Hello guys,I will be 100% honest with you. English is my second language so forgive me for my mistakes. I've known for this community and PE for about a year and had been committed to practicing PE from April to August 2018. I 've started as 17 cm (6.65") x 13 cm (5.11") and in August my size was 19 cm (7.4") one time that I was 100%, usually it was 18.5 cm(7.28") x 14 cm (5.5"). So I followed advice from book PE book and everything was true in my case and I was so happy.
I am 22 year old student, and since I've been 13 I am watching porn, I know I am addicted, I've started watching normal stuff but today I only watch some weird shit as normal doesn't do much for me especially when I try to maintain my erection level for exercise. I've tried no fap but when I exercise I get "too hot" and come. SO that doesn't work for me. And since August 2018 I cannot finish my workouts as I cannot handle them without coming.
And it makes me tired,angry, unmotivated for anything in life and depressed, and it only gets worse. Sometimes I hate my existence when I do it.
Last 2 months I've been looking everything that could help me without anyone knowing about it. I couldn't stand anyone knowing this. I've tried things from book Multi Orgasmic Man, it is Taoist approach to sexuality, kind of edging and than training yourself not to cum, after 2 months I managed to have orgasm without coming, I felt almost the same but I was turned on after and spend between 7 and 9 hours doing it, I was hard almost entire time and only when I finally decided to come has my desire subsided.
Since August my size has decreased to barely 16 cm (6.30") x 13 cm (5.11") I swear I am not lying it is possible when you constantly masturbate and come. That even makes me more depressed. Last girl I was with September 2017 was 190 cm (6ft 3") and when we had sex she humiliated me for my size. And tho I think it is not so bad and she was taller and bigger, I would rather kill myself than risk that happening to me ever again.
I appreciate any help that I can get, I am at such low mental place and everything I do is like a flat spin keeping me there. Thank you so much in advance. Solomon.
I am 22 year old student, and since I've been 13 I am watching porn, I know I am addicted, I've started watching normal stuff but today I only watch some weird shit as normal doesn't do much for me especially when I try to maintain my erection level for exercise. I've tried no fap but when I exercise I get "too hot" and come. SO that doesn't work for me. And since August 2018 I cannot finish my workouts as I cannot handle them without coming.
And it makes me tired,angry, unmotivated for anything in life and depressed, and it only gets worse. Sometimes I hate my existence when I do it.
Last 2 months I've been looking everything that could help me without anyone knowing about it. I couldn't stand anyone knowing this. I've tried things from book Multi Orgasmic Man, it is Taoist approach to sexuality, kind of edging and than training yourself not to cum, after 2 months I managed to have orgasm without coming, I felt almost the same but I was turned on after and spend between 7 and 9 hours doing it, I was hard almost entire time and only when I finally decided to come has my desire subsided.
Since August my size has decreased to barely 16 cm (6.30") x 13 cm (5.11") I swear I am not lying it is possible when you constantly masturbate and come. That even makes me more depressed. Last girl I was with September 2017 was 190 cm (6ft 3") and when we had sex she humiliated me for my size. And tho I think it is not so bad and she was taller and bigger, I would rather kill myself than risk that happening to me ever again.
I appreciate any help that I can get, I am at such low mental place and everything I do is like a flat spin keeping me there. Thank you so much in advance. Solomon.
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