So I love my girlfriend of a few years, but I'm struggling with her weight. She's a big girl, I'm guessing 19-20 stone and I'm struggling to find her body sexy. I love her, but I'm kind of feeling fed up of being torn down the midldle. Am I wrong to want her to be thin and physically attractive? I'm far from perfect, but I try to look after myself a bit.
She keeps talking about marriage, and honestly, the thought of committing to a lifelong relationship where I'm not 100% happy scares the crap out of me. I love her, she's an awesome person, but surely I need to find her body attractive?
I don't know what to do and I hate myself for even writing this; I'm also terrified she finds this and works out it's me somehow... PEGym rule 101: incognito mode.
One thing that hurts is the first time she saw me naked I was in a sitting position which made mini me, erm, look rather mini. She thought that that was the full package and she confessed weeks later that she almost ended our relationship because she thought I was small. She obviously learned afterwards that I'm actually normal sized but I've never been able to shake that self doubt. Point is, I'm obviously not the only shallow person in this relationship.
Am I evil and selfish for feeling stuck like this? I don't want to end a long term relationship as I can't imagine her not in my life, but at the same time, I'm constantly looking at other thin, attractive girls and thinking why can't she be like that? I don't want to be unhappy and wasting away experiences. She's the only girl I've been with as well...
She keeps talking about marriage, and honestly, the thought of committing to a lifelong relationship where I'm not 100% happy scares the crap out of me. I love her, she's an awesome person, but surely I need to find her body attractive?
I don't know what to do and I hate myself for even writing this; I'm also terrified she finds this and works out it's me somehow... PEGym rule 101: incognito mode.
One thing that hurts is the first time she saw me naked I was in a sitting position which made mini me, erm, look rather mini. She thought that that was the full package and she confessed weeks later that she almost ended our relationship because she thought I was small. She obviously learned afterwards that I'm actually normal sized but I've never been able to shake that self doubt. Point is, I'm obviously not the only shallow person in this relationship.
Am I evil and selfish for feeling stuck like this? I don't want to end a long term relationship as I can't imagine her not in my life, but at the same time, I'm constantly looking at other thin, attractive girls and thinking why can't she be like that? I don't want to be unhappy and wasting away experiences. She's the only girl I've been with as well...
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