Fellas the doc that supposedly found what's wrong, said that they misplaced the scans and that my scans look normal. He says I don't have adult onset growth hormone deficiency. In addition he said he has no idea what to do and help me.
I never ever would I have thought that the summer of 2015, my whole life would shift 180. Never ever I would have thought that a Jelqing session in the shower, would give me a fist-sized varicocele, atrophied testicle, make me Testosterone deficient, Thyroid deficient and give me an annoying cold lifeless hard penis.
I've been to so many doctors, I can't count them on my fingers anymore. No one has a clue, they see that I have a varicocele and say "yeps you have a varicocele". They look at my Testosterone levels of 150-200 dl, (which were 500-700 just one year ago) and say "you are in normal range, we see men with this levels who have no erection problems and etc". I asked her but are they 20 years old? she said " No, they are usually over 40+, but its still in the average normal range"
They see my constantly elevating levels of TSH
( Before this, they were in 0.5-1.0 range, now they are in 4.0-4.7 range) and say well its not too much to worry, we see functioning people with such numbers.
No one believes me that someone can f#ck up his entire hormonal system after a jelqing injury. No one wants to operate on the varicocele because as they say " You are too young, if you were over 50+ then it would have been of concern, then we could discuss the probability of a potential surgery" To note, this started when I was 19, I didn't even finish my puberty yet. Now I'm 21, and I'm just worried of my body`s development to an adult male.
No doctor wants to deal with me anymore, because as it says in my journal " This patient is in need of psychologist, He is constantly catastrophy thinking and seeing problems where they don't exist".
I can't imagine living the rest of my life (which did not even start yet ), with all kind of symptoms and more and more popping symptoms as the time passes. I want to stay as positive as I can, but by being positive, I lost 6 months of doing nothing hoping it will vanish.
I never ever would I have thought that the summer of 2015, my whole life would shift 180. Never ever I would have thought that a Jelqing session in the shower, would give me a fist-sized varicocele, atrophied testicle, make me Testosterone deficient, Thyroid deficient and give me an annoying cold lifeless hard penis.
I've been to so many doctors, I can't count them on my fingers anymore. No one has a clue, they see that I have a varicocele and say "yeps you have a varicocele". They look at my Testosterone levels of 150-200 dl, (which were 500-700 just one year ago) and say "you are in normal range, we see men with this levels who have no erection problems and etc". I asked her but are they 20 years old? she said " No, they are usually over 40+, but its still in the average normal range"
They see my constantly elevating levels of TSH
( Before this, they were in 0.5-1.0 range, now they are in 4.0-4.7 range) and say well its not too much to worry, we see functioning people with such numbers.
No one believes me that someone can f#ck up his entire hormonal system after a jelqing injury. No one wants to operate on the varicocele because as they say " You are too young, if you were over 50+ then it would have been of concern, then we could discuss the probability of a potential surgery" To note, this started when I was 19, I didn't even finish my puberty yet. Now I'm 21, and I'm just worried of my body`s development to an adult male.
No doctor wants to deal with me anymore, because as it says in my journal " This patient is in need of psychologist, He is constantly catastrophy thinking and seeing problems where they don't exist".
I can't imagine living the rest of my life (which did not even start yet ), with all kind of symptoms and more and more popping symptoms as the time passes. I want to stay as positive as I can, but by being positive, I lost 6 months of doing nothing hoping it will vanish.
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