I am a 42 year-old male who was active in sports and an avid bodybuilder throughout my 20s. Had good sexual function in my 20s until I began experimenting with steroids and ephedrine HCl. The steroids helped me gain muscle mass and the ephedrine helped my lose fat - both worked well. I also experimented with test boosters such as Androstenedione in my 20s. On top of that, I masturbated almost daily since I was 13 years old. The effects of all these things have really affected me over the past nearly 15 years and my wife and I have not had sex in at least 3 years.
She is understanding, and we live without sex, but I have recently come to the realization that my life sucks in this predicament. I realized to extent to which I have lost my edge and zest for life in general. It seems like a pointless routine, get up, go to work, stay stressed, go home, then repeat.
My testosterone levels have been low for many years (around 250 ng/ml) and because of that I have been on testosterone by doctor's prescription for a few years. I tried Testim for 18 months but my levels never went above 250 so I finally switched to cypionate injections at 150 mg weekly with Anastrozole as an aromatase inhibitor. As of today, my total test levels are around 860, estrogen is within normal range, and my FREE testosterone is actually above normal. My AST liver enzyme is about 4 points high (very minor elevation) but I am almost wondering if that may be due to my excessive masturbation over the years. My digestion is not as good as it used to be either.
The testosterone has done nothing for my libido and although I have erections from time to time (there is no penil damage - it works fine) I just have no drive and a real woman does not turn me on anymore. I have tried Cialis and Viagra, but those drugs merely treat plumbing problems and do not address libido. I take about 6g of AAKG and L-Citrulline daily.
As I stated before, I have masturbated daily for many years and aside from the other classic problems that causes, it has ruined my self-esteem and I cannot accept being unable to become aroused by my wife or women in general.
As of today, I am on Day 5 of complete masturbation abstinence . As of today also, I am unable to achieve an erection and basically feel flat and lifeless. I am very irritable and difficult to be around. I have no desire to do much of anything. On top of this, I have taken a caffeine pill every morning (because I hate coffee) for many years and I have quit that cold turkey as of a week go. I am taking moderate doses of L-Tyrosine to curb those withdrawal symptoms and it is working quite well. My energy is good and I have started back to the gym as of 3 days ago. I anticipate a long road to recovery but I am determined to beat this!
All in all, I have made up my mind that I will NOT live this way any longer! I will keep a daily log of how things go from now until the day I am fully recovered. Hope that won't be more than 90 days but I am prepared for longer if necessary.
This website is great and the forums are very good as well. Thanks everyone!
She is understanding, and we live without sex, but I have recently come to the realization that my life sucks in this predicament. I realized to extent to which I have lost my edge and zest for life in general. It seems like a pointless routine, get up, go to work, stay stressed, go home, then repeat.
My testosterone levels have been low for many years (around 250 ng/ml) and because of that I have been on testosterone by doctor's prescription for a few years. I tried Testim for 18 months but my levels never went above 250 so I finally switched to cypionate injections at 150 mg weekly with Anastrozole as an aromatase inhibitor. As of today, my total test levels are around 860, estrogen is within normal range, and my FREE testosterone is actually above normal. My AST liver enzyme is about 4 points high (very minor elevation) but I am almost wondering if that may be due to my excessive masturbation over the years. My digestion is not as good as it used to be either.
The testosterone has done nothing for my libido and although I have erections from time to time (there is no penil damage - it works fine) I just have no drive and a real woman does not turn me on anymore. I have tried Cialis and Viagra, but those drugs merely treat plumbing problems and do not address libido. I take about 6g of AAKG and L-Citrulline daily.
As I stated before, I have masturbated daily for many years and aside from the other classic problems that causes, it has ruined my self-esteem and I cannot accept being unable to become aroused by my wife or women in general.
As of today, I am on Day 5 of complete masturbation abstinence . As of today also, I am unable to achieve an erection and basically feel flat and lifeless. I am very irritable and difficult to be around. I have no desire to do much of anything. On top of this, I have taken a caffeine pill every morning (because I hate coffee) for many years and I have quit that cold turkey as of a week go. I am taking moderate doses of L-Tyrosine to curb those withdrawal symptoms and it is working quite well. My energy is good and I have started back to the gym as of 3 days ago. I anticipate a long road to recovery but I am determined to beat this!
All in all, I have made up my mind that I will NOT live this way any longer! I will keep a daily log of how things go from now until the day I am fully recovered. Hope that won't be more than 90 days but I am prepared for longer if necessary.
This website is great and the forums are very good as well. Thanks everyone!
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