tl;dr: gave a girl that I really really like a body-shaking orgasm without me even cuming
I've been seeing this girl for the last week. I've known her for years but we never really went out together or dated. She lives in another city, so when she came back to my hometown we texted a little and decided to go for a drink. Great vibes from the beginning, nice conversations and we got to know each other a little better. Went to the movies two days later, swimming the next day and we kept getting more comfortable with each other. We went to her place after swimming to play some games and when we were done I finally found the courage to start making out with her. She loved it, of course, and proposed that I stay at her place (actually her parents place). Of course I stayed, even though feeling a little nervous because of sex and pre e in the back of my mind. We made out in her bed, she went down on me, gave me a handjob, and surprisingly I was really relaxed and thought I could last forever. Sex was out of the question because it would've been to loud with her parents next door. I didn't even end up cumming that night, so after I don't know how many minutes we called it quits and went to sleep. I felt great, honestly. Big confidence booster!
The next night we went out again, had some vino, smoked a little weed and went back to my own place. Wild kisses, dry humping, we were both really horny. She gave me another handjob while I was playing with her pussy, when I suddenly realized she was going pretty fast and I should maybe think about telling her to slow down. I did tell her, but she ended up holding my dick for a few more seconds with a relatively tight grip, which was enough to put me over the edge. I tried to kegel hard to hold it back, but about half of my load dripped out. Kind of a "ruined orgasm", it was a weird feeling because I wasn't sure if she even realized that I came, but I was done for the night. Also, we were both really tired from smoking and drinking anyways, so it wasn't too big of a deal for her in the end. But my confidence was down again. In hindsight I'm not sure why it happened, but I think for me personally, weed and sex is just too much. It heightens my senses to a degree that I either overthink stuff or it just feels too good. When we were lying there afterwards, she mentioned that she would really like to "feel me", which of course scared me a little because of stupid pre e.
Next date was great again, swimming, eating, hanging out. But I was down on myself and subconsciously tried to avoid bringing her home again because I was scared that we would end up having sex and I'd end up failing. Such a fucking coward. She kind of felt that and asked me why I wouldn't let her feel me. I said something like don't worry, good things take time, but I felt like she wanted to know more. That night I went home alone, happy because we got along so well but of course also disappointed in myself because of me hesitating and overthinking it all again. When I got home she texted me something like "pls be honest with me". Phew. I never told her about my problem before, but obviously she could feel that something was a little off, and at this stage I liked her too much to not tell her the truth about whats going on in my head. I texted her a big paragraph about how much I like her and how I love spending time with her, but that I'm kinda insecure when it comes to sex because I'm lacking confidence at the moment and that I didn't want to disappoint her. At first I could've never imagined telling her the truth straight out like that, but the more I thought about it the more it made sense. She deserve to know, AND it takes a lot of pressure of off myself. But wow, telling all that someone else is not easy! But deep down I knew she'd appreciate my honesty.
I was out of town the next day, we texted a little but I had no idea how she reacted to my "confession". Came back yesterday, met her at the swimming pools, had an amazing time again and there was obviously love in the air. I knew this was her last day before she goes to her town again, so I told her to come over at night for some vino and some games again. I prepared myself mentally to have sex with her this time because I just couldn't forgive myself for not even trying. And after telling her the truth I really had nothing to lose. So we played, drank a little (only about half of a bottle) and then got comfortable on the couch and started to make out. Again - dry humping, wild kisses, but this time I knew that I couldn't leave it at that. I had to let her feel me. So after the long foreplay, I grabbed her, put her on top of me and told her to feel me. She slowly put it in. And for about one second I was fucking scared how it would feel, because in my experience you can often feel from the first penetration how long you will last. BUT - I felt good. Really good. Her pussy was so much easier to handle than my fleshlight, which I now know is just fucking tight and not like a real pussy at all. She was really wet too, so there was even less friction. So she was on top of me, cowgirl style, but I wasn't lying flat but rather sitting on the couch leaning back a little. She rode the shit out of my dick for some minutes and to my surprise I had no issues at all lasting long. She was CRAZY into it, almost out of control, finally being able to release all of the build up sexual tension. She grabbed me by my head and told me something like "I hope you're enjoying this because this is almost too much for me!". Damn. She got hotter and hotter, riding it faster and faster, moaning. I have no idea how I managed to keep my composer. Just the thought of sex like that would've made me cum in an edging session for sure. It was also really hot inside so we were sweating pretty heavily at this point. I have no idea about the time but I'd say after 3-4 minutes of heavy riding I could feel her reaching climax and she told me almost in a regretting way that she has no choice but to cum now. JACKPOT! No matter what, my job was done. She had a crazy orgasm, whole body shaking type. It was probably the most beautiful thing I've ever experienced - and I wasn't even close!
