I am tired of my porn addiction!

[Zixo Member Find all posts View Profile Close Zixo]

Hi everybody!

I have been PEing for almost a year with no length gains. I think that i did do to much PE with my penis for a longer period of time maybe. I also believe that i masturbated to much. I have a porn addiction and i think this is the problem for me. I have to stop masturbate and watch porn for a while. I have added an half inch to my girth but no length gains so far.


I took a break from exercising my penis for three weeks and started over.

My new routine:
i add 30 sec of stretching every week
and 25 jelqs like this

week 1
30 sec stretch (up, down, straight out, left and right)
50 Jelqs

week 2
1 min stretch (up, down, straight out, left and right)
75 jelqs

week 3
1 min 30 sec stretch (up, down, straight out, left and right)
100 jelqs

and so on...
I do kegels every other day
My BFSL is unchanged. i have done this routine for three weeks now.

I also find it so hard to feel a good stretch when i stretch my penis. Any good ideas?
I really need some help guys! Please give me some tips or ideas of how i can add some length!

[Jason - PE ! Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Jason - PE !]

Make sure you give yourself a good warm up before stretch to losing the ligs.Well done on girth gains,whats been your stats from the start till now girth and length ?

[Zixo Member Find all posts View Profile Close Zixo]

Thanks. I forgot to say that i do warm up for at least 10 minutes with a rice-sock I think that you can see my stats on my signature now

[Jason - PE ! Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close Jason - PE !]

At least youv gained something which is a bonus plus the number your on atm good so dont feel to down just carry on and it will come.

The speed of length and girth gains depends a good bit on your body and how it reacts to traning,but there is things you can do to speed things up ,things like supplements could help going to the gym and building muscles and releasing some GH, try mixing up your routine , your only doing stretches kegels and jelqs some people will find thats not enough.


Good luck !

[Jackxxx Banned Find all posts View Profile Close Jackxxx]

What has to do your porn addiction with your gains? I mean if you had a girlfriend or several fuck buddies, would you have less sex? No. Is just your sex drive. If for some reason you do not interact with ladies enough to satisfy yourself, that's what porn is there for. To give you that pleasure. Support American porn.

[enlargerWannabe Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close enlargerWannabe]

I am a porn addicted.
I started using porn 14 years ago (I was 13yo). At that time the internet was not so full of porn, and was so slow: even a tit would blow my mind. I was the average shy and bullied guy with poor social skills, so I didn't have a relationship until I were 17yo. During this 18-months relationship we had no sex (she said it's wrong to have sex without marriage, we barely had kisses)(not uncommon in my country).
My first sexual experience was with another girl when I was 19. I had sex 20-30 times during 2 years. That was my last relationship. I had sex 30-40 times in my whole life, with 4 times in the last 4 years.
Of course there was porn. I'm an handsome guy, athletical, with simmetric face and a normal penis, but too kind and shy. I was used to get “NO” from girls. It was systematic. Don't know why.
Porn was saving my life, because I NEEDED to cum at least 2 times a day.

After some years things gone wrong. “Normal” porn was not going to turn me on anymore. Straight fucking was sexually stimulating as a Simpsons episode. I needed more hardcore stuff. And then ever more nasty/disgusting hardcore stuff. I needed the un-natural brutal-anal/bukkake/throatfucking/torture/swallowing buckets of cum, and so on. I developped a sad misoginy due to my continual sexual-denial. Pain was going to get me horny. I decided that I wanted to do PERSONALLY that kind of sexual acts when I would have enough money to fly USA and do that kind of scenes. I need to do that things porn actors do. That throatfucking is the real sex. (I'm still planning this travel, even if I'm conscious it is a fool thing).

But soon even this kind of porn was not going to be enough. I started to use drugs (cannabis) to enhance my orgasms. It was nice, but after a while I discovered that without drugs orgasms were poor, so I had to use drugs before masturbating.
I tried to have sex with a prostitute in Amsterdam, but the maximum erection level I reached was 0%.

Back to my porn. Guess what? Even this would not be enough.
To have a satisfying orgasm I needed to be stoned as hell and watch MANY porn scenes at the same time. I used to split the computer screen with 4 or 6 VLC opened with different scenes, often in loop (repetition makes me horny). I loved the sound of 6 brutal porn movies together: a mess of chocking, spitting, vomiting, screaming.

