My (Penis') Life Story

[BigDiccBandit]

I was going to call this "Slightly Amusing Anecdotes Regarding My Penis Size" since that's essentially what it is, but this thread will be long winded enough as it is without an equally drawn out title.

Where do I start?

I'm conflicted about the size of my dick. I mean, sometimes I FEEL like it's big (or at least a satisfactory size for what I believe to be reasonable expectations), and other times I'm unhappy with my overall size, but this is usually in comparison the countless huge dicks I've seen via countless pornos.

The reason I'm conflicted, you may ask? I've gotten conflicting comments and reactions regarding my penis, from various sources. This thread is not only my "introduction thread", but also an illustration of how your penis size is perceived subjectively from woman to woman. One woman's "small" is another's "average", and another woman's "average" may be "big" to another woman. Excuse my french, but sometimes you just need to bang the right chicks!

So without further ado...

Adolescence (14-17)

During this period of my life I experienced both positive and negative revelations about my size, the first of which that I will share was with a highschool girl in my sophmore year. We were young, but she was precocious and promiscuous. This girl had been eyeballing me and pursuing me VERY aggressively (she was an overweight and rather unattractive chick, if that gives a better idea of her character) and one day she followed me to the bus stop afters school. As unappealing as this girl was, she had a great rack. Somehow things escalated and she practically shoved her tits against me, in my lust I pulled those motherfuckers out...I might have sucked a nipple at some point. Shortly after that she slid her hand down my pants and almost immediately said "You have a skinny dick."

My heart wasn't broken, if anything I was indifferent. This girl was what most might consider a whore, when she grabbed my dick I was almost completely flaccid (she wasn't a looker), and in my mind I was still young so I had plenty of time for growth. Now, almost 10 years later, it hurts a lot more than it did initially.

On the flip side, another reason why I didn't fret over it at the time was because a few months or so prior to this incident I had an encounter with another highschool girl that was somewhat positive. I had blacked out at a party after drinking copious amounts of vodka, and when I awoke I was cuddling with some chubby chick under a blanket on the floor. I had a boner. Long anecdote short, this girl ended up giving me a light handjob and became obsessed with me for the next few years. I remember a myspace message she sent me right after the blackout incident telling me how I "intrigued her". This girl was probably less experienced than the former but still had quite a bit of sexual experience, I know because she literally recounted a few in detail.


And get this, at the SAME party before I became inebriated, another girl had been playing with my semi-erect penis through my basketball shorts and told me in front of another guy that I "have a big dick". Really? Cool. I wasn't entirely convinced but it was a mild ego booster, not that I really needed it at the time. Fast forward...

Coming of Age (17-21)

This time period ultimately shaped the perspective of my penis that I have today. It contained crucial experiences. Some negative, but most were actually pretty positive.

After losing my virginity when just turning 17, I was eager to explore all that sex has to offer. My first time was nothing to write home about, I had performance anxiety and was hardly even able to penetrate for more than a few minutes. Sad, yes...I became pretty depressed after that.

I attempted sex with this girl one more time, which also failed miserably. I mean, she wasn't a looker but she wasn't ugly either. And her vag was one of the tightest I've ever been inside to this day...a potentially great experience lost. What does throw me off though is that this girl gave me (sub par) oral on another occasion an I was rock hard the entire time! This girl and I had just escaped from a juvenile detention center together and perhaps maybe the thrill of being AWOL is what relaxed the aforementioned anxiety. Beats me.

After the second failed attempt at intercourse I didn't have another sexual experience until I had just turned 19. I don't want to divulge too much unnecessary personal information, but the setting and character of these females is pertinent to the big picture of this thread.

I had met an older woman (34 approximately) at a mental institution, and she told me that she needed a roommate. She had recently moved to my city and from my evidently level headed sensible nature (despite being in a looney bin) she decided we could live together. Crazy, huh?

Seeing as I was homeless at the time of my discharge, I phoned this woman up and told her I'd take her up on her offer. Initially she claimed we were to just be roommates, nothing sexual, but on the second night of my tenancy there she seduced me. Let me tell you, boy was she loose! I mean, I know all vaginas come in different sizes, same with dicks, but she herself even acknowledged disapproval of her box. Out of the many partners and even more hookers that I've been with since that time this woman is still the biggest vagina I've ever had. But she had been on over a dozen psychiatric medications and she was certain this cuckoo cocktail had affected her sexually.

The point though, is that she enjoyed herself to some degree, and even though I didn't get as much sensation as I would have liked, I maintained a rock hard erection for a couple hours. She didn't mention my size at all, except indirectly when I was thrusting her deeply and she wanted me to take it easy. Perhaps I'm above average in length?

Fast foward...