She hopped off and I could tell that she coudln't handle what just happened. We went into missionary position, so again I was curious to see how it goes. I swear I hammered away for minutes and minutes and never got closer. I have no idea why I could last forever. Alcohol wasn't the reason I'm sure, because it was only half a bottle combined! We had to take a break, eventually, because it was too hot inside and we were soaking wet. We ended up just lying there, her in my arms, as happy as ever, and - I'm 100% serious, her legs were still shaking.
So trying to figure out why I could last forever... I'd say multiple things played a role. Of course, me telling her the absolute truth felt good and took a lot of pressure off of myself. Also, I was "in the moment" all the time. I loved every second with her, I registered every touch. I didn't even have a chance to have any negative thoughts while making out with her because I was enjoying it so much. Also, before she arrived that night, I did a couple minutes hindi squats and a few reps of "the bow" (elliott hulse). Not sure how that impacted my performance but it obv didn't hurt. I also think that because we've really developed feelings for each other, this helped too. I could trust her, so even if I came early again, it's really no big deal. Before the night I also imagined a "worst case scenario" and realized that even that scenario wasn't bad at all. I'd come early, so what? I told her that already. And also, I now know that I can't compare my fleshlight to a real pussy. But I'm sure it was great to practice with that thing for desensitizing reasons.
So guys, I'm sorry this is so all over the place. I have no idea if I'm cured or not, but it all feels really great. This is probably one of the top 3 happiest moments in my life right now. Looking at it today, last night felt magical, kinda like a dream. I have no idea what happened. I'll continue doing all the stuff that I've been doing recently, especially stretches around the belly like the bow. But I think the really important shift happened in my mind.
If someone has really read all of this, feel free to ask anything.
I've been seeing this girl for the last week. I've known her for years but we never really went out together or dated. She lives in another city, so when she came back to my hometown we texted a little and decided to go for a drink. Great vibes from the beginning, nice conversations and we got to know each other a little better. Went to the movies two days later, swimming the next day and we kept getting more comfortable with each other. We went to her place after swimming to play some games and when we were done I finally found the courage to start making out with her. She loved it, of course, and proposed that I stay at her place (actually her parents place). Of course I stayed, even though feeling a little nervous because of sex and pre e in the back of my mind. We made out in her bed, she went down on me, gave me a handjob, and surprisingly I was really relaxed and thought I could last forever. Sex was out of the question because it would've been to loud with her parents next door. I didn't even end up cumming that night, so after I don't know how many minutes we called it quits and went to sleep. I felt great, honestly. Big confidence booster!
The next night we went out again, had some vino, smoked a little weed and went back to my own place. Wild kisses, dry humping, we were both really horny. She gave me another handjob while I was playing with her pussy, when I suddenly realized she was going pretty fast and I should maybe think about telling her to slow down. I did tell her, but she ended up holding my dick for a few more seconds with a relatively tight grip, which was enough to put me over the edge. I tried to kegel hard to hold it back, but about half of my load dripped out. Kind of a "ruined orgasm", it was a weird feeling because I wasn't sure if she even realized that I came, but I was done for the night. Also, we were both really tired from smoking and drinking anyways, so it wasn't too big of a deal for her in the end. But my confidence was down again. In hindsight I'm not sure why it happened, but I think for me personally, weed and sex is just too much. It heightens my senses to a degree that I either overthink stuff or it just feels too good. When we were lying there afterwards, she mentioned that she would really like to "feel me", which of course scared me a little because of stupid pre e.
