eworthi's PremE and PE progress log

[eworthi]

I've decided to move my Progress Blog into the Progress Forum because I'm interested in more supportive interaction, and this is the place to be! (thanks to MrB8 for supporting the move). So these first 9 posts were the original 9 blog entries. If you've already read them in blog form then skip this post. But if you haven't read them, and if your interested in following along as I, eworthi (a 50 year old, married, long time PremE and hemorrhoid sufferer ) finally takes action to address these issues, which is something I never thought possible prior to stumbling upon the sage wisdom here in the PEgym, then read on!

[eworthi]

Originally posted as a blog entry by eworthi , 3 Weeks Ago
OK, I've been reading posts on PEGym for weeks now and it's about time I start up a routine and track some progress. This is primarily about Premature Ejaculation (PremE) for me as I only last 30 seconds to 2 minutes while having sex, my wife has basically given up on achieving an orgasm and I want to last longer for her, and my self esteem. I've been trying kegels for PremE for years and after studying this site I am certain that by doing so I've only thrown my already out of balance pelvic floor even further off balance, so achieving pelvic floor balance will be my main focus in this blog. But these blog entries will also track my progress with Penise Enlargement (PE) which is new to me as I never really thought about it, or even thought it possible until reading this site. And I will also go into some detail as I track progress on my decades long battle with hemorrhoids, as I am convinced that its chronic nature is a result of my pelvic floor imbalance a well. I believe that my PremE is originally due to straining to ejaculate as quickly as possible at an early age (thanks to the info at this site )and my hemorrhoids are due to straining to deficate at an early age. So follow along if you like as I track my progress towards pelvic floor balance, penise enlargement, hemorrhoid eradication, and ultimately ... eliminate PremE !

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I also study Theology of the Body and John Paul II (Wojtyla) says that "if a woman does not obtain natural gratification from the sexual act there is a danger that her experience of it will be qualitatively inferior, will not involve her fully as a person" (Love and Responsibility, 273).

[eworthi]

Originally posted by eworthi , 3 Weeks Ago
PremE
Had morning wood, stroked it to last 30 minutes, no lube, did not approach Point Of No Return (PONR). Wife was asleep so I just lied there and quietly worked it. We sleep in separate side by side twin beds so I can do some things without waking her.

PE
No "official" PE exercise routine yet. I did some sets of stretching though. Maybe 3 times during the day, 1 set of 30 second pull out and to the right, then left, then up. I need to locate that post that discusses whether up or down are your primary stretch directions. If anyone is reading this and knows please chime in.

Hemorrhoids
Trace amount of blood with morning BM, much less than past few days. I've increased my fiber intake to around 40g/day hopefully this will eliminate bleeding. I have been tracking all my food for a while now and I ran a report which showed that I have been very low on fiber for a week which coinsides with recent bleeding.
Afternoon BM had trace amounts of blood too.

[eworthi]

Originally posted by eworthi , 3 Weeks Ago at 09:29 AM (220 Views)
PremE
Early morning wood led to 30 minutes of dry handed manipulation. Approached PONR twice, stopped stroking and tried Reverse Kegel (RK). Not sure if that or the stopping helped but I did over 30 minutes and no ejaculation.

Sex
She initiated a bit of foreplay then left, then returned and offered sex. It was charming and loving, for us, at 50, there is no "hot and heavy" foreplay, just a "let's get 'er done" attitude. I lasted around 30 seconds after thrusting began, on my bed in missionary position. I tried to pay attention to whether I was involuntary kegeling or if my pelvic floor was clenched, but it's like I can't feel anything but the pleasure. There is an invisible wall through which I can't feel a thing that I feel when I'm on my own. I ineptly tried to RK breathe, but ended up giving in and thrusting to orgasm. It felt great but was immediately followed by the shame for not having pleased her, or brought her to orgasm. She was fine with it, as usual, having delt with any issues and resentments years ago, it's just me, I want to, and believe I can, learn to control my orgasm. I want to surprise her one day.
Mantra: don't focus on the failure and total lack of control, focus on developing a training regimen and following it, focus on this forum site and what it has to offer.

