kyska is rebooting

[kyska1985 Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close kyska1985]

Hello, my name is kyska. I found PEGYM few weeks ago I told myself to give a try. I was very sceptical about PEGYM, I started with light workout ( https://www.pegym.com/forums/beginne...t-growing.html ) and I am also very lazy person . I slighty modified that workout:

DAY 1:
10 min warm-up
130 dry jelq (wet does not work for me, I was slowly progressing to 150 jelqs per workout)
3 min stretching
10 min edging

DAY 2:
50 kegels start/stop
60 JAI stretches while using restroom

DAY 3:
day off

and back to day 1....

I take 25mg zinc, 100mg Vitamin E and 3g of fish oil every day.

I am now finishing cementing routine according to the workout and then I take break for a month.

My goal is average dick, 6x5 inches. My current size is unknown to me. I am on my day 4 of no porn/masturbation/orgasm and I cant a boner without porn.

In my introduce post I wrote:
"While reading forum, I realized I have one huge issue that I have never thought about. I have porn addiction. I masturbate for few hours on weekend and at least one hour during work days since I moved from my parents house 7 years ago. And fact, that I have three roommates, doesnīt stop me. Two months ago I had a girl in my bed, who wanted to have sex with me, but I cant get my penis up. It was first impuls to change my life somehow. I started with my body transformation to get exasted and stay away from porn, I take two lessons of kickboxing and go once a week to gym to HIT training. But I still have the energy to masturbate. I changed my diet plan and now I am grog (Primal Blueprints). So far I lost 8kg of body weight, I currently weight 117kg and I am almost two metres tall."

Size of my dick is not currently my primary goal. Without erection my dick is almost useless.

I want to ask a few question about no porn/masturbation/orgasm. I want to go 30 days and I will see if I have to continue. I would really apriciate answers from guys that gave up porn and had similar problem like myself. So here is the questions:

1. I fell like shit, I have mood swings. Today I was laughing a joke that my roommate said and after 5 minutes I wanted to kick him in the head. Is this normal?
2. It is now more difficult to stay on my new primal diet, yesterday I had piggy day and ate everything, even junk food. Today I have to control myself whole day. Do I look for pleasure replacement?
3. I started with ZEN mediation for 10 minutes every morning. Does it help with porn addiction?
4. Yes, I forgot. I cant get a boner. Anything I can do about it? (At least I can do that cementing stretches without harm. )

And also good thing I find out. I have more strenght in the gym, I finally break 300 kg barrier limit on leg press. My kickboxing lesson was not demanding at all as it used to be.

Thanks for answers in advance.

[kyska1985 Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close kyska1985]

I take my questions back. I find everything I wanted to know on yourbrainonporn.com.

Today I did cementing routine:
10 min warmup
30sec holds SO, L, R, SD, SU and 5 rotary stretches to the left and 5 to the right
10 min warmdown in the shower

NO P/M/O Day
I still cant find boner and I was looking everywhere. This day I was like on emotional rollercoster between depression, felling numb, no positive feeling at all. I feel good only after gym and kickboxing lesson.I was looking for porn, but my K9 web filter stopped me again and then my roommate came to my room to talk. Thank god

[kyska1985 Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close kyska1985]

Today I did cementing routine again and in this cycle for the last time:
10 min warmup
30sec holds SO, L, R, SD, SU and 5 rotary stretches to the left and 5 to the right
10 min warmdown in the shower

I will take 4 week deconditioning break and I will get back to pegym. I still cant get erection, so I cant measure my progress. Last time I checked my BPEL was 13,2cm. I started at 12,8cm. So I gained 4 mm in BPEL, that was after my last workout.

When I am on break, should I do some stretches or completely stop PEGYM? I plan to continue my kegels.

NO P/M/O
I start noticing real women and occasionally see them to checking me out. I still overeat, I started with overeating when I started no P/M/O. I still wonder how I could lose another kilogram of my weight. Next week I will add two High Intensity Interval Training on my off days to compensate all the food I eat. Physical activity and meditation seems to pay off, I am feeling better. I still manage my cravings for porn, which are by the way getting weaker. I did another huge step, I ditched the alcohol from my life, I was lonely drinker. I now live almost as monk, no drugs, no alcohol, no sex.

[star99 Senior Member Find all posts View Profile Close star99]

just stop porn and practice, im thinking of quitting porn too which should help. good stuff bro

[kyska1985 Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close kyska1985]

I finally make my first whole week without porn. I get finally something close to boner (50% erected), when I was watching a women in her 40s on bus. But still it is strange feeling. I feel horny, but it is difficult actually to get aroused.

Today I did kegels, 75 kegels 1 to 3s hold (3 sets x 25 reps though the whole day). I will try reverse kegels to find out how it feels.

just stop porn and practice, im thinking of quitting porn too which should help. good stuff bro

That remind me a joke I read few weeks ago.
- "How do I get to Madison Square Garden?"
- "Just practice."

[kyska1985 Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close kyska1985]

Today no PEGYM. Today I make it through the day without porn with no problem. I spent 12 hours in work, then kickboxing, then dinner cooking. And it is time to go to bed. But I had something in my mind. I feel like a loser. I have 6 friends (3 at work, 3 are my roommates). I had no idea how to talk to new people, especially women and I have desires to do so. Any ideas how to get through my social anxiety (or how name it) ???

PS. I donīt want advices like "Just be yourself". I was myself for 26 years and it gets me to the point, where I am. Something has to be changed.

[kyska1985 Junior Member Find all posts View Profile Close kyska1985]

Just did my kegels. Porn seems to be under control. I dont think about it much. Pressure in my balls is getting higher . Erection is slowly crawling back. I think at the end of next week I will get full boner.

I have some issues to be worked on that are not related to PEGYM. So I will come back on January to start regular PEGYM workout and my quest for 6 inches .