Since priligy is expensive and you don't mind using pills antidepressants seem like the only way for you. They work, they are cheap and trust me u seem like u need them. Go to a therapist and don't lose hope. Also the Chinese cream is cheap, it works and it doesn't take the pleasure away. As my doctor said "don't be sad, there is a solution for ur problem either pills or numbing creams, there is absolutely no reason to be sad"