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  • Journey to become a pornstar

    Last night with one of my new girls, homegirl i call her, the one i spend the most time with speak to about life and shit, friendship and sex.

    Last night with her was cool, we tried anal but couldn't get into it without her tensing, to much talk of it not enough foreplay in the moment type stuff. Decided to make food and try again.

    Anyways I've never enjoyed women on top, and she's been begging for that, my dick usually softens up, me not being in complete control may play a part.

    So what was awesome about last night..
    Anal didn't work out but i discovered her hand on my dick, where she wouldn't even touch it if it wasn't instantly hard already, made it instantly hard and then the transition to on top was so easy. Was so hot came in like three to four minutes 95%eq and she loved it she's been trying to go on top for like 6 weeks.

    ..

    My biggest concern goal besides obtaining the size i want, 8.2 x 6 at 85% eq, is complete erection control or eq control. I read that one auditioning to star in a porn has to be able to get it up in under 30 seconds, no physical stimulation. This girl im seeing almost demands that.

    I have performance anxiety with this one because if i'm not hard from the get go she gets turned off and just stops everything gets upset actually. One of the reasons i like her, she's a crazy challenge.

    She's showed me pics of all her past guys, all huge, 8 to 10 long x 6 to 7 girth. So i'm also very small compared to what she's used to. And they all were just hard from start no effort. Im thinking this comes with the confidence of having a big dick from the get go off your life and loving your dick maybe more than you care about the female. Hence seemingly douche/alpha mentality that comes with some. This is not a bad thing. Love your dick.

    I've been thinking confidence of size may play a huge part in thoughts of inadequacy with someone i do not trust or caring what they think. Leading to loss in eq and such.

    I also believe this cause after i felt my first gains huge increase in thickness, noticed during edging, it turned me on and i got even harder and bigger. Thinking what i could do to a female with something like this. Fucking exciting.

    Starting: 6.5 x 5.15
    Current: 7.5 x 5.5
    Goal 1: 8.2 x 6

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    You may want to post what your current routine is. And what you are doing daily (if you do PE daily). Don't let this girl get you down. She seems to be more of a rare case. What you call a size queen probably (based off the fact that you mentioned she seems to sleep with extremely endowed men). Most women don't care as much about size as you would think. Sure they like a nice size but to most women they care a whole lot more about personality. As for erection control, you may have to work with your imagination on that one. For me, it comes a little more natural......if I'm into whomever I am with, I can usually get hard pretty quickly if we feel like having sex.
    Swimbarracuda
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    Last edited by Swimbarracuda; 12-10-2018, 04:49 PM.
    6/23/16 (Start)
    BPEL: 5 13/16" BEG: 5 3/4"
    3/31/22
    BPEL: 7 9/16" MEG: 5 9/16" BEG: 6 3/8"
    Monthly Goal - May 2022:
    BPEL: 7 3/4" MEG: 5 3/4"
    Full 2022 Year Goal on Profile Kik: Swimbarracuda

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    • #3
      I feel compelled to ask...Why do you want to become a porn star?

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      • #4
        I had to read it twice at first I imagined this girl is your gf. As long as she's a homegirl it's all good playa keep grinding and tracking your progress you'll easily hit your goal size with the right consistency and time.

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        • #5
          Originally posted by CptnD View Post
          I feel compelled to ask...Why do you want to become a porn star?
          If I can perform in a porno with all the anxietes and confidences that come with it, starting from the bottom of confidences as a kid then what possibilities may lay. I've improved myself x 1000 mind body asthetics exponential sense then. Just started training PE, didn't even know about it until 3 months ago. I want the top.

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          • #6
            Originally posted by bigplayre View Post
            I had to read it twice at first I imagined this girl is your gf. As long as she's a homegirl it's all good playa keep grinding and tracking your progress you'll easily hit your goal size with the right consistency and time.
            Thx bro. If we can masturbate to porn with a feverish addiction imagine what we can addict ourselves to seeing direct results from the same energy. Then using that in the field! Excited.

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            • #7
              Originally posted by Swimbarracuda View Post
              You may want to post what your current routine is. And what you are doing daily (if you do PE daily). Don't let this girl get you down. She seems to be more of a rare case. What you call a size queen probably (based off the fact that you mentioned she seems to sleep with extremely endowed men). Most women don't care as much about size as you would think. Sure they like a nice size but to most women they care a whole lot more about personality. As for erection control, you may have to work with your imagination on that one. For me, it comes a little more natural......if I'm into whomever I am with, I can usually get hard pretty quickly if we feel like having sex.
              Barracuda! She is bro, but she has adequate reasoning. She's about 9 inches deep and very girthy inside. That's why i love her, such a challenge. And she's mentally tough towards me. I've been with 25 + girls sense i broke up with a girl i loved 3 months ago, lets go! Idgaf. I love it.

