A place to rant

[TheGreatDivider]

Rooster's recipe makes me miss eating cheese. I cut most dairy and cheeses out of my diet, with the exception of a little cream cheese or cream every once in awhile, because it was too easy to over eat cheesy dishes. I will have to slowly add it back to my diet along with nightshade vegetables, peanuts, treenuts, corn and soy, at some point.

[BigRooster]

Did you rinse the beans first?

No I did not. I was going to use the liquid from can to deglaze my skillet. The can that I bought was cooked down already with no liquid. Kind of almost like a can of old El Paso refried beans. Made for a good thick dish. I will probably use it again.

[BigRooster]

If we don’t hear from you again BR we’ll know why. I’m gonna miss you.

I'm still here Par

[Dontrike]

Are you alright?

You okay?

Are you fine?

I have heard different versions of this question practically every day for the last few weeks of work and I am really starting to wonder what the hell is going on. I mean sure the bags under my eyes could hold groceries, even though I'm getting 7 hours of sleep, at least, a night. Sure, I've had to push down a few emotions lately and I've been angrier as of late (albeit not to people at work). Yes, the constant bus riding and incredible lack of free time is immensely draining. I have lost a lot of weight (how much I'm not sure until tomorrow).

But after all of that I have to wonder what is wrong with my face or how I'm looking. It's not like I look different from when I started the job. It's starting to become befuddling, to say the least, if not slightly irritating. I just don't get it. What the hell are they seeing?

[Wildflower]

Are you alright?

You okay?

Are you fine?

I have heard different versions of this question practically every day for the last few weeks of work and I am really starting to wonder what the hell is going on. I mean sure the bags under my eyes could hold groceries, even though I'm getting 7 hours of sleep, at least, a night. Sure, I've had to push down a few emotions lately and I've been angrier as of late (albeit not to people at work). Yes, the constant bus riding and incredible lack of free time is immensely draining. I have lost a lot of weight (how much I'm not sure until tomorrow).

But after all of that I have to wonder what is wrong with my face or how I'm looking. It's not like I look different from when I started the job. It's starting to become befuddling, to say the least, if not slightly irritating. I just don't get it. What the hell are they seeing?

The weight loss may be more whats concerning.... do u know why youre lossing weight??

[Dontrike]

The weight loss may be more whats concerning.... do u know why youre lossing weight??

I am only eating two meals and a protein bar a day while getting a lot of physical activity at the same time, from work. From the pedometer on my phone I'm walking about 10km a day, or if I'm cleaning a different area of the school I am moving in different ways.

I don't now of it's the weight loss they are noticing though, it seems to be something in the face area, maybe how I am carrying myself. I am not sure, but this one girl that I only worked with for a 2nd time, even asked me that. So something is clearly going on, I'm putting something out there or I look like death, no idea.

[geo3]

poo

[Dontrike]

Nothing like ranting to yourself and having a "conversation" with another person even though no one else is there because if you tried to have that conversation with them it still wouldn't do anything so you only end up irritating yourself more. I did it for an hour straight and all I ended up with is dry mouth.

I'm getting so annoyed by my living situation lately and really for no reason, but all of a sudden I am super irritated by a lot of it. If only I could have that conversation with anyone that could do anything about it, but nope.

[CUSP82]

Talk to us.

[Dontrike]

Talk to us.

Lately there's been a lot of people at my house, my youngest brother has had friends over, the other guy that lives here has had just as many people here, if not more so, and I think that because of the various stresses of work (which have been going on for months and only now starting to decrease) I chose this particular issue to get frazzled over. With my step-dad coming for Thanksgiving I'd love to discuss these issues with him to fix some of this, or other things, but I know it won't do anything, as this guy let his own son steal thousands from him.

Part of me would love to move into my own place alone, but I know apartments I'd have to deal with the same random thumps above, and also below, and a house is too much to afford. It would be great to get my friend in here and somehow kick that other guy out so these things would decrease, but something tells me that won't happen any time soon.

I mean I was fine with this stuff, but then my brother's friends started having living issues and for like a month they were around more, staying the night, and asking to live here, and I just wasn't having any of it. After years of dealing with the "It'll only be for X months" or "They'll just be here for a while" I don't trust a single person moving in for any time unless I am the one in control of it. I couldn't tell my step-dad about this as he has a terrible track record of bringing people in the house, ranging from his own son to a god damn parrot, so I just made sure no one else would be here.

So basically I just needed to vent and I think the living situation is what I chose to rant about to an empty room in a hypothetical argument.

I guess I'm just tired of everything right now.