Okay, sorry guys if you've heard this before, but I need to vent for just a second here. Finding PE has been one of the greatest changes of my life, because, whether I like it or not, a lot of my confidence and self-assurance has been based upon how I feel about my size. Since coming here in August I have learned that 1) I'm average (I was convinced I was below average); and 2) insecurities about my size are probably based off of watching hung guys in porn and/or having sex with other guys (which, intentionally or not, often ends in comparison). While having a larger member is awesome it doesn't mean much if you don't know how to use it, and ultimately, I need to be proud about who I am and my sexuality irregardless of how large I am.
So, I think I'm doing really well and gaining confidence, thinking to myself "hey -- i have a nice thick cock. Sure there's stuff I'd like to change, but I am changing it...so let it go."
But then WHAM I am at a dinner party or a beach or locker room, and some how the topic of some guy being "insanely hung" comes up and I immediately revert back to feeling helpless. I get all quiet, and for a second I feel like everyone knows that I got a baby flaccid or something. And I think that somewhere at some point people have talked about my dick size and complained about how small or average I am. It's weird and it's starting to piss me off. I'm tired dick size being equated to how good we are in bed or how manly we are (whatever that means).
AND IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD!!!! (no pun intended)
GOAL FOR PE: Get to a point (I don't really care about the size) where someone can mention some guys cock size and I can sit back comfortably and confidently and think "he's got nothing on me. I like mine just the way it is."
In the meantime, back to JPs 90...
So, I think I'm doing really well and gaining confidence, thinking to myself "hey -- i have a nice thick cock. Sure there's stuff I'd like to change, but I am changing it...so let it go."
But then WHAM I am at a dinner party or a beach or locker room, and some how the topic of some guy being "insanely hung" comes up and I immediately revert back to feeling helpless. I get all quiet, and for a second I feel like everyone knows that I got a baby flaccid or something. And I think that somewhere at some point people have talked about my dick size and complained about how small or average I am. It's weird and it's starting to piss me off. I'm tired dick size being equated to how good we are in bed or how manly we are (whatever that means).
AND IT'S ALL IN MY HEAD!!!! (no pun intended)
GOAL FOR PE: Get to a point (I don't really care about the size) where someone can mention some guys cock size and I can sit back comfortably and confidently and think "he's got nothing on me. I like mine just the way it is."
In the meantime, back to JPs 90...
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