So, brief little summary:
I had Premature ejaculation my whole life, didn't realise it was a problem till a year and a half ago - started doing start stop technique to whilst distracting myself to lower my arousal. 2 months later had sex with what is now my ex and it was the first time I ever lasted longer than 3 minutes. Went for about half an hour and made her cum twice. At the time was really drunk so thought it was the drink that was giving me this power and used it as a crutch for the next 5 months which at the time was great and brought us so close, but eventually I couldn't do that anymore and the relationship took a turn.
I've always been insecure about my dick (think watching lots of porn from an early age fucked me up - as I know what a big dick can do to a girl. Yes if you work it right you can still be great in bed which I've learned, but I want the feeling of knowing I can handle ANY girl, not just certain types of girls. Also the idea of being with another girl who's had guys bigger than me again is just something I don't want to face). I think if I hadn't seen so many success stories of guys growing their dicks on here I would be more willing to accept my current size, but I can't.
Last year I bought a sizegenetics extender after seeing goodlookingloser's reviews on it. I was very naive and stupid with the extender and didn't take any safety precautions at all. Giving myself an ulcer and later some small swelling on the side of my shaft just below the glans where the strap was. This happened at the same time my ex broke up with me and it was probs one of the lowest times in my life. I always had PE as a crutch to make me feel good enough and now that was potentially gone forever with this unknown lump on my dick.
For like 2 months I was so anxious about what was on my dick and if I'd ever be able to do PE again - depressed, sleepless nights and so on. Eventually I saved up enough money to see a specialist who told me it was nothing to worry about, just trapped lymphatic fluid. Biggest relief ever meaning that my dream and goals of who I want to be weren't dead.
Also - during the whole lockdown I found a cure to my Pre-E and have recently had some of the best sex in my life and got lots of good feedback, but the way I manage to put in these performances is not sustainable (every 2 weeks I do a one day on, one day off, one day on, one day off stretching and jelqing routine which gets my length from 6.2 to 6.5... 6.75" if they are really good sessions) and take cialis before the sex to get my dick rock hard and as big as possible. But if I carry on this routine, the gains go back to my original size. I did this day on day off routine religiously for a year and saw some great gains but they never lasted and were so unpredictable. I'd do one session and be at 6.5" length, then do another session, thinking it went really well and I'd be back down to 6.2"
I then found a new routine from a guy called fat tony who has had a similar PE journey to me. The routine is great, the only problem is I cannot maintain a high enough erection level for the jelqing without porn. But my Pre-E was caused by watching too much porn it fucks up my arousal And at the end of the day I would rather be my current size with great stamina, than a guy in the process of getting the dick he wants who's a 2 pump chump.
After the small swelling on my shaft went down and I found out it was harmless, I decided to give the quick extender pro a go after reading a couple success stories & due to the fact I find the manual exercises so frustrating. Started today, the extender is great, no problems or pain at all, but surprise surprise the swelling has grown after just 4 hours of use. I'm not freaking out this time cause I know it's harmless, but if the swelling has grown after just 4 hours use. There's no way I'm gonna be able to persevere with this thing.
This last week I've been sliding back into depression, because I'm a good looking guy, I'm funny, I'm confident, I'm good at talking to girls, I have loads of friends, I have great people skills, I've fixed my Pre-E, but I can't ever get into a relationship with a girl until I'm happy in myself, and I feel like I'll never be truly happy within myself until I have a bigger dick.
I'm at a point now where I really don't know what to do. My ex is beautiful, like model beautiful and is out there being a hoe and I can't do the same cause I'm just not where I want to be.
Do I just get through this last year of uni with my 2 week routine and only have great sex with girls I don't know or sacrifice my arousal and stamina and solely focus on my dick with fat tony's routine for the next 6 months. I think also due to my past experiences with PE I expect failure as I have never had any long term results with it despite so much time and dedication. Honestly at this point my head is fucked and I don't know what to do - seeking some motivation or anyone who has felt the same pain I'm feeling right now.