Hemorrhoids
Very little blood on paper only. I did not have my prunes last night, I must remember to keep the fiber up and the prunes everyday.

[eworthi]

Originally postedby eworthi , 3 Weeks Ago at 07:19 AM (250 Views)
PremE
Did a few sets of RK during the day.
No morning wood.

PE
Did 3 set of 2 minute pull with 30 seconds left right up and out

Hemorrhoids
Long time waiting on pot for morning BM. No blood.

[eworthi]

Originally posted by eworthi , 2 Weeks Ago at 12:44 PM (242 Views)
PremE
Did 30min of dry handed edging early this am, lying in bed, did not really get too close to PONR, no ejaculation. Later in am did 10min lubricated edging and had to back off PONR numerous times. Tried to RK to back away from PONR and it may have helped a little but is very difficult for me isolate RK when lubing. I can definately feel the involuntary kegeling with almost every stroke. Changed to a standing position with thrusting into my hand and was at PONR with every stroke. Tried to stop but was too close to PONR and felt the orgasm starting, tried clamping down with a strong Kegel, but couldn't hold it long enough and blew. Felt great but I really wanted to not ejaculate. For now I think that edging with lube is still the way to go because without it I feel like I could just keep going on and on and learn nothing. But next time I need to stop even sooner.

[eworthi]

Originally postedby eworthi , 2 Weeks Ago at 11:45 AM (213 Views)
PremE
Kept morning wood going for 30min dry handed with some thrusting on soft blankets in missionary position, was able to remain fairly close to PONR. Then used lube for another 20min, mostly in pseudo missionary position thrusting into hand, then standing. Kept close to PONR with several full stops, no real success with RK while thrusting but kept trying and could feel the effect while breathing while stopped. Could feel all the involuntary kegels. Chose not to ejaculate, and didn't!

PE
I have been stretching while brushing my teeth for a few days now. My electric toothbrush has a 2 minute timer so I have been stretching twice a day for 2 minutes, not a great routine but it's something.

Hemorrhoids
Interesting development today. Research taught me that a hemorrhoid is basically a vericose vein that has prolapsed outside the anus, usually due to straining during BM's at some point earlier in life. Mine is a stage 3 hemorrhoid because it prolapses outside but can be pushed back in after each bowel movement (BM). After regular wiping with toilet paper I use 1/2 a wet paper towel sheet to press the hemorroid back inside, it kind of "pops" back in when correctly pressed, then the other half of the paper towel to make sure all is dry and clean. So, this morning I recognise that I habitually involuntary kegel during a BM (just like I do during sex/edging). Basically, just before and after the crap slides out and into the toilet my anus goes into a short series of kegel spasms. So I figure that with each involuntary kegel I am trapping more and more blood in the prolapsed portion of the hemorrhoid. The BM pulls the hemorrhoid outside the anus due to friction and then the involuntary kegel compresses it and keeps it outside the anus. So my goal is to try to control the involuntary kegels during BM's, which is what I'm trying to do during sex/edging for PremE as well. Amazing. My pelvic floor is an imbalanced mess and has been ruining my sex life AND bowel movements!

[eworthi]

Originally postedby eworthi , 1 Week Ago at 08:37 AM (61 Views)
PremE
20 minute dry rub this morning followed by 20 minute lubricated. I had a few stops to avoid PONR but I really concentrated on where I could touch and not cause an involuntary kegel (IK). I can stroke the lower shaft with pressure without IK but the moment I touch the glans or head the IK fires off. I did not ejaculate .
Another 20 dry rub, this time while at work (I hope that's not too pervish reached PONR in 10min and then edged for another 10, no ejaculation and this time I really feel the need to cum.

Sex Swing
Yes, I completed building the sex swing I have been designing and building for some time and I showed it to her! No discussion, I just showed it to her and offered to talk about it but she opted to go away and think about it. Time will tell.