              Been doing nightly and morning imagination/meditation middle of the night too. I can get erect in this sleepy state at will. During day full concious different situation. Trying to connect it. Do you know anything about how people are able to do this at their will during day hours? Instant erection? Lol, she sees me do it she goes meditate get your dick hard, she's fucked up bro, but we all are.

              Training report:
              Did 2 hour bathmate today in bed while researching/playing video games. Coming from one full day off with one day of super light pressure, basically two days off.
              Was able to withstand intervals of much higher pressure for much longer without pain/soreness from one week ago. Plus didn't go hard today didn't push it. Looking to push it tomorrow less time super high pressure intervals. Then mild day next day if sore.
              Main goal still being instant erection any time, may dedicate severe meditation practice to this tomorrow during day. Thinking combination physical stimulation and release intervals allowing arousal and state to hold erection independent of touch..

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              • #8
                Originally posted by Whiteboyblack View Post
                If I can perform in a porno with all the anxietes and confidences that come with it, starting from the bottom of confidences as a kid then what possibilities may lay. I've improved myself x 1000 mind body asthetics exponential sense then. Just started training PE, didn't even know about it until 3 months ago. I want the top.
                Originally posted by Whiteboyblack View Post
                Barracuda! She is bro, but she has adequate reasoning. She's about 9 inches deep and very girthy inside. That's why i love her, such a challenge. And she's mentally tough towards me. I've been with 25 + girls sense i broke up with a girl i loved 3 months ago, lets go! Idgaf. I love it
                I've read something like this before on here with a guy who wanted to grow his dick drastically and do porn, and treat women like porn stars because he thought it would relieve himself of his deficiencies.

                While I understand you feel it's necessary to "perform in a porno with all the" anxieties, I think you may come to eventually realize that it will potentially wear off or the feeling will pass; like believing you need a brand new shiny ride to get attention from girls. It's nice to have that feeling, but it only lasts a little while before you feel inadequate once again. For most of us on here, it's all in our heads. Many of which are the direct result (reflective of your position as underlined and in bold) of pain from some chick that crushed you/us. In these instances we've found a way to blame ourselves for what happened when in reality we should come to the realization that it just wasn't meant to be.

                Congrats on being with 25+ girls in less than 3 months. You sound exactly like me when I was in high school and went through a bad breakup with a size queen, the only one I've ever had. It's sad to think that out of all the women I've been with, you've been with, they've been with....it only took one to destroy our confidence as men. Those of us that are humble or have been humbled can see that. I wish I had someone to tell me this at that time, or at least had this site to turn to and find these words. It's a dangerous way of thinking brother and it can quite easily distort your character if you let it. I hope you become aware of it sooner than later. Good luck!

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                • #9
                  Originally posted by CptnD View Post
                  I've read something like this before on here with a guy who wanted to grow his dick drastically and do porn, and treat women like porn stars because he thought it would relieve himself of his deficiencies.

                  While I understand you feel it's necessary to "perform in a porno with all the" anxieties, I think you may come to eventually realize that it will potentially wear off or the feeling will pass; like believing you need a brand new shiny ride to get attention from girls. It's nice to have that feeling, but it only lasts a little while before you feel inadequate once again. For most of us on here, it's all in our heads. Many of which are the direct result (reflective of your position as underlined and in bold) of pain from some chick that crushed you/us. In these instances we've found a way to blame ourselves for what happened when in reality we should come to the realization that it just wasn't meant to be.

                  Congrats on being with 25+ girls in less than 3 months. You sound exactly like me when I was in high school and went through a bad breakup with a size queen, the only one I've ever had. It's sad to think that out of all the women I've been with, you've been with, they've been with....it only took one to destroy our confidence as men. Those of us that are humble or have been humbled can see that. I wish I had someone to tell me this at that time, or at least had this site to turn to and find these words. It's a dangerous way of thinking brother and it can quite easily distort your character if you let it. I hope you become aware of it sooner than later. Good luck!
                  Sex was awesome with the girl i loved/needed, cream all day, issue was marriage/occupation/future. Actually told her about what i started doing before we finally ended said she didn't want some fat cock. Not my problem.

