Hello there, I'm glad to find this forum, I'm hoping someone here might have some similar experience [well, I don't wish it on anyone!] and/or knowledge related to my situation. I've been reading all I can online, picking things apart as best I can, going a LITTLE crazy [and driving my girl crazy too!] while I.... wait.
a little over a month ago, I was out skateboarding alone late at night as I've been doing for a while now, getting back into it after many years, and I had an accident; I caught the deck vertically in the groin . it hit me behind the scrotum, slightly off-center. If you can visualize a skateboard deck, they are thin, and after a while as you grind them against the concrete, they become tapered, actually kinda sharp. .. SO I immediately drop to ground, the whole groin feels like its on fire, i quickly checked my testicles and penis for damage, they are fine, theres no broken skin at the perineum, I guess my jeans helped a little. so intense pain for about 10 minutes, i hobble home and ice it immediately for a while. the pain subsides a great deal so i took some aspirin and went to bed.
early the next morning, I wake up with a semi, it's usually harder than this, so I get worried, I go to the bathroom and try to get a full erection, I get maybe 90% and at the moment, I guess I was satisfied with this, it still works etc. so go back to sleep and wake up with semi again, and this lasts for the next 2 1/2 weeks.
the erection was only around 40-50% at most, uncomfortable in jeans but manageable,, I read up on priapism- and self-diagnosed it as a HIgh-flow priapism, in which the penis is still getting plenty of oxygen-rich blood, so there is very little risk of Corporal tissue damage..
anyways, I start to get worried after 2 days- people convince me to go to the ER. so I went in, they examined my penis, and the perineum and basically confirmed what I had thought. Rest, Ice, compression etc. there is very little pain at this point n the perineum, and no pain in the penis at all.
At this point, I am not even thinking about ED, I am basically AVOIDing erections and letting things rest/ heal.. So then about a week later, I decide to give it a go with my girlfriend. very dissapointing, maybe 60-70% full, not hard enough for penetration really. I freak the F--K out, go BACK to the ER and am basically told, be patient, these things take time, it's not the BAD kind of priapism, etc.
so I dive into work, trying not to think about it, and generally feel pretty optimistic about things. I went out of town for work and everything, just being as normal as I can, kind of joking about it with my friends... by the time I got back from out of town, the erection had begun to subside, got thinner basically at first, then shorter, which I thought was odd, as it would seem like it would go down more proportionately. anyways, still major ED.
can maybe get to 40% on a good try, so I go to the Urologist and he gives me Viagra. I tried it twice, 50mg each time. I really don't like the way it makes me feel, flush, hot, and also, the 2nd time, I got tracers in my vision, which really turned me off of it. a LITTLE improvement, nothing to write home about. So I call the Dr, and get the whole 'be patient' thing from him too. very freaked out at this point- I have had a few 'breakdowns' where Ive gotten so worked up over this, and been reading and obsessing and talking about it non-stop. It's very hard not to react this way for me as I like to be pro-active and not sit and wait. It has caused some turmoil in my relationship, as my girl is very sensitive to my moods and it has brought her down too. I try to be strong and positive, but I am in limbo right now, good days and bad days mentally. thank God for my girlfriend's love and support. I had no idea how fragile I could be emotionally or mentally.
at this point, my situation is complicated as I am uninsured. I payed out of pocket for the Dr. apptmt, but I know going any further with testing, etc, is gonna be more than I can swallow. So I'm trying to get coverage now, fingers crossed.
I feel like the priapism was an issue, but now I am thinking of it more like a symptom for the underlying problem.
my penis is generally around 5-10% when standing or sitting upright, I can get very close to the flaccid state I remember by lying on my back and folding my legs up elevated, which leads me to believe I am still experiencing priapism. I have a lowered libido, and stimulation is not very spontaneous, takes physical stimulation to get going. I can still reach orgasm and ejaculate- tho it takes alot more effort it seems and theres not much velocity behind the ejaculation. I think the main point of impact was the Ischiocavernosus on my right side [this is the muscle that covers the penis crus and is used in erection to pinch off the veins a bit] I obviously damaged an artery, but what Im wondering is, could there be nerve damage that is preventing my Corpora from relaxing all the way or could simply damaging that ischiocavernosus lead to such diminished erection. it has a soft lump on it where it was hit, that is slightly sore still to the hard touch. another idea I have is maybe the vein on that side isnt closing and that leads to not enough force to fully close of all the other veins in the corpora....
i have noticed the superficial dorsal vein and the circumflex veins in my penis are much more pronounced now than they ever were. .. not sure what that means. the penis is such a complicated thing.
sorry for the long introduction, but I am hoping someone can empathize or relate, or perhaps find my experiences uselful in their own path to recovery.