I had so bad thoughts I don't want to write here.
Probably the whole story led me to some personality disorders. Once kind, altruist and well-mannered I've become aggressive, easy to anger, egoist, sadist, exploiter and VERY VERY disinhibited (I have a pig/maniac/frustrated reputation among friends, that does NOT help.) I have not female friends, aside my friend's girlfriends. I have difficulties watching them in the eyes.
I would never imagine, or eventually REFUSE to have a relationship without my cum being swallowed EVERY time (example).
I considered chemical castration, or suicide (daily).

Then, I would need to do 20-30 minutes of edging while stoned to have nice orgasms and while anal-fingering myself, etc

At the end, nothing was going to satisfy me. I added a drug addiction to a sexual frustration. And this is dangerous because this drug has psychedelic effects. I was compelled to smoke, then I hated to be stoned. Regularly. I threw away the drug into the toilet with tears on my eyes. Several times. The next day I had some.

So I just had to decide about chemical castration, suicide, psichyatric medications or to react.

One or two weeks ago I threw away my DVD collections (around 800 manily brutal-porn movies), and I started again my penis enlargement routine to exhaust my penis, and register to my local swimming pool to try to get som self-esteem.
I downloaded some normal sex porn to help me maintain the erection to perform jelq.
Some day ago I deleted the porn movie and I downloaded some jailbait/non nude PICTURES.
It seem that downgrading the level of porn actually works. I need to cum everynight (5-6 hours after my PE session). If I don't cum I have some unpleasant symptoms the next day (unmotivated euphoria/depression, aggressiveness, being speedy, restlessness, like if I take amphetamines. I took amphetamines just 3-4 times in my life), expecially if I have some kind of contact with any girl, even visual: tachycardia, energy rushes and difficult to properly think/speak. Once I felt dizzy and I had to sit down, since I was losing control of my legs.

I'm sorry, this was very long. Was more of a personal pour out than an actually PE-related story.
Hope can help someone. Sorry for my english.

I hope I won't give up to porn and drugs again.
I'm still struggling...

[aidan784 Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close aidan784]

Wow, that is an extreme case and I wish you all the best in your journey voxvox. Good luck!

That does remind me of other extreme cases though. I remember watching parts of an interview with ted bundy for a psychology class and he said the one common link he had found in serial killers was a pornography addiction. Obviously like I said these are extremities, but also bear in mind the time, porn wasn't as available or mainstream.

[johnsonrod Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close johnsonrod]

Voxvox, you are one of many people who face addiction to pornography. I admire upfrontness and call for help. A lot of people who are addicated don't think they have a problem because the reality of their admission would be painful and humbling.

I used to feel the need to masturbate multiple times daily and would retreat to viewing pornography to relieve my stress. My addiction escallated to a point where I chose anonymous sex with women and prostitutes. 3 1/2 years ago I chose to humble myself and get some help. I was able to find a therapist and a weekly support group. I am no longer viewing pornography and seldom masturbate. I am still learning and growing and it takes time.

There is a bio-chemical component of addicition that requires slow cessation of viewing pornography and masturbating. This is not easy, but slow incremental changes will result in change. Just like PE, it takes patience to see gains. Additionally, addicition can be more about the person inside you who is hurting or has experienced abuse or neglect as a child. The addiction becomes a surigate parent.

Know that this is powerful stuff the we deal with and brings great shame. The shame and feeling bad (e.g your admission to desire self castration or suicide) fuels the addiction. Learning to embrace yourself as a good person worthy of friendship and relationship with others is a good place to start. You are not your addiction.

Getting help and support from others who share the struggle also helps break the unhealthy cycles. I encourage you to find a support group where you live. I don't know what country you live in, and groups and resources may be different depending on your national residence.

You are courageous for taking the first steps to get health. I wish you strength and endurance to find your peace.

Best Regards - JR

[Jackxxx Banned Find all posts View Profile Close Jackxxx]

Voxvox, is good that you are taking the right steps to improve yourself. Downgrading porn is a good measure, but I would suggest you to stop watching completely. If you need to have an orgasm, you will have it anyways masturbating and just using your mind. If you cannot reach an orgasm that way, then that means you had not in reality that much of a physiological need, but more like a psychological habit, and that would require medical help.

I am a Pornstar myself here in the United States, and I don't know what makes you think that you can come here and make those horrible things to women. In fact, in the industry, we really don't like the rough humiliating degrading type of porn. Sadly, we have to make it because that is what people want to see and buy. But if you think you can come and call an escort and do those things with her, you will get a big "no deal". In fact, the most brutal "abnormal" type of porn that I know comes from Europe or Asia. In fact, in Europe Porn with Animals is legal. Here is illegal.

