After my edging session when I ejaculate, I get into this weird mood, its hard to describe. You know, during the day sometimes when Im horny or during edging session I think about one girl Im really attracted to. I think about having sex with her and also just kissing her etc..I dont know if its weird or normal, but anyway...I think thats normal. I also think about it during my edging session. Well, I dont think always about her but mostly about her. Just when I think about her it makes me horny, its crazy I dont know whats wrong..Im always thinking how we could get together and have her as my girlfriend.
BUT, after ejaculation, eventhough I still think about her it starts to get weird and suddenly I feel like: Ok, what if this was real and she now just made me cum? What next? What would I do with her as a girlfriend? She would just take my time, its a lot of responsibility and should I just let someone this close to me? This intimate?
Then I think about other girl which I like a lot, but in some other way. The Passionate Wife described it as "chemistry". When I think about that girl, I just dont think about sex, I always imagine just her eyes and smile. I would really like her as a girlfriend, if I could pick, I would pick this one over first one as girlfriend. But then when I imagine she would be there with me, like in this situation after ejaculation, after sex...I feel like: I couldnt do that to her, shes too cute and I just couldnt use her for sex, eventhough I know its not "using". I feel like I would make something bad.
I just dont feel the need for sex. When I ejaculate not thinking about anybody its ok. But when I start to thinking about these girls it gets weird like I described above and Im little worried about it because:
1.When I have a girlfriend and we have sex, I dont want to get in similar mindset.
2.When I have real sex, I want to keep going, but if this happens, then it will be all voer because my sex drive will go from 100000 % to -999999 % ...
After 10-15 minut after ejaculation I feel normal again and I think again about the first girl and Im just willing to get in relationship with her. Which Im not sure if it would be a good idea, maybe yes and maybe not. Who knows. I also think about the second girl.
But for some reason when I have horny mind, I always think about the first one...
Anyway, please can you help me? This is serious for me. I just have to somehow get my mind in the right place.
BUT, after ejaculation, eventhough I still think about her it starts to get weird and suddenly I feel like: Ok, what if this was real and she now just made me cum? What next? What would I do with her as a girlfriend? She would just take my time, its a lot of responsibility and should I just let someone this close to me? This intimate?
Then I think about other girl which I like a lot, but in some other way. The Passionate Wife described it as "chemistry". When I think about that girl, I just dont think about sex, I always imagine just her eyes and smile. I would really like her as a girlfriend, if I could pick, I would pick this one over first one as girlfriend. But then when I imagine she would be there with me, like in this situation after ejaculation, after sex...I feel like: I couldnt do that to her, shes too cute and I just couldnt use her for sex, eventhough I know its not "using". I feel like I would make something bad.
I just dont feel the need for sex. When I ejaculate not thinking about anybody its ok. But when I start to thinking about these girls it gets weird like I described above and Im little worried about it because:
1.When I have a girlfriend and we have sex, I dont want to get in similar mindset.
2.When I have real sex, I want to keep going, but if this happens, then it will be all voer because my sex drive will go from 100000 % to -999999 % ...
After 10-15 minut after ejaculation I feel normal again and I think again about the first girl and Im just willing to get in relationship with her. Which Im not sure if it would be a good idea, maybe yes and maybe not. Who knows. I also think about the second girl.
But for some reason when I have horny mind, I always think about the first one...
Anyway, please can you help me? This is serious for me. I just have to somehow get my mind in the right place.
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