Everyday log

[olaboga Member Find all posts View Profile Close olaboga]

No progress so far, but still have hope.

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Routine (3 days on 1 day off: 111011101110111)
/morning meditation 15 min headspace audio/
5 min stretch
50 5sek RK
30 deep squats
5 min yoga position
1 AS LONG AS POSSIBLE RK
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EDGING strategy
5 days on 2 days off (max. 1 time a day, when i'm in the mood)
no porn of course
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thinking about: death grip, very long light rk, tennis ball massage

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GOALS FOR NOW:
1. CONTROL PONR (i need to unlearn ejaculation trigger)
2. PROLONG PONR
3. BE NATURAL AND CONFIDENT
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Edging goal for today 08.03.2015
30 min (main goal: WITHOUT ejacujation, as hard as possible)

[longerlastingnoob Senior Member Member of the Month Jan 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close longerlastingnoob]

Sounds good. Is it day on day off? Make sure to take rest.

[olaboga Member Find all posts View Profile Close olaboga]

TODAY 08.03.2015 (1)
Routine completed but edging failed. Ejacujation after a few minutes. I had a break from edging, to goal is to much for me right now - with full erection and arusal PONR - at this moment I cant even touch my penis - a little touch causes immediately ejacujation. When I was edging before, i was able to last longer but now i'm in a bad shape.

TOMORROW 09.03.2015 (2)
Routine
Edging goal:
20 min (main goal: NO ejacujation, remember about deep breath and pushing the belly)

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longerlastingnoob,
when shoud i take the day off? on day a week or every 2-3 days? what you recommand?

[longerlastingnoob Senior Member Member of the Month Jan 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close longerlastingnoob]

At least 2 days rest weekly, from exercises. Edging is up to you but everyday isn't good

[olaboga Member Find all posts View Profile Close olaboga]

09.03.2015 (2)
Edging today in the morning 20min but with ejacujation at the end. Far smaller pressure than the last time edging but still really hard.

TOMORROW GOAL EDGING:
30 min (main goal: NO ejacujation. Strategy: deep breath+pushing the belly and move my body when i feel the high arousal level)

[olaboga Member Find all posts View Profile Close olaboga]

10.03.2015
Edging... hmm... I felt a little more confident and I wanted to edge with really tight grip and move my body (like stand up, walking) but... it was too much for me and i had ejaculation after a few minutes..
TOMORROW GOAL: 30 min (ONLY NO ejaculation, soft if needed!!).

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11.03.2015
Today Edging Goal achieved Precisely 30 minutes edging (I used a stopwatch, which allowed me to control the course and also calmed me/distract me from too much excitement). The whole session I was lying on the bed, in moments of high arousal I started doing sit-up, sometimes several. I could do a lot more harder (I used a standard grip) and think more obscenely, but today my main goal is to unlearn ejaculation at the end at any price. The whole time I was on the verge of ejaculation, I knew that if I would suddenly accelerated the grip then in a few seconds i would finish.

TOMORROW GOAL EDGING:
30 min (main goal: NO ejaculation, more harder)
REST DAY

[olaboga Member Find all posts View Profile Close olaboga]

I had a sex dream tonight but my alarm clock rang just before finish. Usually in such a dreams I end in wet pants. I think its also really important to work this subject from the subconsciousness level.

[longerlastingnoob Senior Member Member of the Month Jan 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close longerlastingnoob]

I had a sex dream tonight but my alarm clock rang just before finish. Usually in such a dreams I end in wet pants. I think its also really important to work this subject from the subconsciousness level.

Your the third peson to bring this up, I definitely think it's something to look for.

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12.03.2015
So i took the rest day.
About edging alone - i couldnt do it because i was busy but... my friend from the est europe visted me and she is a catholic girl so we didnt have sex. This situation was perfect for me because she can not allow to penetrate, but we could do everything else - so it was a kind of edging. We was rubbing against each other, kissed and simulated the sex with our underwear. We did that for a few hours in the bed at night. Usually I set in the position in which the penis touched her vagina and I already felt a very high arouse but we just lay like this (not moving) for a few minutes until I got used to it and then i started doing rubbing or doing more exciting things for me (then stopped and then again). From the point of view of a normal guy is a little pathetic, especially that at the end I could not resist and I had an ejaculation in pants (as usual), but it was an achievement for me and I feel stronger - certainly it was better than edging alone.

Today I need to do my exercise and continue the work (still a lot to do as you can see).

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13.03.2015
Yesterday i didnt make my exercises. So 2 days rest. Today i need to do!
About edging. This is the first time alone after this experience with a girl from Est. I can see that it was significant. Every experience with a girl, however, has a major impact on the mindset and body. Sex became more real for me and therefor the "anxiety" is lower and the body is more loose. (hmmm. I need to look more about meditation and hypnotic visualization - i think it can be useful with my mindset). Edging today was less stressful but was not successful eventually. The whole session took 15 minutes (10 minutes after I had a full erection = PONR). I noticed that this 5 minutes with full of excitement is more easier for me then usual. I've done a lot of breaks, but kept my hand on a penis (usually i coudnt resist from ejaculation with even a touch). My grip was definitely stronger than usual and the whole session was more demanding. Of course, ended in with a fiasco, but I saw iprovment. At the end I felt that ejaculation occurs so I started doing sit-ups but I had a half-ejaculation, it was a strange feeling, because I did not know whether I come or not, because all the excitement go away and the erection was weaker, so i clenched my kegel and I started very fast movements and I had another final ejaculation. Heh. I mean, I do not know yet well your body...

[longerlastingnoob Senior Member Member of the Month Jan 2015 Find all posts View Profile Close longerlastingnoob]

Did you kegel before ejacualtion.

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14.03.2015 First day after 3 days REST of exercises. Edging: only 15 min again, strong but ejaculation failure.

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15.03.2015 Exercises done. Edging: again 15 min, like always after 10 min full erection, BIG arousal, PONR - and i could last like this 5 min. But i noticed that IK are not so strong as before, it wasnt so hard as usual so i wanted to go harder... and then i just had ejaculation again...

TODAY GOAL EDGING:
30 min, no ejaculation, not so hard but not soft

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16.03.2015 Exercises completed. Edging: 25 min, again end with a ejaculation but saw some improvments. After I hit PONR and full arousal I could continue for a while with a pain, problems and full of IK, but all the IK wasnt so hard. Usually with this level of arousal after even 1 IK I ejaculated, but this time I felt IK but they where not so strong and there i had a liitle drop of simen but still not "the end". Of course It wasnt perfect but Its a start.

TODAY:
I will do my exercises (Its a 4 day, but I have 3days REST, so this day is extra due to this)
EDGING: 30 min, main goal: NO ejaculation