If you are doing PE now, I wouldn't obsess over your current size. If you put as much energy into PE as you have with this, within two years you will be sharing stories like me. Think about this with the ladies, "I did my best today, tomorrow I will do better." That is a progressive mindset that will carry you far in all aspects of life. It embodies a lifestyle choice of continuous improvement and with that you can gain momentum and become the best version of yourself.