT of time.
Still I think it's very much more manly and sexy VISUALLY, when you have a great lean body and there is good sized hard dick (+7" nbpel/+5.5" eg). I am one inch short of that beeing 6" nbp and visually watching from above, I would want to see ~1" more shaft. But when I take pictures from side or down it looks quite big and good sometimes. I should have done that a long ago. But I think without big dick porn and ever seeing videos and pictures of MUCH larger penises than I have, I would not have had this feeling of beeing lesser man and insufficient. But would I still think that great lean body with 7" visible dick is visually much sexier than same body with 5" visible dick?
Has big dick porn caused you to feel lesser man?
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