I'm 20, and I've reconnected with a girl who I knew had a huge crush on me when we were in highschool. I hadn't seen her in years, but on the first night that she came over to my place we made sweet love. And it was pretty sweet! Again, I would have liked to have felt more friction, but to be honest I was probably suffering from the death grip syndrome. My lack of sex turned me into a chronic masturbator with a vicious porn addiction.

We had sex for an extended period of time, at least 6 hours. I didn't ejaculate, and during our next sexual encounter a week later or so, I also didn't ejaculate. I could gather that this was a blow to this girl's ego - why couldn't she make me bust? Was it her? Was it me?

Like they say, third time's the charm. Success! Following that I began a relationship with this girl,and we had a fairly enjoyable sex life. I stopped masturbating so much, starting becoming more comfortable with her, and my appreciation for actually being inside of a vagina increased. She told me on numerous occasions that I was "long", and she seemed to really enjoy sex with me. She did tell me that sometimes I hurt her by going too deep. She never commented on my girth. What I believe, even to this day, is what I lack in penis size I make up for with foreplay and just charisma and sexual energy in general. But more on that later.

My relationship with this girl was a passionate love affair, we had deep and genuine feelings for each other. Never once did I feel inadequate in any way shape or form, the first few times when I couldn't bust I chalked up to over masturbation, condoms, and even my desire to overcompensate for my lack of sexual experience by really making it last. Of course, 6+ hours might be a bit overkill.

Now, before I started an "official" relationship with this girl, I had started banging hookers. No, I'm not proud of it...but hey, it was fun. And I was always protected. At least as protected as you can be when you're sticking your dick inside of the sperm receptacle that is a prostitute.

Hookers taught me a lot. They taught me that no matter how many dicks a woman has taken, her vagina could very well still be tight, sometimes even tighter than a girl who has barely had any sex at all. They taught me that my penis isn't abnormally small, and not exactly huge either. I took most of what they said with a grain of salt since I was paying them for sex after all, but some of the comments made were discernibly honest. All positive responses were in regards to my length, none really said anything about my girth. I haven't done a precise measurement, but I believe my stats to be something like EL-6-6.75 EG 4.25-4.75

Big, or little? If anything I'm marginally above average in length and slightly below average in girth. And yet, out of all of my sexual experiences most of them have been pleasurable for both parties, and the ones that weren't were possibly due to other variables. You may be thinking that the hookers are unreliable references but if anything they can tend to be the nastiest, cruelest, most evil women on the face of this earth. Even if you're paying her. There was a large prostitute population in the area I frequented for about an 8 month period and I saw the same girls all the time, to my knowledge nothing negative was ever said about my penis. EXCEPT for the one time when I had whiskey dick...

A handful of other sexcapades occurred during this time, they were positive but not worth transcribing.

Maturity (21-Now)

Since the age of 20 (when I started banging all those hookers) I've had a fairly average amount of sexual partners, no, I didn't pay for all of them either. The whole hooker thing was a phase, really. I've been with quite a few plus size girls and even they haven't complained or said anything negative regarding my size. Most of the girls I sleep with actually develop a strange infatuation with me for some reason. This probably relates to what I said earlier about making up for what I feel to be weaknesses with my strengths. Foreplay, charisma, personality, there are a number of factors that make sex pleasurable. You could have a 12 inch rod and still have no personality or be a poor lover. There are girls who I know have been with guys bigger than me but they would still chose me over the bigger penis. Size matters, but it's not the ONLY thing that matters.

I've been dating my current GF for a year now, but having frequent sex with her for a little longer. The sex has been very regular and extremely enjoyable. Her vagina feels fairly tight around my penis, some days more so than others, and she's evidently sincere in her approval of my love making abilities. We've never used condoms and that probably has something to do with the enjoyability, though.

She has emphatically told me on quite a few occasions I have a big dick. Not in a forced way, not in a way that seemed contrived. It was more like casual commentary or making sexual advances like "Gimme that big dick!", something to that effect. And after sex she would sometimes comment on how deep I went, but no real mention of my girth. I personally have told her once that I wish my dick was fatter and she seemed indifferent.

Today, we have a pretty good sex life. It could be better, but I know in my heart that I have found a girl that enjoys my sex, and appreciates the size that I do have. A lot of men with a below average girth seem suicidal. It's sad to read so many stories of guys that are practically ready to kill themselves over 1"-1.5" of penis circumference. I don't have my exact measurements, but I'm on the lower end of the spectrum and I've led a fairly good sex life! Albeit, it hasn't been the most ethical, but who cares.

I'm still young and I mainly want to do PE as a part of transforming myself as a person and enhancing sexual experience for not only my partner but MYSELF first and foremost. I believe that a lot of you guys out there are motivated by the wrong reasons. Fears of inadequacy don't breed positive thinking. A desire to improve oneself period is a far more positive ideal...but from what I've seen a lot of dudes think if they're 4.5 girth or below it's impossible for them to satisfy a woman. This just isn't the case. I feel fortunate that the partners I've had have responded so well to what I do believe to be below average, it has helped me reinforce a positive outlook on PE.