                  CptnD!Dude you're not wrong. Though everything doesn't completely apply to my circumstance. I've always had to have a very intimate connection due to comfortability for arousal to take place (latent confidence issue, size may have been the root) with a female. Being forced to be very intimate with females kind of like being blind and having to compensate as i would imagine many in the same circumstance do, created super powers in another sense. I can look at a girl be in her presence and make her wet, oral/touch is on point, kino on point, vocals, tonality, presence, timing. All previously compensations turned to gold. I would never treat a girl cold or like a porn star is depicted, i don't think i could. Although there's is place to treat a girl like a whore from a roleplay perspective.

                  Not looking to disagree with you as i do agree with what your saying. And shiny things are easily taken for granted after had. But like any of my previous obsessions, they aren't easily forgotten. I may be adequate but that's not my goal. And this may be my greatest, being the longest detriment/obsessesion of my life. I would say we are very appreciative of the things we work hard for.

                  I can't help but love them all.

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                  • #10
                    Update: new goal
                    Confidence: To be so good in bed she could get with someone else and i would have zero/little insecurity and minimal betrayal issues.
                    In addition to.
                    Size: 8.3 x 6
                    Eq: instant erection w/o female presence or physical stimulation

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                    • #11
                      Glad to see your ideal cock goal went up from 8.2 x 6 to 8.3 x 6....Whats you PE routine like? I noticed you mentioned bathmate for 2 hours while laying in your bed, can you explain?
                      2011 | BPEL: 6.2, EG: 5.1 |
                      1/2016 | BPEL: 7.3, EG: 6.0 |
                      1/2017 | BPEL: 7.6, EG: 6+ |
                      1/2018 | BPEL: 7.8, EG: 6+ |

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                      • #12
                        Originally posted by Beefster View Post
                        Glad to see your ideal cock goal went up from 8.2 x 6 to 8.3 x 6....Whats you PE routine like? I noticed you mentioned bathmate for 2 hours while laying in your bed, can you explain?
                        PE routine.
                        Simple right now.
                        Nightly bathmate, 30 to 90 minutes
                        (10 minute Warm up, hot water, low pressure 30%, gradual increase in pressure
                        Full pressure, pulling bm + kegels 90% to 120%
                        5 minute cool down 30%)
                        .
                        Morning/nightly full body meditation kegels to erection 15 to 45 seconds
                        .
                        Manual pulls if away from home/routine extended period of time
                        .
                        Will add more advanced techniques as plateaus are reached

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                        • #13
                          Work and rebegin.
                          So i just discovered something.
                          Idea being to fit multiple sessions into one session. Warming up to Reaching full potential within session, then cooling back down to about 30% swoleness, then going up again. Just hit .3 inches higher than last or ever on second come up!
                          I can only apply this to the bm right now as this is my main source of work and growth.
                          I just went .3 inches further than last time or any time.
                          In one sitting.
                          Pushed my max to 8 inches, held for 3 to 4 minutes backed off to 7 inches.
                          7 inches usually gives me slight pain from the get go before warm.
                          After pushing 8, 7 was actually giving me pleasure making me kegel involuntarily.
                          Now i just sat at 7 here for 5 minutes. Felt good.
                          I push it back up not even to full pressure and just went .3 inches farther in the bm than ever. 8.3
                          Slight cooldown back to 7, i just came out of this thing dick looking like a rhinoceros.
                          Half mast, moved into edging imagining stuffing one of my old chicks with this huge thing. It got bigger. Full hard on, massive. Went back into bathmate at 40% pressure, warm water for cool down again.

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                          • #14
                            Woke up after hard bathmate session yesterday slight soreness. Little bit of turtling, hard flaccid slightly smaller than usual, tighter denser flaccid state. Usually the head is sore first time shaft felt sore which is awesome predicted the head would adapt then the shaft would start to get a work out, so very cool. Did 30 minutes of super light pressure bathmate at like 20% sitting around 6.5" soft. Probably go easy/rest again tomorrow then hit a super hard session Thursday before i see my girl and fuck the shit out of her with my swollen rhino dick. Yarrrr mother fuckers. Post pictures Thursday of what this thing turns into. Amazing can't wait for it to be my standard state.

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                            • #15
                              Going to split my workouts up into two per day all night rest/all day rest, morning/ night workouts. 2 rest workouts, 1 medium, 1 hard push, randomized depending on level of soreness per 2 days. 20 to 120 minutes per workout, 20% to 120% max pressure of standard bathmate Hercules. Looking to progress what use to be a push workout into a rest workout which has already happened couple times from where i started. Looking to encourage my dick to stay in that swollen state with as little pressure as possible as much time as possible with minimal soreness next day. Then have workouts where i push hard and bring it past its normal/ past potential of expansion. Warming up to this goes a long way, within the workout, and further within the rest/ work days leading to this trying period.

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