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today - 01.06.2017
My story: I am 25 years old guy from Europe. Since i remember myself i was fat. Never had sex before in my life, because it was hard for me to get a girl, and if i got an opportunity i always figured out something to not to do it because i thought i have a small penis. In summer 2015 i had some problems with my foot, i got diagnosed gout. Doctor said that i have some liver problems because of my weight. So first year i lost 10kg. And in October 2016. i understood that this cannot continue so in few months i lost another 20kg. I wanted a normal life, family, children etc. While i was dropping weight i also worked out , did boxing, weight lifting, kitesurfing. And when those 30kg were lost i also understood that i am quite handsome haha. There are always some girls that are looking back at me when i am somewhere public. So yes, now to find a girlfriend would not be a problem, BUT i have a small penis, and insane size anxiety... i was scared of having sex, i was scared of showing my manhood to a girl.
Eventually i found a nice girl, and by the time we had to have first sex i also registered in PEGYM, so it was in the peak of my performance anxiety. I so much liked her, she is so sweet, funny, caring, loving person. And i thought when she will see my penis she will run away from me. And if she would, then i would kill myself, because i did not wanted to loose her, i was in deep black hole mentally, my mind was playing some badly fucked up scenarios of our first intercourse, i was so depressed, scared, Somehow i managed to overcome my fear and tried to have sex with her, she was a virgin, so do i. She did not run away, she said nothing, only thing that she said was : I love you, since that day, she says it to me x20 times a day.
Sorry for my english
to be continued....
br,
Purednb
today - 01.06.2017
My story: I am 25 years old guy from Europe. Since i remember myself i was fat. Never had sex before in my life, because it was hard for me to get a girl, and if i got an opportunity i always figured out something to not to do it because i thought i have a small penis. In summer 2015 i had some problems with my foot, i got diagnosed gout. Doctor said that i have some liver problems because of my weight. So first year i lost 10kg. And in October 2016. i understood that this cannot continue so in few months i lost another 20kg. I wanted a normal life, family, children etc. While i was dropping weight i also worked out , did boxing, weight lifting, kitesurfing. And when those 30kg were lost i also understood that i am quite handsome haha. There are always some girls that are looking back at me when i am somewhere public. So yes, now to find a girlfriend would not be a problem, BUT i have a small penis, and insane size anxiety... i was scared of having sex, i was scared of showing my manhood to a girl.
Eventually i found a nice girl, and by the time we had to have first sex i also registered in PEGYM, so it was in the peak of my performance anxiety. I so much liked her, she is so sweet, funny, caring, loving person. And i thought when she will see my penis she will run away from me. And if she would, then i would kill myself, because i did not wanted to loose her, i was in deep black hole mentally, my mind was playing some badly fucked up scenarios of our first intercourse, i was so depressed, scared, Somehow i managed to overcome my fear and tried to have sex with her, she was a virgin, so do i. She did not run away, she said nothing, only thing that she said was : I love you, since that day, she says it to me x20 times a day.
Sorry for my english
to be continued....
br,
Purednb
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