Next date was great again, swimming, eating, hanging out. But I was down on myself and subconsciously tried to avoid bringing her home again because I was scared that we would end up having sex and I'd end up failing. Such a fucking coward. She kind of felt that and asked me why I wouldn't let her feel me. I said something like don't worry, good things take time, but I felt like she wanted to know more. That night I went home alone, happy because we got along so well but of course also disappointed in myself because of me hesitating and overthinking it all again. When I got home she texted me something like "pls be honest with me". Phew. I never told her about my problem before, but obviously she could feel that something was a little off, and at this stage I liked her too much to not tell her the truth about whats going on in my head. I texted her a big paragraph about how much I like her and how I love spending time with her, but that I'm kinda insecure when it comes to sex because I'm lacking confidence at the moment and that I didn't want to disappoint her. At first I could've never imagined telling her the truth straight out like that, but the more I thought about it the more it made sense. She deserve to know, AND it takes a lot of pressure of off myself. But wow, telling all that someone else is not easy! But deep down I knew she'd appreciate my honesty.
I was out of town the next day, we texted a little but I had no idea how she reacted to my "confession". Came back yesterday, met her at the swimming pools, had an amazing time again and there was obviously love in the air. I knew this was her last day before she goes to her town again, so I told her to come over at night for some vino and some games again. I prepared myself mentally to have sex with her this time because I just couldn't forgive myself for not even trying. And after telling her the truth I really had nothing to lose. So we played, drank a little (only about half of a bottle) and then got comfortable on the couch and started to make out. Again - dry humping, wild kisses, but this time I knew that I couldn't leave it at that. I had to let her feel me. So after the long foreplay, I grabbed her, put her on top of me and told her to feel me. She slowly put it in. And for about one second I was fucking scared how it would feel, because in my experience you can often feel from the first penetration how long you will last. BUT - I felt good. Really good. Her pussy was so much easier to handle than my fleshlight, which I now know is just fucking tight and not like a real pussy at all. She was really wet too, so there was even less friction. So she was on top of me, cowgirl style, but I wasn't lying flat but rather sitting on the couch leaning back a little. She rode the shit out of my dick for some minutes and to my surprise I had no issues at all lasting long. She was CRAZY into it, almost out of control, finally being able to release all of the build up sexual tension. She grabbed me by my head and told me something like "I hope you're enjoying this because this is almost too much for me!". Damn. She got hotter and hotter, riding it faster and faster, moaning. I have no idea how I managed to keep my composer. Just the thought of sex like that would've made me cum in an edging session for sure. It was also really hot inside so we were sweating pretty heavily at this point. I have no idea about the time but I'd say after 3-4 minutes of heavy riding I could feel her reaching climax and she told me almost in a regretting way that she has no choice but to cum now. JACKPOT! No matter what, my job was done. She had a crazy orgasm, whole body shaking type. It was probably the most beautiful thing I've ever experienced - and I wasn't even close!
She hopped off and I could tell that she coudln't handle what just happened. We went into missionary position, so again I was curious to see how it goes. I swear I hammered away for minutes and minutes and never got closer. I have no idea why I could last forever. Alcohol wasn't the reason I'm sure, because it was only half a bottle combined! We had to take a break, eventually, because it was too hot inside and we were soaking wet. We ended up just lying there, her in my arms, as happy as ever, and - I'm 100% serious, her legs were still shaking.
So trying to figure out why I could last forever... I'd say multiple things played a role. Of course, me telling her the absolute truth felt good and took a lot of pressure off of myself. Also, I was "in the moment" all the time. I loved every second with her, I registered every touch. I didn't even have a chance to have any negative thoughts while making out with her because I was enjoying it so much. Also, before she arrived that night, I did a couple minutes hindi squats and a few reps of "the bow" (elliott hulse). Not sure how that impacted my performance but it obv didn't hurt. I also think that because we've really developed feelings for each other, this helped too. I could trust her, so even if I came early again, it's really no big deal. Before the night I also imagined a "worst case scenario" and realized that even that scenario wasn't bad at all. I'd come early, so what? I told her that already. And also, I now know that I can't compare my fleshlight to a real pussy. But I'm sure it was great to practice with that thing for desensitizing reasons.
So guys, I'm sorry this is so all over the place. I have no idea if I'm cured or not, but it all feels really great. This is probably one of the top 3 happiest moments in my life right now. Looking at it today, last night felt magical, kinda like a dream. I have no idea what happened. I'll continue doing all the stuff that I've been doing recently, especially stretches around the belly like the bow. But I think the really important shift happened in my mind.
If someone has really read all of this, feel free to ask anything.
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