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Hope: It is all that I ask for brothers...
It is late tonight and I'm afraid this is not going to be a happy posting, so to those who are looking for that cheery can-do inspirational tale please look away now............However I think this is the most I will or have ever opened up in my entire life so the privilege is certainly there for your viewing pleasure. Here goes:
I had first grown up as quite a rotund child. Always picked on because of my weight and always feeling as though I was not born to be in this body. No hermaphroditic or sexual questioning tendencies here as I am quite happy to be a guy and am very secure with my sexuality but the few things I never was secure with were my weight and well... Is it not obvious why I am here?
So after a few years back I had lost a lot of weight at around 17 going from 235lbs to 180lbs in under 2 months and all for a girl (romanticism is a big part of me unfortunately as I never had a real relationship). I then had been astonished that my under 5 inch penis had grown to 5.5inches! I was enthralled and only wished to be all the man that I can be as I had so much love to give for some lucky girl out there.
As I had lost as much weight as safely/desirably possible for someone of my tall reasonably tall stature (6ft 2) I had realized this may be the end of the line for me... Until I found the miracle that is all of you.
So I had began my quest before I was 18 (big no-no I understand) and would browse your site for whatever I could find. I had begun my quest with Jelqing dry-style (somedays without warm-up) for up to 20 minutes. This had gone on for a few weeks on and off and though no results came (of course they wouldn't through my gross errors) but miraculously I had no injuries at all. So as the months passed I would incorporate warming up and only stuck with a routine of stretching, jelqing, kegels, and edging for at most 3 months if barely that (with improper technique mind you), and only succeeded in strengthening my penis which is not all a bad thing.
I may have grown less than .25 inches both ways but I was never sure...
So through the discord of having two relationships end in being cheated on for guys who were better off in that department than I (one of them was 8.5 inches and you may be thinking "such B.S" but my ex measured something that was exactly that size and knew it without a ruler) I had made it my ambition to do whatever I could to be the man that I always sought to be. So through various months of continuing going down an on-and-off path of P.E, I had finally after my 19th birthday decided to sit down and make a routine that I would find success. For the past four months it was so:
2 on 1 off with starting at 4 sets of kegels starting at 50 up to 100 per day
-Warm up: 15 minutes with a hot wash cloth (reheating in water every 5 min)
-do 1 set of 5-way stretches in legs out sitting position on the bed (down, right, up, left, and out) for 30 seconds each stretch
-circle stretches clockwise and counterclockwise 30 seconds each way
-15 minutes of dry-jelqing up to 25 over the course of time
-40 minutes edging to 50 overtime
-then after 2 months added 1 bundled stretch going clockwise
-then added 1 more bundled stretch going counterclockwise (to go against my penile-oriented clockwise rotaion)
-and finally a 7 minute warm down
I would never ejaculate after edging only once every two weeks or so.
And only missed 6 days throughout these 3+ months
"So what?" You might ask.
Well now I am writing to you all that I have observed for months and have felt a brotherly bond from many of you, those whom I can even name without looking such as Pirate, Pegasus, Remek, JP, BigAl, Moxsum, Waylander, Batwoman, and all of the others that I have felt close with to simply say: I am lost and defeated...........
Yesterday I injured myself for the first time ever with a Hard-Flaccid and now cannot attain get a full erection. I have no scarring, no bruising that I can see, no real pain but I am distraught and am doing my best to recuperate from this with my stress-filled life.
I try to be a genuinely good-person and if you ever met me in this life I am one of the few whom would give mine for yours...I truly mean that. I've lost a lot this past year and only pray to not lose anything else as I only give and have yet to receive.
So this is my introduction to you all here. I am ready to for you as I have long but now thankfully awaited to know you. My name means "hope" in my native tongue, and now I hope this world will be kind to me. May all of your love find me well as mine would find each of you long before. Thank you for reading and God bless.
I had first grown up as quite a rotund child. Always picked on because of my weight and always feeling as though I was not born to be in this body. No hermaphroditic or sexual questioning tendencies here as I am quite happy to be a guy and am very secure with my sexuality but the few things I never was secure with were my weight and well... Is it not obvious why I am here?
So after a few years back I had lost a lot of weight at around 17 going from 235lbs to 180lbs in under 2 months and all for a girl (romanticism is a big part of me unfortunately as I never had a real relationship). I then had been astonished that my under 5 inch penis had grown to 5.5inches! I was enthralled and only wished to be all the man that I can be as I had so much love to give for some lucky girl out there.
As I had lost as much weight as safely/desirably possible for someone of my tall reasonably tall stature (6ft 2) I had realized this may be the end of the line for me... Until I found the miracle that is all of you.
So I had began my quest before I was 18 (big no-no I understand) and would browse your site for whatever I could find. I had begun my quest with Jelqing dry-style (somedays without warm-up) for up to 20 minutes. This had gone on for a few weeks on and off and though no results came (of course they wouldn't through my gross errors) but miraculously I had no injuries at all. So as the months passed I would incorporate warming up and only stuck with a routine of stretching, jelqing, kegels, and edging for at most 3 months if barely that (with improper technique mind you), and only succeeded in strengthening my penis which is not all a bad thing.
I may have grown less than .25 inches both ways but I was never sure...
So through the discord of having two relationships end in being cheated on for guys who were better off in that department than I (one of them was 8.5 inches and you may be thinking "such B.S" but my ex measured something that was exactly that size and knew it without a ruler) I had made it my ambition to do whatever I could to be the man that I always sought to be. So through various months of continuing going down an on-and-off path of P.E, I had finally after my 19th birthday decided to sit down and make a routine that I would find success. For the past four months it was so:
2 on 1 off with starting at 4 sets of kegels starting at 50 up to 100 per day
-Warm up: 15 minutes with a hot wash cloth (reheating in water every 5 min)
-do 1 set of 5-way stretches in legs out sitting position on the bed (down, right, up, left, and out) for 30 seconds each stretch
-circle stretches clockwise and counterclockwise 30 seconds each way
-15 minutes of dry-jelqing up to 25 over the course of time
-40 minutes edging to 50 overtime
-then after 2 months added 1 bundled stretch going clockwise
-then added 1 more bundled stretch going counterclockwise (to go against my penile-oriented clockwise rotaion)
-and finally a 7 minute warm down
I would never ejaculate after edging only once every two weeks or so.
And only missed 6 days throughout these 3+ months
"So what?" You might ask.
Well now I am writing to you all that I have observed for months and have felt a brotherly bond from many of you, those whom I can even name without looking such as Pirate, Pegasus, Remek, JP, BigAl, Moxsum, Waylander, Batwoman, and all of the others that I have felt close with to simply say: I am lost and defeated...........
Yesterday I injured myself for the first time ever with a Hard-Flaccid and now cannot attain get a full erection. I have no scarring, no bruising that I can see, no real pain but I am distraught and am doing my best to recuperate from this with my stress-filled life.
I try to be a genuinely good-person and if you ever met me in this life I am one of the few whom would give mine for yours...I truly mean that. I've lost a lot this past year and only pray to not lose anything else as I only give and have yet to receive.
So this is my introduction to you all here. I am ready to for you as I have long but now thankfully awaited to know you. My name means "hope" in my native tongue, and now I hope this world will be kind to me. May all of your love find me well as mine would find each of you long before. Thank you for reading and God bless.
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