Reskinning thy banana!

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

I've got a problem, or maybe I don't? We're going to find out!

This log is going to track my progress of stopping self sexual gratification. Reason I've decided to start this journey is because I absolutely believe that sex can be better, if I keep the banana put away more often than usual.. I believe I have decreased sensitivity over the last 20 years or w/e, among other things. Shhh!

So here we go! I've signed all orgasmic rights over to my supportive girlfriend, and if/when I edge/balloon, I must confess to her so that she can punish me.

Only rights that I have are PE exercises, that don't involve orgasm and/or ejaculation.

God help me!

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

11/21~

Day 1, Monday.

Weekdays are difficult, because I'm alone.

Woke and edged/ballooned to ejaculation this morning, and than said enough is enough. Strapped thy banana in the Gates of Hell and went on about my day. Today was difficult, but I made it through. Was very tired, anxious, and frustrated.

GF took real good care of me tonight

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

11/22~

Day 2, Tuesday.

Woke up horny as all get out. Didn't hesitate once to strap him in the Gates of Hell. Went all day without self sexual gratification.. was exhausted, very frustrated sexually, and anxious. Couldn't wait for her to get home. When she arrived, the tension diminished.

We had a lot of fun tonight, although I dealt with DE; no ejac. Erections and arousal improving.

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

I feel like a recovering heroine addict or something. Will it ever pass? We're gonna find out!

[Party Senior Member Member of the Month August 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Party]

IDK but as long as she's in with it it will be OK. Stop stressing thats not helping. Just screw more often, LOL.

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

IDK but as long as she's in with it it will be OK. Stop stressing thats not helping. Just screw more often, LOL.

I would love to, but this reboot is really fawking with me lol might as well order some horny goat weed, maybe it'll help, or something lol

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

11/23~

Day 3, Wednesday.

Woke horny as a toad so I figured I'd take advantage of the situation and PE.. jelqs led to 10 minutes of edging, which led to partial ejac. I told her she needed to punish me. I guess sucking on my frenulum for only God knows how long was my punishment lol

After I caught myself edging I strapped that puppy in the Gates of Hell till lunch. After lunch I let him roam free and didn't bother him. Spent most of my afternoon outside, so that helped.

Anxiety lessening. Frustration lessening. Still exhausted, but I think that's because I haven't been exactly sleeping right. PMO fog still kicking. DE still being a fawk. ED near, or something. Arousal is fawkered up.

Senses are improving.. candles smell oh so good that I'm actually afraid lol

Might as well enjoy the ride!

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

I feel robbed. Food actually tastes delicious! Like... Thanksgiving dinner actually gave me a buzz of some sort. Marshmallows... damn don't even get me started on the marshmallows lol

What.is.going.on.around.here???

I guess my brain reward system is balancing itself? Gawsh I felt like a herion junkie for so long and just couldn't figure out why.

I feel robbed.


Happy Thanksgiving!

[GokuKakarot Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close GokuKakarot]

Fascinating... this is something like AP90 square.

Strength! I'll be looking into yer log to see how it goes.

Cheers!

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

11/24~

Day 4, Thursday.

Had an excellent day. Like previously stated, my senses and chemical reward system is improving. Didn't put him in the Gates of Hell, didn't have to, was surrounded by GF and her family. Ever since starting this journey people are different, I don't know how to explain it. Like everything is different. Reality is different. Emotions are different. Everything is different.

Still taking effort to get aroused and stay aroused though. Wasn't all that anxious today. Libido is up and down. DE still around, but she broke me off anyway

I miss the days where just thinking about sex would get me aroused. Maybe I'm just that numb.

26 more days!

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

...maybe it's just my hyperactive mind? I need some rum.

CUSP!!!!!!!

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11/25~ 11/26~

Day 5 and 6, Friday and Saturday.

Anxiety is getting better. Arousal is improving. DE is fading. Having to relearn every darn thing I guess. Done stressing about shat! Still sleeping about 3-5 hours a night.. gotta get back on routine next week. I told her... I told her! She didn't believe me... yeah she didn't believe me! I told her that if we start playing horizontal poker again that we're gonna be losing sleep over it. At 2-3 times a day, I'm tired lol

Haven't had to strap him in the Gates of Hell. She still doesn't know about the Gates of Hell. Come Monday though, he'll be in the Gates of Hell. Darn shat.

Doing good on not over stimulating myself. Haven't watched porn since day 1.

24 more days!

PoOf!

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11/28~

Day 8, Monday!

Not quite sure what to put here.. except that I made it through week one lol today was a little difficult in the morning. Luckily I strapped him in the Gates of Hell so that every time he'd get excited, it would hurt lol not only that, but everytime I touch his head and/or yoke his damn neck, the Gates of Hell is reminder to not beat him to death.

Not sure how I feel right now. Felt great this morning. This time change is exhausting a MF though, or something else is. Gahhhh!

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11/30~

Day 10, Wednesday.

Somethin's gotta give!

Still haven't whacked it to porn. Still dealing with arousal dysfunction in the late evenings though. Not fuggen sure anymore, must be tired.. but who's too tired for sex? I have noticed that if I'm tired I do get anxious. Oh fawk it I'm done trying to figure the bullshat out!

Failed this morning.. I edged and blew my load like never before. Decided to start edging in a fashion that's similar to sex, because before I would edge/balloon in a fashion that doesn't even really stimulate sex. Like... a vagina just can't replicate the style of stimulation that I'm used to. So here we go!


One. Thing. At. A. Time.

[Jay1983 Senior MemberMember of the Month Apr 2014, Sept 2016 Find all posts View Profile Close Jay1983]

So damn horny. Like don't touch it!!!

I guess the edging session this morning knocked it out the park for me. Second piece of the puzzle found!!

She came home for lunch and I just about jumped her. Testosterone is flowing worse than a darn river.

So far on this journey I've learned two things. Still gonna continue this journey to see if I learn any new things.

Can't believe I lost focus!

Pelvic floor still balanced. She needs to sit on it. FAWK!!!!!!