I had Premature ejaculation my whole life, didn't realise it was a problem till a year and a half ago - started doing start stop technique to whilst distracting myself to lower my arousal. 2 months later had sex with what is now my ex and it was the first time I ever lasted longer than 3 minutes. Went for about half an hour and made her cum twice. At the time was really drunk so thought it was the drink that was giving me this power and used it as a crutch for the next 5 months which at the time was great and brought us so close, but eventually I couldn't do that anymore and the relationship took a turn.
I've always been insecure about my dick (think watching lots of porn from an early age fucked me up - as I know what a big dick can do to a girl. Yes if you work it right you can still be great in bed which I've learned, but I want the feeling of knowing I can handle ANY girl, not just certain types of girls. Also the idea of being with another girl who's had guys bigger than me again is just something I don't want to face). I think if I hadn't seen so many success stories of guys growing their dicks on here I would be more willing to accept my current size, but I can't.
Last year I bought a sizegenetics extender after seeing goodlookingloser's reviews on it. I was very naive and stupid with the extender and didn't take any safety precautions at all. Giving myself an ulcer and later some small swelling on the side of my shaft just below the glans where the strap was. This happened at the same time my ex broke up with me and it was probs one of the lowest times in my life. I always had PE as a crutch to make me feel good enough and now that was potentially gone forever with this unknown lump on my dick.
For like 2 months I was so anxious about what was on my dick and if I'd ever be able to do PE again - depressed, sleepless nights and so on. Eventually I saved up enough money to see a specialist who told me it was nothing to worry about, just trapped lymphatic fluid. Biggest relief ever meaning that my dream and goals of who I want to be weren't dead.
Also - during the whole lockdown I found a cure to my Pre-E and have recently had some of the best sex in my life and got lots of good feedback, but the way I manage to put in these performances is not sustainable (every 2 weeks I do a one day on, one day off, one day on, one day off stretching and jelqing routine which gets my length from 6.2 to 6.5... 6.75" if they are really good sessions) and take cialis before the sex to get my dick rock hard and as big as possible. But if I carry on this routine, the gains go back to my original size. I did this day on day off routine religiously for a year and saw some great gains but they never lasted and were so unpredictable. I'd do one session and be at 6.5" length, then do another session, thinking it went really well and I'd be back down to 6.2"
I then found a new routine from a guy called fat tony who has had a similar PE journey to me. The routine is great, the only problem is I cannot maintain a high enough erection level for the jelqing without porn. But my Pre-E was caused by watching too much porn it fucks up my arousal And at the end of the day I would rather be my current size with great stamina, than a guy in the process of getting the dick he wants who's a 2 pump chump.
After the small swelling on my shaft went down and I found out it was harmless, I decided to give the quick extender pro a go after reading a couple success stories & due to the fact I find the manual exercises so frustrating. Started today, the extender is great, no problems or pain at all, but surprise surprise the swelling has grown after just 4 hours of use. I'm not freaking out this time cause I know it's harmless, but if the swelling has grown after just 4 hours use. There's no way I'm gonna be able to persevere with this thing.
This last week I've been sliding back into depression, because I'm a good looking guy, I'm funny, I'm confident, I'm good at talking to girls, I have loads of friends, I have great people skills, I've fixed my Pre-E, but I can't ever get into a relationship with a girl until I'm happy in myself, and I feel like I'll never be truly happy within myself until I have a bigger dick.
I'm at a point now where I really don't know what to do. My ex is beautiful, like model beautiful and is out there being a hoe and I can't do the same cause I'm just not where I want to be.
Do I just get through this last year of uni with my 2 week routine and only have great sex with girls I don't know or sacrifice my arousal and stamina and solely focus on my dick with fat tony's routine for the next 6 months. I think also due to my past experiences with PE I expect failure as I have never had any long term results with it despite so much time and dedication. Honestly at this point my head is fucked and I don't know what to do - seeking some motivation or anyone who has felt the same pain I'm feeling right now.
Comment