So, my penis might have had a rocky start in it's sexual journey, but I've reached a satisfactory plateau. I'm in a sexually satisfying relationship and my GF treats me like a King, only a small minority of women I've been with showed any sign whatsoever I didn't satisfy them, and I'm young enough that my entire life is still ahead of me. It feels good. This is the life of my penis up until now. But my goal is to go above and beyond. I don't want to be average. Whether it be intellectually, financially, or sexually.

As good as I feel I am in bed, I know I could be better with PE. I know that I can increase the amount of pleasure I receive from sex, and like-wise increase the amount of pleasure that I give.

Above all else I am doing this out of self-love, not self-hatred.

As much as I've rambled in this post, that is the overall theme. Sort of..

Honestly, I just had to vent. And vent I did...

(to be continued...)

[JurassicBone]

Girth between 4.25 and 4.75, dude, do you have any idea how big of a gap that is when it comes to girth, thats a difference that is basicaly very small to pretty much average!
Your estimate is horrible! lol
Story was pretty good though!

[604]

But my goal is to go above and beyond. I don't want to be average. Whether it be intellectually, financially, or sexually.

That's the spirit. People these days think being average and regular all around is the way to live. Good luck on your journey.

[BigDiccBandit]

Girth between 4.25 and 4.75, dude, do you have any idea how big of a gap that is when it comes to girth, thats a difference that is basicaly very small to pretty much average!
Your estimate is horrible! lol
Story was pretty good though!

Haha, the only girth measurement I did I used a string and an internet ruler. And even with that I didn't note the exact figure but it was somewhere around there. Now that I'm taking PE more seriously I plan on getting a tape measurer ASAP and I'll report my stats with accuracy in this thread.

Looking back on the post I didn't realize how much rambling I did, my god! Anyway, I wanted to make it clear that despite probably being below average in girth I've satisfied plenty of women and zero to none even made a negative remark about my member. The ones that did, well, you can't please them all.

And there ARE girls out there with vaginas that an average or below average girth may satisfy. Thank god I'm with the girl I'm with now...at least I can be comfortable and confident in my PE with her by my side.. Thing can only go up from here!

Thanks for reading and replying.

[BigDiccBandit]

That's the spirit. People these days think being average and regular all around is the way to live. Good luck on your journey.

Thanks! I appreciate that.

[JurassicBone]

Haha, the only girth measurement I did I used a string and an internet ruler. And even with that I didn't note the exact figure but it was somewhere around there. Now that I'm taking PE more seriously I plan on getting a tape measurer ASAP and I'll report my stats with accuracy in this thread.

Looking back on the post I didn't realize how much rambling I did, my god! Anyway, I wanted to make it clear that despite probably being below average in girth I've satisfied plenty of women and zero to none even made a negative remark about my member. The ones that did, well, you can't please them all.

And there ARE girls out there with vaginas that an average or below average girth may satisfy. Thank god I'm with the girl I'm with now...at least I can be comfortable and confident in my PE with her by my side.. Thing can only go up from here!

Thanks for reading and replying.

I can tell your a real sincere person, i think your going to fit in really well here!
Welcome!

[thenewdude]

Get you a tape measure to get an more accurate measurement (or even make a tape measure using a ruler as your guide).
Nevertheless, I do appreciate your honesty. And take it all with grain because most women (modestly) will not comment on your size unless your are too small (laughable) or too big (that is not going in me - look), or you plain search for a response where, yes, a woman's opinions vary on size and the overall man in general.

Whether or not you are about to embark on the journey of PE, keep this one think in mind, a good relationship with the woman has not much if nothing at all to do with penis size so don't sweat it. Perception of your size is your biggest enemy like most of us here.

[TPW]

Hiya BigDiccBandit and welcome to the Gym!

Now that is one heck of an introduction. You have a great outlook about yourself and your sexuality and the right mindset for PE...that is wonderful!

And I just wanted to let you know that should you require it, there are also some helpful and supportive women available on the forum who are more than willing to offer their insight and wisdom. We can often be located in the following forums:

A Woman's Perspective

Relationship Forum

The Gym

Best wishes on your PE journey!

[Looking4more]

Welcome to the Gym BDB.
Loved your post. You definitely have the right attitude to do well not only in PE but in life in general.

To get you started, take a look through this thread https://www.pegym.com/forums/beginne...cess-here.html , pick a beginner routine and get started. I started with the JP90 and did very well with it. You can find my results in my signature. Be sure to read the safety tips and please ask if you have any questions.
Good luck.

[burtybasset]

Welcome to the gym BigDiccBandit!

Good luck man, stay positive!