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[pob 1991 Member Find all posts View Profile Close pob 1991]

I am a complete mess, I've bombarded the kind members of pe gym with my life situation. I have had a varicocele throughout my teenage years, i never got it treated my left testicle growth has been affected. I'm depressed, all i do is abuse search engines all day. I look at my life and think why? My



1.Can i ask if anyone has had it treated and do you know if after surgery your testicle grows to its potential size? My left testicle is about 30% smaller than right. The gp described it as only a small varicocele at 0.33cm
2. Would the varicocele have testosterone levels and therefore my overall penis size?
3. Has anyone you had any anxiety problems? This worry has completely taken over my life, it's ruining me and I feel lost. Would you suggest any ideas? I dont want to take any anti-depressants?

[Jerry Rig Member Find all posts View Profile Close Jerry Rig]

Hey Pob,

I had it operated (only had it on the left side) when i was 8, several men on my father side of the family had it, everything turned out fine for me, but I have to say it was treated befor pubertiy, I have no clue how far that makes a difference.

Had it checked a few times over the years but all perfect.

Have you consulted a doctor yet? I remember the operration and treatment very well and it was not that dramatic, I found my circumsion lot worse. I recomend you consult a specialist on this so you can find out your true options here. Wish you the best!

[Big Al AdministratorPEGym EditorMale Enhancement Coach Rep.PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Big Al]

I am a complete mess, I've bombarded the kind members of pe gym with my life situation. I have had a varicocele throughout my teenage years, i never got it treated my left testicle growth has been affected. I'm depressed, all i do is abuse search engines all day. I look at my life and think why? My



1.Can i ask if anyone has had it treated and do you know if after surgery your testicle grows to its potential size? My left testicle is about 30% smaller than right. The gp described it as only a small varicocele at 0.33cm

You should note that most men have on testis larger than the other. Did your doc state if there was any unusual size deficiency with your left testis?

2. Would the varicocele have testosterone levels and therefore my overall penis size?

Some studies have shown that varicoceles can affect T levels, but [from the report I read) the variances were fairly small- ~200 ng/dl for large varicoceles. Other studies showed no variances at all. Have you had your testosterone levels checked to confirm your T levels?

3. Has anyone you had any anxiety problems? This worry has completely taken over my life, it's ruining me and I feel lost. Would you suggest any ideas? I dont want to take any anti-depressants?

Anxiety is akin to a living thing- in that the more you feed it, the more it grows. This kind of intangible fear can be addicting in a sense, and it can make you convince yourself that self-pity and negative incidents are a natural "default" situation for you. It's a vicious cycle that does nothing but harm

To begin, you're going to have to do your best to stop dwelling on this fear. When you feel that wave of anxiety, don't give into it! In essence, stand up for the part of yourself that wishes to be free of those feelings! If you're not already doing so (and if you're able), get into some type of intensive physical exercise to help you get in touch with your inner- as well as outer strength. Intense training is not only empowering, but it helps to naturally raise T levels.

You can only do what you can (get checked, and if there are treatable anomalies- get treated), and dwelling on the fear itself is just going to make things worse!

I was reviewing some of your posts, and IMO some of your fears are definitely unjustified. For one, you stated in your intro post that your measurements were as follows:

Length: 7inch
Girth:5.25 inch

You should note that that's well above average in size, so if "size" is part of something you're anxious about you are worried for nothing.

You mention being "down" before. While I understand your desire to not want to take any prescription drugs, it might still be worth your while to get a check up to ensure that there aren't any serious chemical imbalances contributing to your condition. There might likely be ways for you to treat your issue without any drugs.

You might want to check out the following post- if for anything so that you can see that your struggle against being controlled by fear is definitely not a unique one- and that there's hope: https://www.pegym.com/forums/gym/442...pain-more.html

[pob 1991 Member Find all posts View Profile Close pob 1991]

thank you big al for your response, Just to varify i got my girth measurements slightly wrong. My measurements are bpel:7.5, eg:5 bheg:4.4. I suppose it is slightly above average though when flaccid it looks quite skinny.
In regards to my testicle it was a friends comment that play's with my head. I've booked an appointment with an urologist to review my options. I have been to see two different doctors who banished my claims saying they size variation isn't that much. I will also to get my testosterone checked, the only symptom i have is that i dont really get morning wood.
i cant stop thinking about this worry, but hopefully your advice will help me. Also in regards to your enhancement training, is it best to contact you through pe gym or offical website. thanks

[draggin Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close draggin]

I am a complete mess, I've bombarded the kind members of pe gym with my life situation. I have had a varicocele throughout my teenage years, i never got it treated my left testicle growth has been affected. I'm depressed, all i do is abuse search engines all day. I look at my life and think why? My



1.Can i ask if anyone has had it treated and do you know if after surgery your testicle grows to its potential size? My left testicle is about 30% smaller than right. The gp described it as only a small varicocele at 0.33cm
2. Would the varicocele have testosterone levels and therefore my overall penis size?
3. Has anyone you had any anxiety problems? This worry has completely taken over my life, it's ruining me and I feel lost. Would you suggest any ideas? I dont want to take any anti-depressants?