PE
Hemorrhoids
I continue to see a correlation between fiber intake and whether my hemorrhoids bleed during a BM. On days after I eat around 40grams fiber I do not bleed. As for involuntary BC muscle (is that the muscle around the anus? ) kegels, I have had some success in not triggering the involuntary kegels while wiping by going very slow and breathing. I wish I could say the same for sex but all in good time, all in good time.

[eworthi]

Originally postedby eworthi , 1 Week Ago at 05:37 AM (58 Views)
PremE
About an hour of edging this morning, mostly dry handed while lying back in bed,which does not get me too close to PONR, then some thrusting on this super cozy blanket which got me close to PONR pretty fast. (love that blanket, now I know what Linus was up to with his, LOL) Once I had to stop the first time to avoid PONR then its just thrust by thrust with each one bringing me right back up there. Unless I break for about a minute, then I can go a few thrusts before PONR. I definately got to that super hard, glans ready to explode point, but backed off and did not ejaculate.

PE
Read about Jelqing here on the forums and will try to incorporate some of that.

General
Thinking about the sex swing I completed and showed the wife, I am anticipating she will discuss it this morning, wondering if she will want to try it?

Hemorrhoids
Its pretty crazy that it may be true that all I has to do all these years of on-again off-again bleeding was to up my fiber intake, but the statistics show that I do not bleed the days after high fiber intake. Its such a common thing "eat more fiber!" that I feel like an idiot for not being aware. But I am such a healthy eater and eat so much salad that I would have thought I was way over in my daily fiber intake. But because I emphasize a lower carb diet I actually don't get enough. Now watch me start bleeding again despite high fiber and dispute this whole thing.
As for involuntary kegeling in the anus region while wiping, I seem to be doing better at paying attention, breathing, and not kegeling. However, when I am done wiping I then have to press the prolapse back up and in and that part seems impossible to do without kegeling involuntarily. It's so damn counter productive too, just when you want to remain loose and open to pressing the little bulge back up inside, you involuntary kegel which acts to force the damn thing back out!
If I have any readers I bet they are squirming in their pelvic floors in reading this, but hey, this is a huge men's health issue, and yes, I still do think it relates directly to PremE, so as the anus said to hemorrhoid "suck it up".
Another quick note, I talk to my chiropractor about all this stuff and he recommended i try kegeling while inverted. I have inversion boots and a bar so I have been trying that recently too. The idea is to kegel while gravity is working in reverse on your pelvic floor, thus training the colon to retract up into the body when rectal kegeling.

[eworthi]

Originally postedby eworthi , 6 Days Ago at 04:36 PM (112 Views)
PremE
Edged dry this morning for about 20 min then thrust on blanket for 10 min with several stops ahead of PONR. No ejaculation. I also did about 8 minutes of edging while hanging from my inversion bar, it was pretty tricky doing the dry rub and keeping it hard, and funny!

Sex
It was fine, I was relaxed but still hit PONR within 1 min. Now that we seem to have sex once a week on weekends my Pavlovian response clock starts ticking on Friday afternoons and I start anticipating and getting pretty excited . I briefly tried to do an RK during sex but I just can't feel a thing, so I just go for it. It's definately not pleasant for me or her if I don't thrust hard while cumming, she prefers that I finish hard and fast over lasting a few seconds more with a weak climax . She is so good natured to put up with me and my PremE all these years.

General
Joined a bunch of groups here at the gym today, I look forward to getting more involved around here. I quit FaceBook a while back and have been tempted to return there recently but have decided to concentrate all my online social media efforts here. This goal of orgasm control is very important to me right now.
I ordered a BathMate today, I figure I'll keep it at work as that is where I do most of my showering.
I fixed my signature here as well, I'm starting at 7" BPEL, and I had written 6.25, but that was the non-bone-press and I don't want to look like I'm attaining phenomenal growth on my next measurement day,... well that is unless if the phenominal growth is real !