O btw, I am 31 years old, relatively healthy etc.
a little over a month ago, I was out skateboarding alone late at night as I've been doing for a while now, getting back into it after many years, and I had an accident; I caught the deck vertically in the groin . it hit me behind the scrotum, slightly off-center. If you can visualize a skateboard deck, they are thin, and after a while as you grind them against the concrete, they become tapered, actually kinda sharp. .. SO I immediately drop to ground, the whole groin feels like its on fire, i quickly checked my testicles and penis for damage, they are fine, theres no broken skin at the perineum, I guess my jeans helped a little. so intense pain for about 10 minutes, i hobble home and ice it immediately for a while. the pain subsides a great deal so i took some aspirin and went to bed.
early the next morning, I wake up with a semi, it's usually harder than this, so I get worried, I go to the bathroom and try to get a full erection, I get maybe 90% and at the moment, I guess I was satisfied with this, it still works etc. so go back to sleep and wake up with semi again, and this lasts for the next 2 1/2 weeks.
the erection was only around 40-50% at most, uncomfortable in jeans but manageable,, I read up on priapism- and self-diagnosed it as a HIgh-flow priapism, in which the penis is still getting plenty of oxygen-rich blood, so there is very little risk of Corporal tissue damage..
anyways, I start to get worried after 2 days- people convince me to go to the ER. so I went in, they examined my penis, and the perineum and basically confirmed what I had thought. Rest, Ice, compression etc. there is very little pain at this point n the perineum, and no pain in the penis at all.
At this point, I am not even thinking about ED, I am basically AVOIDing erections and letting things rest/ heal.. So then about a week later, I decide to give it a go with my girlfriend. very dissapointing, maybe 60-70% full, not hard enough for penetration really. I freak the F--K out, go BACK to the ER and am basically told, be patient, these things take time, it's not the BAD kind of priapism, etc.
so I dive into work, trying not to think about it, and generally feel pretty optimistic about things. I went out of town for work and everything, just being as normal as I can, kind of joking about it with my friends... by the time I got back from out of town, the erection had begun to subside, got thinner basically at first, then shorter, which I thought was odd, as it would seem like it would go down more proportionately. anyways, still major ED.
can maybe get to 40% on a good try, so I go to the Urologist and he gives me Viagra. I tried it twice, 50mg each time. I really don't like the way it makes me feel, flush, hot, and also, the 2nd time, I got tracers in my vision, which really turned me off of it. a LITTLE improvement, nothing to write home about. So I call the Dr, and get the whole 'be patient' thing from him too. very freaked out at this point- I have had a few 'breakdowns' where Ive gotten so worked up over this, and been reading and obsessing and talking about it non-stop. It's very hard not to react this way for me as I like to be pro-active and not sit and wait. It has caused some turmoil in my relationship, as my girl is very sensitive to my moods and it has brought her down too. I try to be strong and positive, but I am in limbo right now, good days and bad days mentally. thank God for my girlfriend's love and support. I had no idea how fragile I could be emotionally or mentally.
at this point, my situation is complicated as I am uninsured. I payed out of pocket for the Dr. apptmt, but I know going any further with testing, etc, is gonna be more than I can swallow. So I'm trying to get coverage now, fingers crossed.
I feel like the priapism was an issue, but now I am thinking of it more like a symptom for the underlying problem.
my penis is generally around 5-10% when standing or sitting upright, I can get very close to the flaccid state I remember by lying on my back and folding my legs up elevated, which leads me to believe I am still experiencing priapism. I have a lowered libido, and stimulation is not very spontaneous, takes physical stimulation to get going. I can still reach orgasm and ejaculate- tho it takes alot more effort it seems and theres not much velocity behind the ejaculation. I think the main point of impact was the Ischiocavernosus on my right side [this is the muscle that covers the penis crus and is used in erection to pinch off the veins a bit] I obviously damaged an artery, but what Im wondering is, could there be nerve damage that is preventing my Corpora from relaxing all the way or could simply damaging that ischiocavernosus lead to such diminished erection. it has a soft lump on it where it was hit, that is slightly sore still to the hard touch. another idea I have is maybe the vein on that side isnt closing and that leads to not enough force to fully close of all the other veins in the corpora....
i have noticed the superficial dorsal vein and the circumflex veins in my penis are much more pronounced now than they ever were. .. not sure what that means. the penis is such a complicated thing.
sorry for the long introduction, but I am hoping someone can empathize or relate, or perhaps find my experiences uselful in their own path to recovery.
O btw, I am 31 years old, relatively healthy etc.
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