Its just not there anymore
I don't ever get more than 10 replies on a thread so really I'll just vent to let it out so I'll feel better today.
I was going strong. I was consistent, doing everything right and making sure I don't get ahead of myself. I was going to the gym, IF'ing and seeing some changes. Then it's like it hit me again. One day I looked at it and felt small. Re-looking at my pictures and I just felt very inadequate. I had stopped fapping because I wanted to see if it'll help out with my gains. I ended started fapping again kuz I thought I'd feel better. I couldn't do it off of thought no more. Insecurities, low self esteem and low confidence got in the way. I only look at amateur porn because it's more realistic. Then I realized, well shit I am on the smaller side. These was recorded cell phone videos too. These past couple of weeks have been a roller coaster. I'm brought back to my past relationships. And yes I have seen a therapist about this. Yes I do realize that I'm average and that to some women average is enough. I'm only 5'4(5'5 on a good day) so the odds are already against me with women. And I'm in America so yes height is def a factor over here. Maybe I'll shake this again but as of right now I'm just not feeling it. I love to do PE because I know there's an end goal and I believe it works. I have the patience and in no rush. However, from time to time I still feel very insecure and inadequate. That mixed in with low self esteem is a horrible ass mixture.