Hello, I have been dating my GF for around 3 months. And I would like to hear your input, maybe something I should do to stop being the person I am today.
Ok so around 4 months ago I started chatting on an online dating site with my now girlfriend, we were chatting periodically, and one day around a month later decided to meet. Im very introverted by nature, never party, dont drink or smoke, And from our chatting she made her self seem very much alike, also introverted, very much in common.
So we had our first date, we went for a drive, saw the sunset on the last warm days of autumn, very pleasant day that was. And by the looks she seemed very innocent.
Fast forward almost a month, I had my first kiss ever with her about 10 days ago, we are making out on her bed really hard, she says she wants to sleep with me, but not yet (she does not know Im still virgin at this point), She shoves her hand down my pants starts doing a great handjob, after which proceeds to give me a BJ. Next morning I had job errands to do and I left.
Next evening we go for a drive, having a chat, she asks me about my previous sexual experiences, since it seems I know what im doing with her, I tell her that Im virgin, And she was the first girl I ever kissed (im 23), She was kinda dumbstruck, said that I knew what I was doing, and everything, but she said nothing about her sexual past at the time, even though I shared my shameful secret with no hesitation. Since I dont like to hide.
Anyhow, going back through time till present day, she has told so much about her sexual past, and crazy parties, countless times she has been drunk, one time she was drunk and horny and went to some stud she was seeing, and he ended up fucking her in the ass, but she was to drunk to do anything about it. Or another time she slept with a 35 year old man. And thats probably only the half of it.
Ok, where am I going with this? She really has strong feelings for me, otherwise we would not have planned new year plans 1 month in advance, she would not tell her parents about me, and we are going to see them in a few weeks, she wants to see me all the time. And to tell you the truth I have really strong feelings for her, because we can talk about anything, we feel comfortable not talking just being in each others company. I have met her friends, and she has met my family.
The problem Is with me, It just eats me alive knowing what she has done in the past, all the partying, sleeping around, doing drugs. I want to be with her, but how do I stop worrying about her past!? How? It also somewhat makes me envy her, since all those years I never partied, Im working as a mechanic since 17, Im now a professional welder. I just want to be happy that I have her now, but my brain keeps thinking that she is damaged goods. Oh god, im so miserable I hate myself. I sometimes feel as I should just leave her so she could find someone better.
I really hope to hear from you guys, good or bad, yes I know im a jerk.
Ok so around 4 months ago I started chatting on an online dating site with my now girlfriend, we were chatting periodically, and one day around a month later decided to meet. Im very introverted by nature, never party, dont drink or smoke, And from our chatting she made her self seem very much alike, also introverted, very much in common.
So we had our first date, we went for a drive, saw the sunset on the last warm days of autumn, very pleasant day that was. And by the looks she seemed very innocent.
Fast forward almost a month, I had my first kiss ever with her about 10 days ago, we are making out on her bed really hard, she says she wants to sleep with me, but not yet (she does not know Im still virgin at this point), She shoves her hand down my pants starts doing a great handjob, after which proceeds to give me a BJ. Next morning I had job errands to do and I left.
Next evening we go for a drive, having a chat, she asks me about my previous sexual experiences, since it seems I know what im doing with her, I tell her that Im virgin, And she was the first girl I ever kissed (im 23), She was kinda dumbstruck, said that I knew what I was doing, and everything, but she said nothing about her sexual past at the time, even though I shared my shameful secret with no hesitation. Since I dont like to hide.
Anyhow, going back through time till present day, she has told so much about her sexual past, and crazy parties, countless times she has been drunk, one time she was drunk and horny and went to some stud she was seeing, and he ended up fucking her in the ass, but she was to drunk to do anything about it. Or another time she slept with a 35 year old man. And thats probably only the half of it.
Ok, where am I going with this? She really has strong feelings for me, otherwise we would not have planned new year plans 1 month in advance, she would not tell her parents about me, and we are going to see them in a few weeks, she wants to see me all the time. And to tell you the truth I have really strong feelings for her, because we can talk about anything, we feel comfortable not talking just being in each others company. I have met her friends, and she has met my family.
The problem Is with me, It just eats me alive knowing what she has done in the past, all the partying, sleeping around, doing drugs. I want to be with her, but how do I stop worrying about her past!? How? It also somewhat makes me envy her, since all those years I never partied, Im working as a mechanic since 17, Im now a professional welder. I just want to be happy that I have her now, but my brain keeps thinking that she is damaged goods. Oh god, im so miserable I hate myself. I sometimes feel as I should just leave her so she could find someone better.
I really hope to hear from you guys, good or bad, yes I know im a jerk.
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