A variocele is just varicose veins in your scrotum. Don't worry about that. Sure surgery can help. Talk to a surgeon. As long as you dick works, though, that is all that matters. Cheer-up.

Also, who cares if one ball is bigger than the other? (apparently just you). Also my best friend told me that he as an undescended testicle. The dude only has one ball bouncing around in there and he doesn't complain. It's just the way it is.

Sorry to sound insensitive. I would probably feel the same if I were you, but not for long. The world keeps turning.

[Big Al AdministratorPEGym EditorMale Enhancement Coach Rep.PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Big Al]

You're welcome

If it helps, take those emotions of frustration and use them against your fear- every time you feel that fear rearing it's head, do NOT allow it to manifest!

It's very important that you become more careful what you tell yourself- both in your head and in your writing. When you write things like "i cant stop thinking about this worry..." you're subtly convincing yourself that you have no power to control your fear. That also goes with dealing with negative comments from others. Consider why someone would do that- it's likely so they can derive pleasure from your suffering while establishing a sense of power over you. Someone who is truly secure in themselves wouldn't do that- especially to a friend.

Please feel free to contact me via email here. It's the quickest way to get in touch with me.

[pob 1991 Member Find all posts View Profile Close pob 1991]

Thanks big al ive stupidly fed the anxiety and have let it grow again tonight, leading to a circle of self -pity and regret.

1. I feel regret that i didnt get this treated before when i found it at 17, my testicle could have developed to full size, my penis could have potential as well. On side note does testosterone contribute more to penis growth in girth, just from several posters ive noticed a correlation between a skinny penis and low t.

2. Adolescent Varicocele: Who Is at Risk?, this is research done which i would I would appreciate you would look at, linked penis growth to a varicocele. You mentioned that large varicocele are more likely to cause a problem i suppose the only positive i can see is that on the ultrasound it was described as a small varicocele.( I dont mean to disrespect your research from the previous post)

3. My penis (bpel 7.5 meg 5, bheg 4.3), on a good note it has described as big by several girls(inexperienced though) which keeps me from the edge of depression, though my flaccid is skinnier compared to most people i see in urinals or showers and a friend has demeaned it before. I dont mean to make small people feel bad but the statistics for penis girth must be underestimated.

4. testosterone. Signs that i have decent testosterone : i am 6 foot 1, decent body and facial hair. Signs of low test: I have an ectomorph built ( small chest shoulders, long arms), mindset is depressive and non assertive.

5. I will be in contact with you in regards to the enchancement program soon, I need to have some kind of structure in my life and realise i cant change the past. I need to get payed this month.

6. Big al, are you aware of any exercises to improve testicle size, Im worried about them but I dont want to cause any more damage to them through exercising. Also ahve you heard of anyone who has had silcion plates inserted into their scrotum, i saw a surgeon offers the option. thanks

[pob 1991 Member Find all posts View Profile Close pob 1991]

Id appreciate if anyone could respond to this, thanks guys

[Big Al AdministratorPEGym EditorMale Enhancement Coach Rep.PEGym Hero Find all posts View Profile Close Big Al]

Copied my reply to your PM on MOS here- as it's very relevant:

I've read through your post, and the advice that I've given you before still stands. You have convinced yourself that, if you could resolve these perceived "imperfections" that you will feel better. Your issue is not your penis, your testes, etc.- it's your anxiety in confronting your fear. Until you can do that, even if you were to "fix" an issue, you would merely transfer your anxiety on to something else.

I also think that the support you're getting on the forums is giving you a temporary and illusory sense of comfort. You acknowledge that others care about you and some of the advice you deem worthy you're using as an "insurance policy", but you're still feeding your anxieties- not starving them as you should be. This is not to discount the quality of advice you're getting here- it's merely an observation given your extensive record of posting.

Rather than rehash and post similar replies to questions, please feel free to email me at [email protected]. Please note that I'm not a doctor, so none of what I say should be taken as medical advice. I do feel that issues like the ones you suffer from are better dealt with in a more concentrated fashion- preferably with the support of a professional experienced in dealing with mental health issues.

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If it makes you feel any better, I have a friend who only has one nut. I guess that he jumped his bike as a kid, and somehow the seat came off and he landed on the metal rod, crushing his nut in the process. He's never had any complaints from girls, and he jokes about it all the time. If one of your testicles is a little smaller than the other, no big deal, that is normal. You are completely fine. There are plenty of guys in this forum (including myself) who are much worse off than you are at the moment so consider yourself lucky! Also the flaccid size of your penis doesn't really matter, some guys are showers, some guys are growers.

It sounds to me like you have some anxiety issues, and you are focusing way to heavily on every aspect of yourself that you consider to be negative. I don't think that anything is wrong with your nether regions. This is all in your head man, I agree with Big Al, maybe you should see a mental health professional and sort some of these feelings out. Best of luck to you!