Hi Everyone. I am once again separated from my boyfriend. I am now home. In the past I have really gotten depressed when separated. Since the whole thing when I lost my temper I have got my head straightened out. Now, I have only been home a few days, but I am trying to look at this thing as taking a vacation. You cannot live on a beach forever (most cannot) and you have to go home. I have also learned a few other things. I have gone to see this guy for 2 1/2 days, a week, 2 weeks and lastly a whole month. Now I do not stay at his place, I stay with family (except for the one that was 2 1/2 days). This last trip for a month I thought I would see him a lot. I didn't. Total let down. That was partly what made me blow up. He seems to see me more often for sex if I am there for 1-10 days. This has brought me to the final conclusion that moving there would be a bad idea. I would probably see him less. We might even grow tired of this thing sooner if saw each other all the time.. So, I am going to look at our sex as merely a vacation. I know I will go on vacation again and enjoy it. As I said, I have got my head straight now. This is not a relationship getting deeper. It is just sex and I know this. I lost it a little there when it looked like he maybe wanted to go deeper but he doesn't. We know this now.
So far, my looking at it as just a vacation has helped me. I am pretty proud of myself. I have been thinking reasonably about things and have found a healthier way to look at it. This type of thing has always been a struggle for me. I would miss people horribly and be a wreck. Progress is good!
So far, my looking at it as just a vacation has helped me. I am pretty proud of myself. I have been thinking reasonably about things and have found a healthier way to look at it. This type of thing has always been a struggle for me. I would miss people horribly and be a wreck. Progress is good!
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