Alright so this post is kind of a rant about insecurities about myself. So if yall don't want to read about that SKIP this!!
I just kind of want other peoples opinions. Am i being a little bitch? should i man the fuck up? or am i being reasonable.
Anyways, I don't want to sound cocky but i am not an ugly guy but i am very insecure. This all starts with, acne on the face (haven't had clear skin for awhile), its nothing extreme and tbh this isn't the thing im most insecure about. I honestly don't even care because its not THAT much. But my pimples can get pretty dang big. This leads to acne obviously on my back and just above my ass crack aha. Anyways the acne on my back always usually leave hyper pigmentation (basically acne scars that are dark spots). Now i am an asian guy so its like dark tan spots on my skins. Very noticeable which sucks. Also i use to have a nickel sized flat mole on my back, i tried the at home remedy stuff, and it removed most of it, but there is still a bunch of little specks of mole. Also you can basically still see the outline and shape of the mole (which is now scar). So basically it looks like a nickel sized scar with little specks of moles but a bunch of it. Not very pleasing to look at up close. So basically my back consist of a bunch of acne scars (literately everywhere on my back) + this nickel sized scar. So i workout, not the best body but im slowly getting to my goals. Id say i have a better body than the average joe (but again nothing crazy lol). I honestly HATE taking my shirt off because of those scars.
Ok on to the thing that im most insecure about. My penis, pretty typical aha. Anyways i am either just under average or average. Sitting at 5" erect length, and like 4 inches erect girth. As you can guess i am a virgin lol. Honestly that isn't the worst part, i've accepted that my penis is small but i can change that with PE. The thing im most insecure about is the fordyce spots that i have on the base of my penis up until the mid point of my shaft. The base is VERY VERY noticeable, it just looks like a group of fordyce spots everywhere. this SUCKS! because they are permanent and this just breaks my heart lol.
Thats not even the end of it, so growing up my parents never told me about how you can roll the foreskin down and over the head of the penis. I didn't figure that out until i was 18-19 (sad i know). So with that, i developed TIGHT foreskin, so i can't pull my foreskin back when erect, i have to pull it back when flaccid then get erect but when doing that it stretches my foreskin so much that it starts to hurt and burn. NOW im still not even done! when pulling back the foreskin, i reveal these little bumps. After searching the internet i have come to believe that they are Pearly Penile Papules. But its not on the head of the penis, they are on the area where my foreskin is extremely tight (so basically the start of the inner foreskin). Not only do i have that but i have TONS of that. It looks like a huge group of them!
I have concluded that i have a BUNCH of skin problems that i won't even mention about my face, i feel like this post is long enough. But basically sometimes these random blemishes show up, extremely dry skin (sometimes! i know its weird), white heads around my nose and mouth area. And you guys are probably thinking that im a dirt bag and don't wash up. But i am actually very clean, i wash my face in the morning and at night, im very active, i workout, play sports, drink lots of water.
My diet isn't the best, but its better than most people.
So what do you guys think? I am being a little bitch? or are there solutions to my problems. I honestly don't feel like i will have sex until i fix most of my penis issues. I just can't even imagine showing a girl it.
I just kind of want other peoples opinions. Am i being a little bitch? should i man the fuck up? or am i being reasonable.
Anyways, I don't want to sound cocky but i am not an ugly guy but i am very insecure. This all starts with, acne on the face (haven't had clear skin for awhile), its nothing extreme and tbh this isn't the thing im most insecure about. I honestly don't even care because its not THAT much. But my pimples can get pretty dang big. This leads to acne obviously on my back and just above my ass crack aha. Anyways the acne on my back always usually leave hyper pigmentation (basically acne scars that are dark spots). Now i am an asian guy so its like dark tan spots on my skins. Very noticeable which sucks. Also i use to have a nickel sized flat mole on my back, i tried the at home remedy stuff, and it removed most of it, but there is still a bunch of little specks of mole. Also you can basically still see the outline and shape of the mole (which is now scar). So basically it looks like a nickel sized scar with little specks of moles but a bunch of it. Not very pleasing to look at up close. So basically my back consist of a bunch of acne scars (literately everywhere on my back) + this nickel sized scar. So i workout, not the best body but im slowly getting to my goals. Id say i have a better body than the average joe (but again nothing crazy lol). I honestly HATE taking my shirt off because of those scars.
Ok on to the thing that im most insecure about. My penis, pretty typical aha. Anyways i am either just under average or average. Sitting at 5" erect length, and like 4 inches erect girth. As you can guess i am a virgin lol. Honestly that isn't the worst part, i've accepted that my penis is small but i can change that with PE. The thing im most insecure about is the fordyce spots that i have on the base of my penis up until the mid point of my shaft. The base is VERY VERY noticeable, it just looks like a group of fordyce spots everywhere. this SUCKS! because they are permanent and this just breaks my heart lol.
Thats not even the end of it, so growing up my parents never told me about how you can roll the foreskin down and over the head of the penis. I didn't figure that out until i was 18-19 (sad i know). So with that, i developed TIGHT foreskin, so i can't pull my foreskin back when erect, i have to pull it back when flaccid then get erect but when doing that it stretches my foreskin so much that it starts to hurt and burn. NOW im still not even done! when pulling back the foreskin, i reveal these little bumps. After searching the internet i have come to believe that they are Pearly Penile Papules. But its not on the head of the penis, they are on the area where my foreskin is extremely tight (so basically the start of the inner foreskin). Not only do i have that but i have TONS of that. It looks like a huge group of them!
I have concluded that i have a BUNCH of skin problems that i won't even mention about my face, i feel like this post is long enough. But basically sometimes these random blemishes show up, extremely dry skin (sometimes! i know its weird), white heads around my nose and mouth area. And you guys are probably thinking that im a dirt bag and don't wash up. But i am actually very clean, i wash my face in the morning and at night, im very active, i workout, play sports, drink lots of water.
My diet isn't the best, but its better than most people.
So what do you guys think? I am being a little bitch? or are there solutions to my problems. I honestly don't feel like i will have sex until i fix most of my penis issues. I just can't even imagine showing a girl it.
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