Nothing has improved in my marriage since the last of my rambling threads. I really do not know where to start because I am so torn. Might seem pussified but when you feel the way you do. You feel the way you do.
I get home from work before her. When she comes in I let her come in greet her and let her unwind a little. Then after some time while we are in the living room I will start conversation and this is how it usually goes. I ask how her day went. Every time her replies are one or two word responses. Good, ok it sucked. Then I will ask if this one child caused any trouble. She works with special needs children and one of them tries to run away. Sometimes she will go off and tell me all kinds of stuff and it is all about her her her. Which is good I want to know what is going on in her world. Now the part that hurts. Out of all that time inquiring about her day. Not once did she or does she ask me how my day was.
One day after our one sided conversations. We sat for about five minutes in silence. I was just waiting to be asked how my day was. Nothing. So I got up and went do something in another room. I come back and she is on her phone checking facebook. You're more interested in what is going on on FB than you are with your husband. Ok.
I will never tell you about the first week of sugar cane grinding season how I almost killed someone and went off the road with a tanker load of crude oil. Due to the fog and the farmers burning the husk. Bringing visibility to ZERO.
She works in the school system. They get off for Christmas break for about two weeks. They do not return until after the first. Not once in those days or in the break they just got over with Mardi Gras. Did she go out of her way to make an effort so that when I came in from work. I didn't have to do all the things I need to do to get ready for the next day. Not once did you offer to make my sandwich for lunch. Or have something ready for dinner. You were home all day and you know about what time I will be home. Still you didn't even make an effort to fix anything. Then the kids are going to ask me what is for dinner. I don't think so. If it was normal circumstances I would have no issue about dinner. Being that you were home and did nothing. That is what burns me up.
Here is the straw that broke the camels back. On of our neighbors puts our kids on the bus for school. I was paying her one day and she asked me a question. Did they ever find out who started the rumor about your daughter? What rumor? She was thrown and asked me. You don't know? Maybe I shouldn't have said anything. What is the rumor? That your daughter is pregnant. No thank you for telling me. I am not going to say anything. Thank you. So for about three weeks everyday I asked my daughter how things are at school. Any problems? No everything is ok. Ok just checking. You know if there is a problem you can come talk to me no matter what it is. Ok. Ok
So one day we were in the living room. Wife daughter and me. TV was acting up and I was trying to get it working. Then out of the blue I ask the both of them. So did ya'll ever find out who started the rumor? What rumor? The rumor about our daughter being pregnant. Wife says I didn't tell you because you would get mad at her. Is she pregnant? No? Why ten would I get mad. What pisses me off is that you didn't tell me. Then I ask my daughter the next day. Why for the past weeks I asked you if there was any problems at school you said all was good. Why didn't you tell me about this? I am your dad that is what I am here for. Her reply was. Because momma told me not to tell you. Are you serious? Yes.
So that is where I am. I feel like the only thing I am good for with this ungrateful family I have is just to provide food, clothing and shelter. And you know what? That is exactly what I've been doing. No more no less.
I am hurt and pissed. Being ignored one can only take it for so long. I have a long fuse and I am long suffering. Just do not know how long long is.
Sorry for the ramble. I could go on and on. Like I said there is nothing new about my situation. I think about my kids and that is what keeps me here. Good for them but not for me if things don't change. I am the only one who can do that.
I get home from work before her. When she comes in I let her come in greet her and let her unwind a little. Then after some time while we are in the living room I will start conversation and this is how it usually goes. I ask how her day went. Every time her replies are one or two word responses. Good, ok it sucked. Then I will ask if this one child caused any trouble. She works with special needs children and one of them tries to run away. Sometimes she will go off and tell me all kinds of stuff and it is all about her her her. Which is good I want to know what is going on in her world. Now the part that hurts. Out of all that time inquiring about her day. Not once did she or does she ask me how my day was.
One day after our one sided conversations. We sat for about five minutes in silence. I was just waiting to be asked how my day was. Nothing. So I got up and went do something in another room. I come back and she is on her phone checking facebook. You're more interested in what is going on on FB than you are with your husband. Ok.
I will never tell you about the first week of sugar cane grinding season how I almost killed someone and went off the road with a tanker load of crude oil. Due to the fog and the farmers burning the husk. Bringing visibility to ZERO.
She works in the school system. They get off for Christmas break for about two weeks. They do not return until after the first. Not once in those days or in the break they just got over with Mardi Gras. Did she go out of her way to make an effort so that when I came in from work. I didn't have to do all the things I need to do to get ready for the next day. Not once did you offer to make my sandwich for lunch. Or have something ready for dinner. You were home all day and you know about what time I will be home. Still you didn't even make an effort to fix anything. Then the kids are going to ask me what is for dinner. I don't think so. If it was normal circumstances I would have no issue about dinner. Being that you were home and did nothing. That is what burns me up.
Here is the straw that broke the camels back. On of our neighbors puts our kids on the bus for school. I was paying her one day and she asked me a question. Did they ever find out who started the rumor about your daughter? What rumor? She was thrown and asked me. You don't know? Maybe I shouldn't have said anything. What is the rumor? That your daughter is pregnant. No thank you for telling me. I am not going to say anything. Thank you. So for about three weeks everyday I asked my daughter how things are at school. Any problems? No everything is ok. Ok just checking. You know if there is a problem you can come talk to me no matter what it is. Ok. Ok
So one day we were in the living room. Wife daughter and me. TV was acting up and I was trying to get it working. Then out of the blue I ask the both of them. So did ya'll ever find out who started the rumor? What rumor? The rumor about our daughter being pregnant. Wife says I didn't tell you because you would get mad at her. Is she pregnant? No? Why ten would I get mad. What pisses me off is that you didn't tell me. Then I ask my daughter the next day. Why for the past weeks I asked you if there was any problems at school you said all was good. Why didn't you tell me about this? I am your dad that is what I am here for. Her reply was. Because momma told me not to tell you. Are you serious? Yes.
So that is where I am. I feel like the only thing I am good for with this ungrateful family I have is just to provide food, clothing and shelter. And you know what? That is exactly what I've been doing. No more no less.
I am hurt and pissed. Being ignored one can only take it for so long. I have a long fuse and I am long suffering. Just do not know how long long is.
Sorry for the ramble. I could go on and on. Like I said there is nothing new about my situation. I think about my kids and that is what keeps me here. Good for them but not for me if things don't change. I am the only one who can do that.
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