Dear Readers. I am very new to this forum, but i needed somewhere to go and someone to talk to. I feel like crying right now.
I am with the women of my dreams and we fell in love very quickly. I am 21 she is 19. She is almost 6 months pregnant with our child. We have always had a very active sexual relationship, but when asked if i was pleasing her or making her cum she would answer "I think so" or "I can't really tell". So i knew she wasn't completely happy. You see she will never give me a straight answer. She always gives me an answer that basically says she doesn't want to say one way or another she just wants me to be happy.Which i can't stand because even though honesty can make me hurt or angry or sad or humiliated i would prefer dealing with those emotions over getting an answer that is just "what i want to hear".
I knew she wasn't happy. I knew i wasn't doing it for her. She finally admitted it more or less.
My last gf i had who i was with for a while. I could make her cum several times in one sitting. She would spray everywhere and she was completely satisfied. I know i don't have the biggest dick but its not the smallest. When its erect i have a 7 inch x 5 inch. Now with my love... the women i want to marry.. she says she can't even feel me sometimes. like when we're in the missionary and im staring into her eyes. she can't feel me. I love her and i want her to have the most. So i suggested maybe she should try a dildo. She argued and wouldn't do it because she knew she would "hurt" me. but i knew she wanted to and finally she did. Last night i used the 9inch long probably 7inch girth dildo. on her. She has never had a bigger dick than mine. and previously said that i was the best shes had. She took it all with only 1 and a half inches to spare. not even really. She came like 4 times. juices flowing out of her. She was screaming and moaning and crying out to god. I asked her when we were done. (again came Indecisive statements) but through all those semi true statements she was being honest and i heard what she was saying. She liked it much more than my dick. She has never felt that way before. And she doesn't think i will ever be able to make her feel like that. Now i can't even get hard. My soul feels torn. I cant touch her let alone look at her in the eyes. All i see now is that I will never be able to make her feel in my entire lifetime the way she did in 15 minutes with that huge cock.
I guess i can use that on her whenever she wants so she can cum and cum and cum till she doesn't want to. But I have a selfish question.
What about me? I feel destroyed. Even now i fight back the tears. I dont even know if i can enjoy sex ever again or if i can even get hard now. I feel shell shocked.
What do i do? My whole world has collapsed
I am with the women of my dreams and we fell in love very quickly. I am 21 she is 19. She is almost 6 months pregnant with our child. We have always had a very active sexual relationship, but when asked if i was pleasing her or making her cum she would answer "I think so" or "I can't really tell". So i knew she wasn't completely happy. You see she will never give me a straight answer. She always gives me an answer that basically says she doesn't want to say one way or another she just wants me to be happy.Which i can't stand because even though honesty can make me hurt or angry or sad or humiliated i would prefer dealing with those emotions over getting an answer that is just "what i want to hear".
I knew she wasn't happy. I knew i wasn't doing it for her. She finally admitted it more or less.
My last gf i had who i was with for a while. I could make her cum several times in one sitting. She would spray everywhere and she was completely satisfied. I know i don't have the biggest dick but its not the smallest. When its erect i have a 7 inch x 5 inch. Now with my love... the women i want to marry.. she says she can't even feel me sometimes. like when we're in the missionary and im staring into her eyes. she can't feel me. I love her and i want her to have the most. So i suggested maybe she should try a dildo. She argued and wouldn't do it because she knew she would "hurt" me. but i knew she wanted to and finally she did. Last night i used the 9inch long probably 7inch girth dildo. on her. She has never had a bigger dick than mine. and previously said that i was the best shes had. She took it all with only 1 and a half inches to spare. not even really. She came like 4 times. juices flowing out of her. She was screaming and moaning and crying out to god. I asked her when we were done. (again came Indecisive statements) but through all those semi true statements she was being honest and i heard what she was saying. She liked it much more than my dick. She has never felt that way before. And she doesn't think i will ever be able to make her feel like that. Now i can't even get hard. My soul feels torn. I cant touch her let alone look at her in the eyes. All i see now is that I will never be able to make her feel in my entire lifetime the way she did in 15 minutes with that huge cock.
I guess i can use that on her whenever she wants so she can cum and cum and cum till she doesn't want to. But I have a selfish question.
What about me? I feel destroyed. Even now i fight back the tears. I dont even know if i can enjoy sex ever again or if i can even get hard now. I feel shell shocked.
What do i do? My whole world has collapsed
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