Anyways, for now stay away from everything. And just in order to get more help and support from all of us here, I would like to know how old are you? Where you ever sexually abused? Where you a victim of domestic violence?

Take care man.

Jackxxx.

[enlargerWannabe Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close enlargerWannabe]

Thank you to all of you for you time spent reading here.

@johnsonrod: Thank you for your story. I also think that I'll have to regulate my sexual biochemistry gradually, and yes, the guilt feeling cycle the addiction. But I won't look for groups right now. I live in extreme south italy. Support groups are not mainstream here. Mentality is to "wash your dirty cloths at your own home". And that kind of pornography is almost unknown. 95% of the people I show some average throatfuck are getting surprised/shocked and say "how the fuck is this legal? / they are paid a million for that?".
Still struggling and feeling good and motivated...

@Jackxxx: I'll turn 27 soon. Yes, I can just close my eyes and reaching the orgasm just thinking. I did that in the last stages when any porn would not be enough anymore to finish, no matter how long I was multi-viewing it. And no, I didn't experienced any abuse/violence. More on a PM.

P.s: I would suggest anyone struggling with porn addiction to go out and register in a swimming pool trying to do your best (actual swimming instead of just being into the water). Endorphines make me feel good and exaust my body. In combination with PE, also, I feel less "sexual energy" to discharge. In order to swim properly your should also stop smoking, if you smoke. A full lifestyle change is what I need to fight addictions. And probably most of you.

[james.anderson Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close james.anderson]

Voxvox, I was also a porn addict and were somewhat same position you are

[enlargerWannabe Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close enlargerWannabe]

Thanks, James. I read the 2 main articles. It actually seems the story of my life.

But what about the sentence:

"Keeping penis erected for long time creates tension in testicular tissues. This can create benign prostatic hyperplasia or BPH"

isn't this Kegeling? And isn't Kegeling for prostate and sexual health?

[enlargerWannabe Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close enlargerWannabe]

Since I am totally opening to you, I want to tell you the story that lead me to the decision of abandoning PORN.
Some weeks ago, I added a girl who was mutual friend of someone on facebook. Now, my facebook wall at the time looked like a porn site (I am banned right now ). This girl lives far away but she seemed interested in sex. She's not an attractive girl, she's very tall and very large, probably she had also difficulties finding a partner. She seemed to be interested in me even if I was posting blowjobs, tits and facials (even penis enlargement facts) on my facebook wall (note that that was my REAL account with my face on, my real friends and some relatives, I don't know how facebook admins banned me only MONTHS after I started porning my wall).

After some weeks of picture-exchanging or webcam-flirting, she has to come around my city, so we decided to meet. I cannot have sex on my place, for many reasons. So we decided to book a motel room. This was middle-january 2011.
Athmosphere was very nice, we had Martini, we had food, we had some ganja to smoke, I also brought some lube oil (I wanted to perform some titfuck) and lots of condoms.

Then: ERECTION LEVEL 0% (ZERO PERCENT)

The days before this night I used to masturbate and have erections thinking about the fact I would soon have sex with a REAL MEAT GIRL. Also webcam-sex was fine.

But:
E-R-E-C-T-I-O-N L-E-V-E-L Z-E-R-O P-E-R-C-E-N-T

No matter what I could think/do to resurrect my little turtle.
What type of thoughts can cross your mind in a moment like that?
There is a girl very disappointed at your side.
You think about her talking with her friends (that are MUTUAL FRIENDS with YOU):
"Oh that guy is always thinking/talking about sex and he is a total failure! Ahahah!"
"What a lame, frustrated, impotent, unlucky guy, AHAHAH!"
You are on the same bed with her, staring at the ceiling, wanting to be buried six thousands feet under RIGHT NOW.

Ok, then, the only way to solve problems is react, blaming the fuckin' jesus is not going to work.
I decided I had to go down on her with my mouth and fingers (luckly she was shaved).
I didn't want to do it. Don't know why. That is not a porn thing. Blowjobs and swallowing are porn things.
But at least I had to try to save my face. I did that in the past, with decent results, nothing serious. And I also had that lube I brought for titfucking. That will help.
Let's find something useful from porn: I remembered to see some Nina Hartley cunnilingus-teaching video. There were 'unusual practices' in that video. That was not the 20-second lame clitoral stimulation from 99% of porn movies. I added those lessons to my recent knowledge of orgasm control, avoiding overstimulating, massaging all the areas, g-spotting just at the end, etc.

