Over masturbation and ED for 15 years - Quite cold turkey 5 days ago

[JohnQ]

You are so right! This problem is one that could have been avoided if I had been a little wiser. I was young and stupid and just tried these things. I think the Androstene killed my libido more than anything, but the ephedrine didn't help. I am happy that your penis isn't dead like mine. This is really bad BUT I did it to myself.

[JohnQ]

Day 8
Penis - lifeless and dead - but a hint of life for a few minutes late morning
Mood - depression is beginning to lift
Morning erection - none

Been very depressed for the past several days. Moderate tinnitus for several days and have not been friendly to my co-workers. Basically keep to myself more and avoid contact. Can't stand the sight of certain people. Very bad but interesting nonetheless.

As I mentioned earlier, I also cut out caffeine pills over the past several days and greatly reduced my sugar intake. Now that I am back in the gym I want to reduce my bad habits. I know this has magnified the effects but it will be worth it.

[JohnQ]

Day 9
Penis - lifeless and dead
Mood - depression is still better
Morning erection - none

As I mentioned earlier, I am giving myself a triple whammy here. I quit masturbation 9 days ago, gave up caffeine (I took 2 caffeine pills per day for several years), and I drastically reduced my sugar intake (I am also trying to lose weight).

Being a person who is driven toward goals, I figured I could endure the pain of all these things. In reality, I have snapped at people whom I care about deeply (a particularly wonderful woman whom I adore) and so now that my mood is calming a bit (thank the Lord) I am now making up with people. Boy I have been a piece of work over the past couple of weeks!

I have taken 2 days off from the gym this week so I am going back tonight for a chest/tricep/shoulder workout that I hope will be lots of fun. Tomorrow is back night and Sunday will be leg night. It feels good to be back into physical fitness.

I have been power walking 3-5 miles most days for a few weeks and that is going pretty well too.

Overall, I feel a bit more at ease with life again now. The trauma I have put my body through the past couple of weeks will pay off and I refuse to back off now.

[Mark 1]

Keep going JohnQ, I feel if you keep to it your story may eventuate into an article of success! Have a look at this https://www.pegym.com/forums/erectil...erections.html for EQ. It is good that you have re-evaluated your situation and you are going to make a change! Congratulations for reaching day 10!

[Novajelqer]

Welcome to the Gym. What type of Cardio do you do and how often? More fruits and veggies may help, along with a multivitamin. Have you tried any type of meditation? Good luck and stay on track. Will your wife go for sleeping naked with you? It can help awaken some of those dormant senses. Read as much as you can on this site, it has lots of great info.

[Revolved]

Just curious, did you use to or currently watch porn? If so, to what extent?

[JohnQ]

I watched very little porn, but the porn I did watch was relatively hardcore. My fantasizing while masturbating was fairly advanced and I often had no problem getting erect (major erections) while masturbating to the right mental visualizations.

[JohnQ]

Day 10
Penis - lifeless and dead - but a little action in the afternoon (see below)
Mood - depression is markedly better!
Morning erection - DID have an erection when I awoke at 4:00 AM

Being Saturday, I had errands to run in the morning and got home around 12:00. I laid on the bed and tried to take a short nap, but while dozing had a spontaneous erection. Interesting. I got my wife to give me oral sex and I noticed increased sensitivity in my penis. It didn't last but about 5-6 minutes (I was standing) but while she performed the act it did feel more enjoyable than I remember.

I did not ejaculate (purposely but I had no desire to).

My workouts in the gym have been brutal! Being an avid bodybuilder in my 20s (I am now 42) my muscles are responding well. With an improved diet, tough workouts, and tyrosine supplementation I have lost 5 lbs in the past week! The first night in the gym all I could notice in the mirror was my gut. As of this week, my gut is virtually flat. I am loving it!

I am still weaker than before (I used to bench 420+, squat 550+ and worked out like an animal). Now I have reached reps on bench with 165 BUT it is not about the weight it is about benefiting the muscles and myself overall. The pumps feel great and when I left the gym I was really pumped and felt great!

[JohnQ]

Day 11
Penis - lifeless and dead
Mood - depression is practically gone
Morning erection - none

Weighed this morning and I am down to 239. Today is Sunday and Friday morning I was 244 - 5 lbs this week. Really bizarre.

It is important to note that my attitude is beginning to change a bit. Since I eradicated caffeine pills and greatly reduced sugar AND stopped masturbating, I am calmer. I don't get agitated nearly as quickly or as often and I find my slight social anxiety reduced. I feel a little more empathy for others and I am not as bitter as I was two weeks ago. Very interesting.

Also, it seems as if my digestion has improved. For years I have experienced bloating and slow bowels. Not anymore! I will admit that I am eating much better but I also feel my belly shrinking and watching my body reshape itself daily. Yes, the workouts are hugely helping, but I almost wonder if my body is beginning to regulate itself? Maybe someone can enlighten me.

As I mentioned earlier, I am on TRT, 150 mg test cypionate weekly and 1.5 mg Anastrozole weekly. This week I did not take the Anastrozole (estrogen blocker). I feel great and have read in other forums that Anastrozole reduced some folks' libido. In my case it is impossible to tell but over the coming weeks it will become more apparent.

I will continue to post daily and thanks for everyone's encouragement!

[JohnQ]

I have been 'power' walking since August. I generally do 2.5-3.5 miles per day on a very hilly nature trail and I walk very briskly.