Lurker finally seeks personalised advise from old members

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Update Wed 18/09/19
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First the good news

* I have had great results in stretching and have achieved a semblance of 'plateau' both in edging and piv.

*Massaged the knots/trigger points daily and feel them barely starting to loosen up. Good shit!


And now , areas to focus on:

*Still have STRONG urge to kegel when penis is touched. I'm able to calm this down since starting this routine however the IKs are still RAMPANT.

*First time since starting I found my commitment start to "waver" a bit. Only did squats/stretches 4/7 days and just yesterday I masterbated to hardcore porn twice with a 'i dont give a fuck' attitude and didn't edge at all. Came very quickly. Felt regret. Feels bad man

*Arousal control is still all kinds of fucked up. Porn is still a problem in my life..


Glad that I committed to a log, because now I have to be honest with myself AND all you guys about what's really going on with me and my progress week to week.

Again, thank you so much PEGym for giving me the belief that I can change and giving me the guidance I need.

I'll check in next week, with better focus!

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Update Sunday 22/9/19
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Feeling really good about results so far!

Getting a MUCH better idea of what a proper RK feels like!
Able to get erections without IK! (sometimes)
Able to often touch penis without IK!

Wasn't as consistent as I'd like to be in my routine, but I'm seeing MASSIVE results and I couldn't be happier with my decision to trust you guys and follow your advice!

Realised how difficult it is to isolate PC and BC.
Can't really RK the BC without using PC first.
Can't really kegel the BC without immediately engaging the PC and almost always RL when BC gets full contraction.

Decided to massage the knots every other day instead of every day to avoid soreness.

Might add some kegels now to gain strength and maintain balance on pelvic floor.
Started a sheet to help me remember how my routine is going.

Sun Mon Tues Wed Thurs Fri Sat
Stretch x x x x
Massage x x x
RKs x x x x x x x
Edge x x x
PIV x

EDIT- formatting on that table didnt really work out, but you guys get the idea

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Update Wed 02/10/19
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I've been feeling really good emotionally this past week and a half, however I haven't continued my pre-e workout with as much dedication as I had in the first few weeks.

I'm constantly throughout the day trying to notice when I have a tight/clenched pelvic floor and relax it with RK, however I haven't dedicated a specific time to myself to focus on RKs as often as I would have liked to.

Similarly I only did Hindi squats twice this week which could definitely see an improvement. That being said, the two times that I DID do hindi squats I was able to stay down for 10mins + , twice each day which is massively different to the 30 seconds or so that I could do when I first started.

I had PIV this week which went much better than it has been in a long time. IKs were present and in the initial penetration my pelvic floor was extremely tight! However I was able to breathe, relax, RK etc. and was able to bring myself into a plateau for a while. Felt good!

Porn addiction is still a problem. I feel reliant on porn to achieve erection and my ability to focus my mind sexually is where I will focus on the next few weeks.
(I will continue to maintain my physical routine)

Will lurk moar on stickies related to arousal control in an attempt to move forward.

[Dangler]

Be patient with yourself, breaking the porn thing can take some time. If you will develop the "close your eyes/use your imagination", and take your time, you will have a great alternative.

[Pegasus]

Hmm .
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