Since I was not in hurry (I had no dick to insert) I took my time, and massaged everything slowly and repeatedly, avoiding the common mistakes with sense. Pussy started drooling even before any finger went inside.
That fucking worked. The girl's face turned from total disappointment to smiling surprise. All my face was soon covered with oil and the white sticky vaginal stuff. It remembered me some kind of messy porn situation. I liked that. I dirty-talked. I really started to like that. I sucked a finger with my mouth while watching her (It was hard to catch her attention: she keeped closed eyes almost all the time). She loved that. I was feeling like an hero. Better than fucking. She became aware that I was having fun, that was not a thing done as a duty. She then came.
Guess what? Erection level 100%. Probably the success inflated my ego and my dick. That was a total surprise for her. She looked so happy. I went from hell to heaven. My mindset was like I had 3 orgasms, even if I had none. I felt like a hero or something. I wanted to do it again really soon, just after another joint. And I did it. She was going to come again but she stopped me as she wanted my meat inside her. As I had not erections problems anymore I did it and she came again.

Ok, I still had difficulties to reach the orgasm. It has never been easy for me to cum during real sex. I was not in my usual porn-addicted orgasm-enviromment. I had to think about porn while masturbating while she was licking dick/balls. As always. Even with other girls I had to think about porn to come. I still have to fix that, but time is a gentleman. I cannot solve all my problems in just one evening.
Guess what? She swallowed ;-)

Thank you Nina.

I thought dozens of time about that night. It was so nice even without brutal facefucking or anal destruction. The girl said me I was the most skilled pussy-eater she ever met. Ok, this can may be routine sentences. But she is texting me everyday that she can't look forward to have sex again with me.

I watched again and again Nina's skill. I wanted to know if it was just coincidence or Nina's tips work really. So I showed the video to some female friends/relatives (not that girl: never show your secrets ). They said that those things look to be very pleasurable but almost nobody knows how to eat pussy properly.

I made some little mistake during my pussy-eating actions, like twisting both fingers inside, instead of pulling them out, turn them and insert again
I feel I'm good now, but I still can improve A LOT. There are a shitload of things to know to eat pussy GOOD. I want to learn some body-massage to add to the "service" I can do.

With violent porn I enjoyed to see girls suffering, like if the pornstars where the girls made me suffer and I was taking a sexual revenge.
I hated girls. They always prefeared someone else over me. I was "the friend" guy, they wanted "the bastard fascinating" guy.
So, why make them go crazy with pleasure?
That could be a way to "enslave" girls or "tame" girls or "have power on" girls.

That's why I decided to throw away the porn-shit: I have to spend my time learning (PE, massages, anatomy), not watching girls swallowing buckets of cum while gagging.

Guys start to learn something useful (CUNNILINGUS) instead of watching porn. Everybody can do it. No matter if your penis is 3".
With your mouth, lube and fingers you can do things you will never be able to do with a 10" dick. You'll have to LOVE it. If you don't like the taste, use some flavoured lube (use the one compatible with condoms). Masturbate yourself with lube to know what overstimulation means (really nice sensation that unfortunately will dramatically make your way to the orgasm SO long and/or painful) and how slow, gentle, simple and lubricated CARESSES feel heavenly for girls as for you. Start learning Orgasm Control for your self. The same movements that annoys your penis, annoy the female pussy (overstimulation, earlystimulation, etc).

Maybe I'm making an exagerated mental mess for just two successfull pussy eating. But this works keeping me away from porn.
Hope can help someone else.

Thank you Nina!

[Working2Grow Member Find all posts View Profile Close Working2Grow]

Hey man, congrats on the positive experience! I know how terrifying it can be to suddenly have no erection and have a girl there expecting it. Good on you for rocking her world orally! I'll have to check out that pussy eating video

Do you personally think that the cause of your loss of erection was due to porn addiction or simply performance anxiety? It seems like at least some of it might have been performance anxiety because it came back 100% after she came?

[enlargerWannabe Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close enlargerWannabe]

Do you personally think that the cause of your loss of erection was due to porn addiction or simply performance anxiety? It seems like at least some of it might have been performance anxiety because it came back 100% after she came?

You're totally right. I think it was a mix of both things.
Who knows, I should try to get a girl and make her beg "come on destroy my throat, my ass and then force me to swallow your cuuuum!", while she forces a dildo in her throat to see if I get an erection. (LOL)

But the difficulty to achieve orgasm is certanly for porn addiction. She came twice. You have no more performance anxiety when you see the red face of the girl smiling motionless in a mess of sweat and hairs.

I hope to fight this problem with time and not having orgasms watching at something sexy, even pictures.
I'll still use softcore pictures to help me mantain erections during jelqing.